Weird things
Depression makes you do weird things.
It makes you a different person, makes you feel like a stranger to everyone around you and even to yourself.
It makes you feel hopeless, lost, empty, sad.
It makes you want to scream and cry, yell and cuss, and fight with others.
I’ve seen it make my brother an empty shell.
I’ve seen it make my brother angry and want to fight because he didnt know how to ask for help, he was so lost he was scared he would lose everyone.
Depression makes you think wierd things.
Depression makes me think about suicide every day all day, I’ve thought about trying to kill myself like it was normal “man I wish I was dead right now, that would make everyone’s lives better” “God I’m an idot I should just die” “I would be less of a problem if I was dead” “I’m pretty sure If I die my family would forget about me in no time”
My depression makes me fantasize about getting hurt so badly that I end up in the hospital just to see who really cares. But at the same time I dont want to know because I feel like such a waste of space that no one would care and that makes me feel scared.
I’ve felt myself get angry at people for asking me what’s wrong, because I dont want people to know something is wrong with me, I dont want them to know that I want to die, because I already feel like a freak.
Depression made me addicted to cutting my hips and arms open like it’s the only normal way I can handle my depression and pain.
I feel like a hostage to depression, like I’m trapped in my own head and I cant be saved.
depression makes you do weird things that become normal to you and it’s not your fault, we live in a sick world that tries to shame and blame people with depression and it makes me sick.
