Gianna and Maryse’s sister were almost the same age, so Maryse obviously felt the need to care for Gianna. While the other girl was struggling to find her footing in the company and apparently life as well, she was trying to find her footing without Mike. The blonde knew that she had to take care of the brunette as best she could. And so he did. “Car accidents suck, but as long as you’re okay then everything else can be fixed. As for the ex, I know exactly how you’re feeling. Been there, done that. If you want to start rooming with me, I won’t mind. I’m not going to tell you that rooming with me will stop the pain, but it might help to have someone at your disposal almost 24/7. And I won’t be afraid to keep him from putting his hands on you in any way you don’t want him too.”
Gianna nodded, as she listened to Maryse spoke. She knew a little about what Maryse was going through but never spoke about it around her because she didn’t want to intrude into someone else’s life. “I don’t want to intrude into your life, I’m not in the best stage of mind.” She said as she crossed her arms, and looked away. Tearing streaming down her face, as she turned herself around to start crying low, to herself. She wipes away her tears, she bit her lip knowing turning her back to Maryse was rude, but she hated crying and being this vulnerable around others.
It was warm outside. Not warm enough though to keep Maryse from enjoying the weather, and definitely not warm enough to hold her back from hugging the girl. “I remember my first car accident. It’s super nerve wracking.” Ever since becoming a mom, Maryse was full of understanding. She could also notice that things weren’t off to a great start for the girl and she felt like she needed to do something about it. Although being so close to her could cause the other girl problems as well. People couldn’t seem to separate her on screen persona from her real one and a lot held things against her. The blonde just hoped that the brunette would be open to her help.
Gianna nodded listening to Maryse. "I just felt really alone, recently getting into the car accident and now recently breaking up with my boyfriend!" She bit her lip harder, so hard that it hurt a bit. She looked up at the blonde, "He sometimes will come around to the hotel rooms. I get embarrass because I'm sure people hear us yelling at one another or hear me crying. It's starting to get emotionally draining because we will make up and have sex but now because all we do is fight its getting psychical too!" Gianna covered her mouth and then buried her face into her legs trying not to cry in front of Maryse.
Muffled screams met Maryse’s ears as she made her way out of the go kart, her throat burning so bad that she was in a coughing fit. It felt like she was coughing up a lung. Maryse blinked a few times to clear the haziness away, focus on what was happening. There was smoke and fire everywhere. She could smell it, heavy in the air, but it didn’t look like anyone was hurt. “Looks like everyone is fine. Probably just shaken up. Are you sure you’re okay? Something seems wrong.”
Gianna took a deep breathe as she turned away from the smoke and sat down on the grass letting a big cough out to clear her lungs. She looked down at her fingernails and bit her lip. "U-umm." She started saying but then looked up at Maryse. "I just am a little shook up about what just happened because recently I was in a car accident, it was that bad but it was my first one" She said softly. "I haven't been behind the wheel since." She bit her lip. "I was nervous to even do this" She said softly.
“Loser has to go get the drinks!” She paused, smiling at Gianna before turning back to look at the track. “Hope you’re ready for your walk of sha-“ A sudden, echoing boom stopped her mid-sentence, the both of them flinching and instinctively bringing their arms up as they looked for the source. A wave of heat rushed toward them, panicked shrieks and thick smoke quickly filling the otherwise silent evening. Someone had jumped the gun and already run into the wall of the track, the go kart now on fire. “Change of plans.” Maryse said as she got out of the car and followed Gianna to a grassy area nearby. “Well that’s awkward. You okay?”
Gianna laughed when Maryse mentioned loser buys drinks. "Your on!" She said, "Better get your wallet ready Maryse!" She said smiling, suddenly she jumped and heard yelling, Gianna got really scared, feeling the heat from the fire. She rushed over to the side, as she quickly grabbed Maryse’s hand. When both girls were on the grass, she looked over at Maryse. She held herself, getting a flashback from her recent accident. "I-I'm okay." She said, her voice low. She watched the track. "Is everyone okay?" She said concerned as she tip toed to look where it happned. She looked at Maryse, as she bit her lip.
