gao gao 🐻

★ 24 | she/they | bisexual ★

[ginkoyurishiro]

hello there!! i'm sel!! i'm an adult, bisexual himejoshi freak and i use she/they pronouns! i'm an amateur writer and illustrator, and all around silly guy. i hope we can be pals :3

my current interests include: revolutionary girl utena, yurikuma arashi, darkstalkers, twin peaks, xmen, mermaid melody pichi pichi pitch, universal monsters (dracula 1931 primarily), umineko, rose of versailles, etcetra

dni: -18, cruel people, racist/homophobic/transphobic...idk lol...

ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/users/corvinak

my art tag

[weirdlandtv]

Italian novelist/artist, Dino Buzzati (1906-1972).

[shirlimyrli]

utena au where anthy is a dualist and utena is the rosebride, just an excuse to see how anthy looks like in the uniform lmao, never seen something like this

[ginkoyurishiro]

anthy wears utena's uniform in the end of the chiho saito manga hehe

[shirlimyrli]

oh my freaking goddddd

ive only seen the tv show and not the manga (yet) thank u for showing me this!

[ginkoyurishiro]

of course :D the manga is wayyy different and honestly not my favorite adaptation but it's still lots of fun, recommend at least reading it once! 🫶

[mortalityplays]

This is a dangerous sentiment for me to express, as an editor who spends most of my working life telling writers to knock it off with the 45-word sentences and the adverbs and tortured metaphors, but I do think we're living through a period of weird pragmatic puritanism in mainstream literary taste.

e.g. I keep seeing people talk about 'purple prose' when they actually mean 'the writer uses vivid and/or metaphorical descriptive language'. I've seen people who present themselves as educators offer some of the best genre writing in western canon as examples of 'purple prose' because it engages strategically in prose-poetry to evoke mood and I guess that's sheer decadence when you could instead say "it was dark and scary outside". But that's not what purple prose means. Purple means the construction of the prose itself gets in the way of conveying meaning. mid-00s horse RPers know what I'm talking about. Cerulean orbs flash'd fire as they turn'd 'pon rollforth land, yonder horizonways. <= if I had to read this when I was 12, you don't get to call Ray Bradbury's prose 'purple'.

I griped on here recently about the prepossession with fictional characters in fictional narratives behaving 'rationally' and 'realistically' as if the sole purpose of a made-up story is to convince you it could have happened. No wonder the epistolary form is having a tumblr renaissance. One million billion arguments and thought experiments about The Ones Who Walk Away From Omelas that almost all evade the point of the story: that you can't wriggle out of it. The narrator is telling you how it was, is and will be, and you must confront the dissonances it evokes and digest your discomfort. 'Realistic' begins on the author's terms, that's what gives them the power to reach into your brain and fiddle about until sparks happen. You kind of have to trust the process a little bit.

This ultra-orthodox attitude to writing shares a lot of common ground with the tight, tight commodification of art in online spaces. And I mean commodification in the truest sense - the reconstruction of the thing to maximise its capacity to interface with markets. Form and function are overwhelmingly privileged over cloudy ideas like meaning, intent and possibility, because you can apply a sliding value scale to the material aspects of a work. But you can't charge extra for 'more challenging conceptual response to the milieu' in a commission drive. So that shit becomes vestigial. It isn't valued, it isn't taught, so eventually it isn't sought out. At best it's mystified as part of a given writer/artist's 'talent', but either way it grows incumbent on the individual to care enough about that kind of skill to cultivate it.

And it's risky, because unmeasurables come with the possibility of rejection or failure. Drop in too many allegorical descriptions of the rose garden and someone will decide your prose is 'purple' and unserious. A lot of online audiences seem to be terrified of being considered pretentious in their tastes. That creates a real unwillingness to step out into discursive spaces where you 🫵 are expected to develop and explore a personal relationship with each element of a work. No guard rails, no right answers. Word of god is shit to us out here. But fear of getting that kind of analysis wrong makes people hove to work that slavishly explains itself on every page. And I'm left wondering, what's the point of art that leads every single participant to the same conclusion? See Spot run. Run, Spot, run. Down the rollforth land, yonder horizonways. I just want to read more weird stuff.

[kristybluebird]

I see a wasp with her wings outstretched.

[patchwork-g1rl]

hihihi 💖💖💖 you mentioned doodle requests so i hope you dont mind rgu... but could you maybe draw some anthy + nanami 🥺🥺🥺 also im like in LOVE with your art if that wasnt obvious enough agshdjdb

HIII THANKUUU I LOVE YOU

i hope we fuck with Anthy liking Spiders !!!!

[flapjacked69]

time to eat!

(click for quality)

[angelgesic]

I hate the clingy incestous little sister Archetype so much in anime because nothings ever done with it outside of it being a male gaze fetish. Like wow ok the 50th little sister competing and hating with the other female cast while the older brother is uncomfortable and plays dumb and just HAPPENS to accidently be in situations where he sexualizes her. Im sure it'll do something the next 50 times I see it.

