A big brain dump on reality that I need to sort out formally for my Self
I've been thinking about what reality is. After a magic shroom trip experience, I'd been left with the words: "Niets is echt, alles is verzonnen", which translates to "Nothing is real, everything is imagined". The weird experience one has with time during the use of psychedelics has me fascinated. The experience of the waviness of matter and the distinct passage of time as all at the same time has got me scratching my head about the human condition.
"A thought is love's currency". These words from Mac Miller resonate with me, especially when my mind wanders over my network of friends. I think this world exists out of hard data and soft data. Hard data being what exists independant of time and soft data what exists only in time. Both are vibrational in nature. The hard data is matter, and the forces that we've inferred to work upon them. The soft data is sensory information. This sensory function is one that exists in time only, as feeling. Written words are matter, a concretization of feeling. The human condition exists in soft data. The experience of time allows for this data, this vibration, a feeling that will never be fully captured by hard data. The human experience does capture itself, and symbolically expresses itself in stories and art.
We think that time is a single dimension that we're stumbling down in, like the flow of water from the source to the sea. I have my doubts about this, and can imagine time being multidimensional that human Will can steer in. The hard problem of conciousness lies in our limited means to capture the dimensions that we'd need to measure; time. We're great with matter, to the smallest particles one can dream up.
A different line that has entered my mind is: "I am to God, what a cell in my body is to me". This stems from my belief that the public eye is an abstraction we interpret, which is a dynamic being that one needs to find a behaviour towards. I create and am the God towards others, in the smallest fraction, an individual.
If I as an individual am to God, what a cell is to my experience as an individual, am I saying that each cell is concious? Not at all, I , I think the brain is the self-reflective part of the psyche, it matches what the body does while reflecting on it. There are abstractions to be made that are useful, these are ideas/words; the skin shivers, the stomach growls, the heart beats, but these are the vibrational data abstractions we reflects on. The brain reflects the most intensely on what the closest senses provide; the eyes, the ears, the nose, the mouth. It has most direct control over the vibrations it can send out with the mouth.
The entirety of the body is alive, and feels. The brain gives supremacy of the experience of the head over that of the body, especially for those that have the sense of sight. This inbalanced dynamic between the head and the body, like the conviction that something is real once it is seen, the so-called faithless Thomas. Our eyes are volumetrically only a fraction of the human and the people without eyes are hardly less human. Their sensory experience may be limited, though the lived experience will rebalance the remaining senses as this is what it can reflect on with attention.
I have come to the conclusion with these thoughts that it is important to listen to the whole body, and reflect on your actions rather than your thoughts. Your experience of thought is the reflective capacity of mental vibrations, in a whirlpool like way in asmuch as we can understand this phenomena in 3 dimentions.
My bet is that the feeling of love is a vibrational harmony of the mental dimension. Intuition is the bigger impact of the body's feeling in the self-reflection. The idea of living harmoniously with the world is therefore based on the self-reflection that allows the entire body to feel loved in the world. From your heart living in peace with friends family and strangers, to your stomach feeling nourished. I want to look deeper into what parts of the body feel what kind of experience, and I have a suspicion that language has encoded some of these experiences extremely well.
The experience of time is what makes alive, but can we measure with the tools we currently have how time works? Especially with M-theory postulating that one needs more than 4 dimensions to make the theorical physics work, what do we make of the fact that we only experience 3+n, with n being our continuous experience of now, of time?
Time feels like a path we're walking down. The forever falling forward in time, though slower in later years as one has a substantial volume of time to relate to. Unique experiences are often chained experiences of wonder and fill time with a special memory. The embodiment of routines, like the bodily function on a bike, are functions that do not require reflection to be harmonious between the intent of the head and the body to execute it.
The brain are a place where all feeling is sent to deliberate together and create the unity we get to call "I". I have the sense that the idea of the id, the ego and the Superego are a reflection of the distinction between the body and the mind and the collective minds. These 3 forces are in constant tug of war with each other, which is the crux of the human condition.