Maryse couldn’t remember what brought this challenge on, but she thought it was a good way to get to know the new girl. She’d been upset and it seemed like Gianna was feeling the same way. To everyone’s surprise the blonde was not much of a talker, especially when things weren’t going well. Getting to race might help her out because she could be competitive. Hopefully Gianna’s gloating about being really good at go kart racing was just all talk, otherwise she was going to get her ass kicked and there was nothing she hated more. “You ready to back up all the trash you talked?” Her voice was sweet and she smiled at the new girl, wanting her to know that she wasn’t as rude and horrible as she was on TV. @gianna-ohnana
Gianna laughed at Maryse knowing how competivate she was that’s why she was gloating and talking so much shit. She needed some kindof distraction and Maryse and her were sitting near one another on the way to the BBQ. So when they agreed to do the go karts, she got excited. Gianna didn’t feel like she fit in too much because she was the youngest in the group of employees. She didn’t think many of them knew either, so she could take part in drinking. If she could sneak some in though, she wasn’t going to refuse. She go into the go kart and laughed. “Are you ready Maryse?” She said laughing. Recently Gianna got into an accident, so she was nervous alittle in something she’s not used too.
“Well it’s nice to meet you outside of work, Gina.” Kennedy said with a smile and looked over the menu herself. “I don’t know if I’ve introduced myself outside of the ring, but my real name is Kennedy, not Amber.” She ordered a water when the waiter came over and she looked back at the other female. “Since January. But they still treat me like I’m nobody because I haven’t really had that many chances around here.” The brunette shrugged. “Except for that really awesome match I had at the last pay-per-view, but everyone got butt hurt about the placement of it, so I feel like they’re all mad at me now.”
“Is it okay if I call you Kenny?” She said smiling, “I know it’s a boys name but I think it’s cute. If you don’t, I’ll have to come up with another nickname.” She said laughing. “My real name is Gianna, my mom always called me Gina for short sometimes. But my birth name is a long one before I moved here when I was little. We have shorten my name so much legally! It’s Georgia Anna, when I came to the U.S. from Cuba, on the documents we combined it’s to Gianna because from Georgia, I was Gina. So it only made sense.” She laughed knowing she was talking too much. She did that when she was nervous. She ordered a water with lime for herself when the waiter came by as she continued looking at the menu and listen to her speak. “I noticed most people aren’t as welcoming to new comers” She said bitting her lip thinking what she wanted. “It kindof sucks to be honest. I wanna feel like I belong”
Kennedy had been at the arena in Norfolk to prepare for the show tomorrow night and she noticed that Gianna happened to be in the same boat as her when it came to having friends around here. Sure, she had a stable with a few others, but they only really interacted on TV, so she usually just went home and kept to herself and her eight dogs. The blonde had gotten a bunch of the dogs after her fiance had died last year and she still hadn’t dealt with the emotions that came with that tragedy. Her instinct was to do everything in her power to not think about it, and that was why she wanted to help Gianna feel better. Kennedy grabbed her purse and headed to the restaurant that the two had decided on. Once she was there she went in and met Gianna at the table, smiling as she sat down. @gianna-ohnana
Gianna was glad that someone was there and noticed her. When both girls were done with their meetings, they went to the restaurant. She sat down and looked at the menu. “Most people call me Gina by the way.” She said awkwardly as she laughed softly to herself knowing how awkward she was. “How long have you been with the company?” She said glaring over at the other female.
Yeah, it sucks. I went to the arena to just kindof talk over with management on what I need to do tomorrow and I saw a few main streams. I was like hey, whats up and they just passed by me as if I didn’t say a word to them
Don’t you love how some of them think they’re so much better than us? It’s so annoying. They ignore me a lot too. You wanna go get food or something and talk about it?
You getting ignored too? I feel that on a deeper level. Being the new girl sucks.
Yeah, it sucks. I went to the arena to just kindof talk over with management on what I need to do tomorrow and I saw a few main streams. I was like hey, whats up and they just passed by me as if I didn’t say a word to them
  I’m just emotionally drained. I don’t feel like I belong. I don’t have any friends, I haven’t made any.. I barely have anyone to talk to. I have one person who is there for me and that is about it. I have been there for so many people but I feel like I have no one when I need someone. I need to change my ways for sure but first I need to look out for myself. I have to start being selfish, just like how everyone else seems to be
   I hate to say that because I was raised to have a heart. I have one of the biggest heart, but I tired of being treated the way I have been. So many people have used me for everything that I have. I do things that don’t even benefit me half the time.
  Where do I go from here? Can you really make new friends in your 20′s? I don’t know if I can trust that? I just want to know where my good karma is.. because why does bad things happen to the good people? It’s like the question how many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop? THE WORLD MAY NEVER KNOW!
