A letter to Julio - Seven years on…
Seven years. Seven whole ass years man. When did time start going so damn fast? How are we already at 7 years?
Julio. Bro. I’ve tried writing this so many times and i keep selfishly circling back to this one thought. I’m well aware of how bananas it is and let’s be honest it’s nothing new from me is it so just hold with it, it’ll make sense eventually. I hope. lol.
A few weeks ago i realised i was stopping myself thinking about when i met you. When i first heard your name. When i first saw you race. When i jokingly promised you i’d give racing a chance and watch you climb to Formula 1 all those years ago. I don’t think i can face it. I can’t face it because i’m scared it’ll confirm that this year will mark you having been gone for longer than i knew you. You were such a massive part of my life for so many years. You were my guy, my number one. I’d never had a favourite athlete, a favourite driver or even a favourite team. You became that. You are that. My driver was you, my team was your team, we won together, we lost together. I was a big time JB fangirl. To be fair my childhood friends were too, except their JB fan-girling was of the Justin Bieber variety and well they were fools, the lot of them.
You’re still the only sports person i’ve ever had as my number one and now you’ve nearly been ‘out of my life’ for longer than you were in it and it’s kind of freaking me out.
I of course don’t know why. Nothing has changed this last 7 years. I still see your smiling face and find great joy and happiness in the memories you created for so many of us whilst experience such heartache of you not being here when you deserved so much to be. It’s like my brain is telling me that the last 7 years without you have taken up the whole of the memories from when you were here. 7 years of happy memories to cope with 7 years of loss, what happens as we rush toward the 8th? Believe me i know, i know it makes absolutely no sense. Especially since your legacy is thriving. Your name and memory is linked to so many amazing things and you continue to light up so many lives. The association, your family, the drive for safer races, the halo.
Every single day there is a reason to smile because of something that is linked to you. I mean we could be getting ourselves a few champions this year out of your friends and loved ones and you would be so damn happy. You’ve also yet again helped in saving a whole load of lives alongside your family and association who too continue to strive in empowering and helping those facing TBI’s.
The Bianchi legacy is amazing.
You, your family, your friends, competitors, teams, fans. Everyone who continue to hold you in their heart and fulfil their lives with the honour of having had you grace their lives. Your impact on this world was and continues to be stratospheric.
You truly are always remembered, sorely missed and forever loved.
You live on in so many people and nothing brings me more joy than seeing your family and friends thrive, love and live their lives to the fullest with you always by their side.
We miss you so much. I love you shit head.
s-u-f-j-a-n-s-t-e-v-e-n-s
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