Giselle Personal Rants

🥰Heidi Wu/ Giselle Haylie Taken by 8/23/2019 Virgo 🥰

[gisellexhaylie]

LIfee

My life may look perfect in someone else’s life.

Those brown ocean eyes are filled with tears of sadness.

Sometimes my lips can barely escape my demon.

My ears is trying to hear God talking

My legs are running in circles around the earth.

My heart is pacing at a lighting speed trying to escape the darkness.

My arms are feeling so exhausted trying to look for water.

Finally, I turn back and see some light coming towards me.

I knelt on the floor and prayed to God.

I pray and repent for all my sin that I have done wrong.

Hoping for your forgiveness

Then I suddenly felt God presence saying that  is going to be okay

[gisellexhaylie]

So much anger and don't know how to dispurse

Running away from my hitch gave me heartache

All I heard is my heart pummel fast to the grass

I suddenly kick my self up and saw a cat

The cat meow so deafening and then I hault

I trail behind the cat to see where it will lead me too

I saw a man and he gave me an strawberry

An strawberry so saccharine burst me into a sunshine

I feel asleep in the grass and started dreaming

I saw a man so tall he seize my hand to his

He walk me to a Ferris Wheel and their he sat with me

As scare as I was, I bite my lips tight

He bought me cotton candy and I ate

A million response came out and I can't control it

He gave me a cloud notebook so I can jot thing down

Then he kiss my forehead and I fell asleep

He snap his fingers and I came back to reality

I sway my arm around the grass and saw a notebook

He wrote " Darling just breathe and everything be ok. "

[gisellexhaylie]

When I’m feeling sad and damage

Like no one can understand my spoken words

My face begin to turn pale and lips are so swollen

I can’t even breathe, felt like a rock slam head

I paced under my blankets and cry

But the pain is so unbearable 

I got up and ate vanilla ice-cream to simmer my pain

I start to regain happiness by eating ice-cream

Remember when I was young 

She told me a story about how pain is just temporary 

That everything is going to be okay as if it happened yesterday

If I get sad again, Just turn to Vanilla…cause Remember you are sweet like Vanilla…

Your like vanilla..like Cinderella…like Ella…Elle

[gisellexhaylie]

I can be a savage when mad

You can throw subtle shade when feeling threaten

But why so much rage when hurt

I never understood you

If you never let me hear your troubles

I  can never understand how my action affect you

The fights. The arguments. The tension in the room.

The lies. The fakeness. The jealousy. The drama.

Bang Bang. I'm done

I can only care so much for someone else

I can only do stand up for so much

I can only help so much

My brain can only handle so much stress

My heart can only take so much pain

My eyes are done tearing up

Whenever you need my help

Please remember that I'm a human being

Who has alot of trauma going inside her

-Haylie-

[gisellexhaylie]

A teddybear fell from heaven

When I was not searching upon the earth

It took my breathe away indeed I'm in love

With his dark sparkling brown eyes

Touch my soul and won my heart instantly

His hugs are warm, it fill my eyes to tears

When darkness comes upon us

His paws and growls triggers the enemies

To run and hide deep into the wood

He has a heart of gold and give backs

Indeed, he treasure his loves like a 💎

Who is his queen and he the king

He is the king to protect the kingdom

[gisellexhaylie]

You tore my heart right open Silence me from speaking the truth Promising me the world on the night on eve You crush my heart and stab my soul Like it was plan secretly You broke my heart even though I still care You left me on our anniversary night Left me in the rain to cry in pain I never understood the reason you gave But the neglect and pain I endure Left me to distance myself from reality From being loved to insecurity I went in a fazed and started doubting I question myself and my identity Realizing I been lying to myself why I change myself to impress you When I was nothing but loyal And you use it to my advantage, Savage.

[gisellexhaylie]

Just another depressing poem

Shopping is a depressant when you try to fix an issue for temporary happiness Happiness can go so long until someone misery lurks and makes you fall

Falling down at your highest peak can bring you down when you are aiming for success

Success, Ey what is success to everyone Is it money, is it love, or is it both

Crying  is a pain to relieve all your emotions that you don’t want to tell society and get judged

Judging, hysterical we all have a past and it’s not a good looking one

Good looking one, since when do we all look good except if your name rhyme with Money

Money, Oh Honey,  Oh Darling does that gives you happiness But Darling are you happy yourself or is it a lie

-Giselle Haylie

[gisellexhaylie]

Sitting in my closet while sipping hot cocoa

Haven’t no one to turn to but a half bitten candy cane

One of my favorite time of the year that you promise

Turn to dust, bitter and resentment in a matter of seconds

You promise me the world even giving me a will and a life

But I turn you away because I wasn't ready to be your wife

I was only 20 years old but you scare me away

But at a time you were all I had to be happy

But the moment I left I gain independence and you gain a chick

-Giselle Haylie

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[gisellexhaylie]

I hate to admit that i cannot commit I thought I had found the one to make it last They tell me things that is easy to believe At the end, my heart is easily bruised

I always believe in love and chances I stand by their side even when their is no one Am I naive or stupid, or that is just me Because love makes me do things to capture their heart

I know what people say and rumor start but I can't deny and but I know the truth These bad boys are toxic but I love them so much How can I break this bad habit of mine

These bad boys have taken all over me They go through all over my head, my heart and my veins Cutting ties with them will be hard At last my hearts is telling me I made the right move, with a bundle of joy

[gisellexhaylie]

Welcome everyone reading my first post on this personal blog. At the moment I havent had a chance to think about what to write. this blog will be mostly about my depressing life and things im going to start posting alot soon.