butterflies in my brain

day/22/the unhappiest most unlovable creature on earth “when it rains it pours.” vent blog do NOT interact with my main blogs regarding this one. do NOT reblog posts tagged “ætherspeak” unless stated otherwise. contains untagged suicidal/nsfw posts. 18+ only, at your own discretion DNI: terfs/swerfs/truscum/yandere/ddlg/tc/(no)maps/anti-antis/minors

[selkielore]

negative space

[morallyambiguous]

rick bursky / the man with a hole in his head

[firstfullmoon]

Matthew Dickman, from “Grass Moon,” in Wonderland [ID in ALT]

[easeupkid]

anticipated stranger, john ashbery

[gl8m]

some people just aren’t meant to succeed

[pointnclick]

Dude I love your blog. I'm a big fan of the cries for help

[tristealven]

“We’ll know as children again all that we are destined to know, that the water is cold and deep, and the sun penetrates only so far.”

— Jim Harrison, from “Death Again,” Complete Poems, ed. Joseph Bednarik (Copper Canyon Press, 2021)

[gl8m]

I hate birthdays and mine most of all

Fuck that shit and I hope everyone stops celebrating birthdays forever

[gl8m]

I cried so much these last few days for her

I even cried in front of my friend and my therapist

I think i have something irreparable

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

“You can say anything and I will not abandon you.”

[catcrumb]

[fish3s]

soulmate // last night i dreamt that somebody loved me

[gl8m]

its gotten to the point where every day is the worst day of my fucking life

I feel like ive got water up my nose and nothing can get it out

[gl8m]

im so fucking sad

[post-wars]

Robert Desnos

Translated by Paul Auster in Collected Poems (Overlook, 2004)

[gl8m]

hanging out with nonaustistics makes me feel like a fucking idiot

[gl8m]

I want to shove my yarn scissors square intomy chest and watch it bleed while i ignore every survival alarm bell in my head

[gl8m]

i can’t do this anymore. I am so alone. I’ll never get rid of this