I tried the @haziqqy_ 's gay but matrep face or @nuratkh.x 's on fleek scrutizing face but failed clearly HAHAH // This isnt to seek attention or pelbagai okay guys? I just need to remove this heavy rock against my chest. For the past week, i wallowed in self pity and negativity. I swear i thought it was just "one of those days" but i know it is not. It was my depression, my oldest companion. I used to not really talk about it in my social media because i was afraid that it makes me look weak. I knew the signs and symptoms ; pushing myself away from my loved ones, self harming again and even to the point where i broke up w the love of my life (we got back tgt guys dont worry). Depression is a funny thing because it always creep around when you least expect it. It started out like a whisper and then when we listened to it, it get louder and louder each time. Sometimes it fuck up your rationality. I know what is it like being alone because that was i throughout my whole life. I hardly had true friends except those who always pop up in my social media *you are da bomb ah geng & you all know who you are* i never want to let anyone feel alone like i did growing up that's why im always there for my friends or anyone that i know of that are sad. Im always trying to make them laugh or atleast smile when they are with me. My depression made my overly caring attitude exist. I remember when i was going for my interview for my nursing course back in ITE, the lecturers asked me why i wanted to join nursing, back then i said the most typical answer which was i want to help people because it was like my second nature. As i slowly learn myself how to love and accept myself, i realised that depression was the main reason why i wanted to be a nurse. I want to be there for others who need someone to hold when no one else can. Funny how something is negative can push you towards positivity. So thankyou depression for moulding the person i am.