you will never truly know how much you mean to me. I wish my anxiety wasn't so bad so I could tell you things. please never stop doing what you do, you inspire so many people
Whoever you may be, you mean a lot to me too.
Anxiety is a pain... mine keeping fluctuating between almost not existing and being at full force... I do open up about my worries to people because it always feels like they'll swallow me whole if I won't. I'm always willing to listen.
So, whoever it is, don't be afraid to talk to me. If this is someone from the server, all of you are dear friends to me, and I'm always willing to try my best to help.
Y'know... your last comment kind of softens the anxieties I have regarding MF:TTT, which ties together with your previous statement...
...my social anxiety and MF:TTT anxiety kind of go hand in hand, because most of it is related to one thing: How the readers will react to a new Set. For Set 5, oh I was terrified. As much as I was excited I was terrified too, that I hyped it up for no good reason and that people will be disappointed. Thankfully, the reception was more than I could ever ask for, with people really liking it.
I feel like every part of MF:TTT is somehow a part of me, more or less. A peek into my mind, a piece of my heart written down in words... so as much as I'm afraid to put myself out there, I'm also afraid to do the same with this project.
And then people like you come along... people who tell me to not stop, and that my work inspires many people... a reminder that despite what my anxiety may tell me, I'm doing a good job. That no matter how long it may take me, someone's going to be around the corner to keep reading it... it's a hard pill to swallow, but man, I'll get another cup of water if I need to because I need to STOP feeling so bad about not making new stuff sooner due to college!!
I have a really hard time judging my own writing. I think it's because I know what happens and what everyone's deal is, I lack the element of mystery that makes it engaging. I've recently promoted @breadinvader to beta reader so if something really does need work, she can tell me.
...anyhow, I don't plan on stopping anytime soon. I don't care how long it may take me, I wanna finish this story, and create many more.
So, thank you, lovely anon.
For reminding me that people won't forget about me, or MF:TTT, all that easily. 💙🩷🫂