But one of my favorite characters of all time is Nanami Kiryuu. The concept of a girl who idolizes her brother and does the whole clingy incestous little sister song and dance, not nessicarily because shes incestously attracted to him but because she feels like if it wasnt for her connection to him no one would love her the way that they love him.

And them being blood related siblings is the only reason that not only everyone loves her, but her own brother loves her too. Like she genuinely feels she is so worthless and unlovable on her own merit that she needs to cling to touga for people to care about her. Like you would think in a situation where its revealed two characters like this are adoptive siblings nanami would be overjoyed so she can be with toga. But she isnt. Shes angry and distraught and in denial that that is her blood relative.

And then she is presented the opportunity to have sex with (and i say this loosely RGU clearly plays what happens as implied assault) touga she backs away in disguist because. Shes not attracted to him. She just wants someone who is guaranteed to love her no matter what. And your family is supposed to. Because thats your blood. They are the only people who are guaranteed to love no matter what. They should anyway. And she sees those lines blurred in real time by touga and thats not what she wants. She just wants him to care about her.

It breaks my heart to think about it.

[ID: Official Revolutionary Girl Utena art of Touga and Nanami at a dinner table; Touga is sitting back smugly while Nanami lays sprawled over the table with a pitiful expression. End ID]

[shirlimyrli]

utena au where anthy is a dualist and utena is the rosebride, just an excuse to see how anthy looks like in the uniform lmao, never seen something like this

[ginkoyurishiro]

anthy wears utena's uniform in the end of the chiho saito manga hehe

[ginkoyurishiro]

sorry 4 crossposting my fics i just felt like self promo

[nungusposts]

"We need more male abuse victim representation!" Buddy you couldn't even handle Touga.

[berlogauwu]

who are u really

[ginkoyurishiro]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Shoujo Kakumei Utena | Revolutionary Girl Utena Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Ohtori Akio & Tenjou Utena, Himemiya Anthy & Tenjou Utena Characters: Tenjou Utena, Himemiya Anthy, Ohtori Akio, Ohtori Akio's Car Additional Tags: Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con, Angst, Hurt No Comfort, no beta we die like men, episode 33, Ohtori Kanae (mentioned like once), Utena's repressed feelings and Anthy's even more repressed feelings, Character Study, POV First Person Summary:

Short rewrite of the ending of Episode 33 of Revolutionary Girl Utena. My attempt at a character study/ ventfic.

[ginkoyurishiro]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 3/? Fandom: Shoujo Kakumei Utena | Revolutionary Girl Utena Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Himemiya Anthy & Tenjou Utena, Himemiya Anthy & Ohtori Akio, Shinohara Wakaba/Tenjou Utena Characters: Tenjou Utena, Himemiya Anthy, Ohtori Akio, Aunt Yurika, Shinohara Wakaba, Saionji Kyouichi, Kiryuu Touga, Kiryuu Nanami, Kaoru Miki, Kaoru Kozue, Arisugawa Juri Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Vampire, Gothic, My vampire lore is a mix between Anne Rice's and Vampire the Masquerade, No beta we die like Utena's parents, Blood and Violence, POV Third Person Limited, POV Multiple, Horror, Babytena's horrible terrible no good very bad day, Mind Control, Hypnotism, Anthy & Akio are vampires, Canon-Typical Incest, Near Death Experiences, Dreams and Nightmares, Time Skips, Time Shenanigans, Canon-Typical Behavior, Gender Dysphoria, First Relationship, Ghosts Summary:

She was going to be in so much trouble if someone discovered her there, lying inside a coffin intended for a funeral service. They’d yell at her and force her to go home to Aunt Yurika, but it wasn’t a home without Mama and Papa.

Utena held her breath and began to count.

One. Two. Three. Four…

“Big brother, are you sure this is a good idea?” The first voice came in whispers, it belonged to a girl.

“We are the only Gods in this building. Now be quiet, I smell someone.” said the man accompanying her.

Five. Six. Seven.

[ginkoyurishiro]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Shoujo Kakumei Utena | Revolutionary Girl Utena Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Arisugawa Juri/Takatsuki Shiori, Arisugawa Juri & Takatsuki Shiori Characters: Takatsuki Shiori, Arisugawa Juri Additional Tags: POV First Person, Self-Hatred, Implied/Referenced Self-Harm, Stream of Consciousness, Character Study, Angst, No beta we die like Tsuchiya Ruka, Diary/Journal, Hurt No Comfort, This takes place sometime in between the Black Rose saga and Akio arc but idk honestly lol Summary:

Shiori Takatsuki laments on Juri Arisugawa's birthday. Yet another character study doubling as a vent fic.

[ginkoyurishiro]

feeling like shiori takatsuki today

[status-quo-hater]

I think some of you forgot that autistic people sometimes act strange and say things that are poorly worded and speak with incorrect tone and misunderstand or miss social cues because they are autistic