GhostWriter

[ghostwriteram]

Lover 1.0

…

I have been thinking a lot lately…

And somehow, not enough.

It feels as if something is burning inside of me,

But something is also slowly cooling me altogether.

I say I don’t have the answers,

And I worry they will not arrive in time.

I say to myself, well, whats the worst that can happen?

I ask for an extension, I reply.

An extension for what?

… curtains close. Big applause. Rorschach would say.

But, what if that burn is the desire to reverse what has already been done? Afraid to face the sound of the music. Yet, somehow, the music seems to have been playing all along.

Im not sure where the road ends, but …

I should probably go to bed. Good night.

[forestdenizen]

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[suicidioentrepaginas]

Feeling like you lost your spark it's a funny thing... you're trying to be the same as before, but at the same time you need to overgrown the thing that took that spark from you... and it's a very difficult thing going forward and backwards at the same time.

[maureen2musings]

Milky Way over a sunflower field, Segonzac, France

Romain Galoché

[maureen2musings]

Rainbauernmühle Mill, Black Forest, Germany

foresttales.bycarolin

[annagrostina]

[expressions-of-nature]

by Petr Kosykh

[microbe]

[ghostwriteram]

I keep wishing for the day when your name miraculously pops up on my screen, and my heart stops for one quick second. Will that day ever arrive? Maybe I can believe it into happening; I guess only time will tell. But in short, I miss you dearly. I can't help but feel the longing for what never was, and possibly never will be.

[ghostwriteram]

It hurts, it's heavy,

Is this even normal?

Time we didn't share,

Turns to overwhelming emotion,

Longing for what may never be.

[remanence-of-love]

[bubbly-redhead1]

Yep

[ghostwriteram]

You reached out. You broke no contact… what can I say, Ive missed you. It brought a smile to my face to see that it was Saturday night and you were thinking of me. But that was very short lived. Then i started thinking about what you could be up to, how the night would end up for you, stressing about your whereabouts, and that was enough to bring me back to reality. The reality in which im insecure by your side because i don’t trust you. The reality that you’re impulsive, and lack self control. The reality that you don’t respect boundaries, hence you texting me though i explicitly told you not to. The reality that you had me, time and time again. Chance and chance again, and yet, every single time you failed me. My brain doesn’t want to recognize it, but thats my reality. Staying by your side, going back to you means giving up on my peace. It means giving up on my faith that I deserve better, and I do. I love you, I really still do. But despite my strong feelings for you, I chose to love myself more and prioritize my peace, and unfortunately, I can’t find that with you. Maybe one day the puzzle pieces will click. Maybe one day we can try again. Maybe one day we’ll be destined forever together. Unfortunately, todays not that day.

[quotemadness]

Learn to give people up before they hurt you beyond repair. Even if they tell you they will change. Even if they tell you that they love you. Just remember, love isn’t meant to be permanently damaging. Love is meant to aid your healing.

Nikita Gill

[love]

by red nectar

[love]

by Evan Holm

[love]

Twin Peaks (1990-1991)

[love]

by wilderpoetry