   I have been missing in action lately because I have been feeling so lonely and upset. You would think I would come over and pick up a pen and just write but its such a struggle to get up from bed every morning. I can’t seem to want to get dressed and even go to work, doing something I love..
   I think my boyfriend and I are on the verge of breaking up. I have this gut feeling that hes unhappy in the relationship with me. He is the type of person to run away from his problems and that isn't me. I need to speak about everything or else my mind races.
   I don't deserve to be treated like this and I know this but I question myself everyday and what I honestly deserve. I know I'm not the best girlfriend in the world. When we are together, yes we bicker but what couple doesn't? I know I'm not the easier to talk to.. but I am working on that.
   I just want to be loved and feel loved. I want to leave this relationship but at the same time I don't. Maybe its the feeling of not wanting to be alone and feeling alone scares me. I have to find my self worth... where do I go?
   So I went to the dealership today and they told me what the cost would be to fix the car. Of course it’s too much money and it’s not something I can afford. I asked my dad for help and of course he wouldn’t want to spend a dime. I can’t do this alone! I wish I had a father in my life that actually cared about me, that whenever I needed help he was there for me. Like every other girl calls their dad for car trouble and he’s there for her in a heart beat. I dealt with this accident myself, it’s funny because I called my dad before it all and he was on a mini vacation in the same state only about an hour away.. did he come? No. I just feel so alone.
   My mom has done everything and anything I need and now that I’m growing up I need to do myself and I understand that but when you need help, aren’t your parents supposed to help? I wanna know what my dad has done for me all my life? Seriously let’s break it down.. yes he is the one that made me, but when I needed something as a child my mom was the one who got me everything. Only thing I have memory of my dad doing is taking me with him and always buying me fast food or taking me to the park. Nothing like going to an amusement park or anything just the park down the street from my uncles. He never let me have any friends and the friends I did have were always scared of him. I was always alone, and now it feels like that always because I don’t have anyone now. When my mom got divorced to my dad a few years after I had asked him to be able to save some money for myself if I could live in the house I lived in almost all my life. But my dads wife denied me and he didn’t even stand up for me. I even offered to pay rent, IN MY OWN HOME! I was young and the advice my step mother gave me was, maybe I should get a boyfriend and move in with him. Oh so you mean what she did all her life!?
   Not only was I denied a place to live by him, but I was denied a car, when he has an extra car he’s trying to sell. I offered to even pay for this too! I was told if I get my license this car was mine. I got it and it wasn’t. My dodge was almost 17 years old, I grew up with this car and it would stall out on me. So this car was older but it worked better! But again his wife denied me his car because it was her mothers and she may need it. Her mother told me I could have it, wouldn’t have asked for a dime. She has not drove in years! Then asked for help to get a new car, maybe even used. I didn’t care. Denied that too. I have put out over $3,000 about on just things for a car either my Honda or the Dodge. What really gets to me is that my dad got mad that I sold the Dodge, he wanted it.. he would of brought it off me? But for how much, why? He has 4 cars already.. trying to sell 1. He wants a 5th car..? But he can’t help his daughter buy another car. So my older brother has to give me the Honda? I pay rent and I am the only source of income in the house! What does he expect from me?
   I cried on Father’s Day telling him about this and yet he hasn’t been there as a father! At this point.. I feel like I don’t have a father! Anyone could be a dad, but it takes a man to be a father! That’s not who he is! He can go on multiple vacations a year with his wife, to Ohio, to Texas, to New York, to Aruba, to Greece, to Puerto Rico, to Iceland and the list goes on and on! I’m sorry to say this.. but I don’t have a father, this man I call dad, I call my father is just another person in my life who has disappointed me, who isn’t there for me. I should just start calling this man.. if that’s even what he is because he’s not.. by his first name. He’s just the guy who donated sperm to make me. I, now will refer to him as Michael.
   As now an adult, I know my mom is an angel and she is always there and bless her soul but now I have to see about this car. If it’s able to be driven, I will just deal with the damages, if not I will find a way as I always do. I always find a way. I’m a survivor, I’m a fighter and I know nothing can stop me. It’s going to be tough for sure! I have cried a lot of tears at night, even when alone. It’s hard so fucking hard but I got this. I know I do! I don’t need anyone, maybe just my mom but that’s about it. I don’t need a man to support me like my stepmom thinks! I’m gonna prove her and everyone else wrong. I got this, I know I do!
