HATE DAT GROWS
i want to talk about this hate that's been growing deep inside of me. it wasn't there before until i had my son and the betrayal then took placed.
despise the fact we spoken on it; it never was meant to really happen, it wasn't your decision but mines. and you went behind my back, to tell his father that i gave birth. you thought that a bby was going to change that man mind and i kept telling you its wasnt..
i feel like you was miserable in the position you put yourself in and i had to join in the parade with you because you lowkey didnt want to be alone walking through that. the positive shit you thought was going to happen just because i was carrying his kid didnt mean shit to him. i knew it and you just blinded by your own belief that you fooled me into thinking that hope and faith would change him. but this man colors really came out more as our son got older. yet his colors continue to bleed out, got me looking at myself like how foolish was i. now with everything that he is putting me through has made me grow hate towards our friendship.
a lesson in life that had to be learned the hard way. now im just accepting it for what it is. moving forward one step at a time. i hope to one day to forgive you but i have to eat this L.
















