peace love and happiness

My life is far from perfect. Can't you tell?

[glitteringangel]

i guess maybe that’s why i’m lying to my therapist

I consider you, I'm not trying to

It doesn't matter whether not I want to

I can't help it, it's a habit

Your corner in my mind is well established

I wonder how many things you think about before you get to me

I wonder how many things you wanna do, you think I'm in between

I feel myself falling further down your priorities

And I still make excuses for you constantly

I'm not catastrophizing

Everything's derailing

Was only tryna hold you close

While your heart was failing

We've been swimming on the edge of a cliff

I'm resistant, but going down with the ship

It'd be so nice, right? Right?

If we could take it all off and just exist

And skinny dip in water under the bridge

[glitteringangel]

just had to reject a boy. oh how the tables have turned

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i feel SO BAD everytime i mess up at work... ik i’ve only been here a month but i feel so stupid and terrible anytime i make a dumb mistake and i hate the feeling of anyone being mad at me 

[glitteringangel]

ANGZIYATEA

Really good twitter thread I read just now- came at the perfect time

“I absolutely refuse to let generalized high functioning anxiety run my life. I’m choosing to ACTIVELY work against it. No matter how scary, hard and even painful it is (Because the shit literally hurts... iykyk)... I just won’t allow it.” 

No longer not doing things because I’m afraid of what someone will think of it.

No longer watching other people do things I don’t have the courage too... I’m joining the mf party.

No longer harping on what everyone else thinks of me. It literally does not matter.

No longer being afraid to be by myself... like it’s okay... I won’t die from spending time with me. Like girl... it’s fine.

No longer adjusting my boundaries to keep people in my life

No longer sitting in crippling fear of someone being mad at me or of me having maybe said the wrong thing.

No longer basing my self worth in what other people think of or feel about me. I just... simply cannot.

I’m committed to beating generalized high functioning anxiety ass... let’s hope I don’t fuck myself up in the process  whew I’m ready though

[glitteringangel]

actually is so fascinating yet sad, as always, that for the past 7 years I’ve been making the same depressing ass posts but with different wording. has my life really progressed from when I was a teen...

[glitteringangel]

sentences of yours,

running throughout my head

searching for a chance to catch my breath

a never ending dream

you’ll become a part of me

day or night,

dark or light you’ll be

taking over that thing called my shadow 🌑

[glitteringangel]

shutting down is the absolute worst bc you literally have 0 motivation to do anything except pout sleep and watch tv and u have no clue when you’ll resume normalcy

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soooooo am i getting gh*sted again?? after I’ve explained to him that’s something he should absolutely NEVER do?? “I’ll hit u up” w the intentions of NEVER hitting me up and hoping my existence will just be one of the past? is this seriously going to happen every single time, even when I think it won’t happen... 4 times in a row are u actually kidding me? this shit pisses me off so much I hate opening myself (emotionally and sexually) up to people and getting done so crude. i really hope im just being dramatic and that I’ll hear from him by Saturday but knowing my track record.... just not realistic. I ducking hate men IF U FEEL SOME TYPE OF WAY TELL ME don’t just hurt me intentionally and think I’ll get over it? ( again hoping I’m just being dramatic but come Sunday and still no text 😿)

[glitteringangel]

shutting down is the absolute worst bc you literally have 0 motivation to do anything except pout sleep and watch tv and u have no clue when you’ll resume normalcy

[glitteringangel]

so many unsure things in life rn. so many upcoming changes. not handling it well

[glitteringangel]

imagine texting someone for a month then just.. vanishing for no reason. bookmarking this?

[glitteringangel]

what’s poppin

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I don’t have to prove myself to ANYONE. Fuck you

[glitteringangel]

a post that’s not! about a boy:

i have the worst stomachache ever rn. my life is being sabotaged 😖

[glitteringangel]

imagine texting someone for a month then just.. vanishing for no reason. bookmarking this?

[glitteringangel]

this will be! you and not me!

i love how every time i come to write on here it’s because of a ***

psychologists really need to study people like me, it’s truly amazing how you can fall in love with someone, so quickly, one that you’ve never met at that

counting down the days until this goes to..

edit* i’ve already brought this up but i will again

[glitteringangel]

omg every time i revive this account it’s to complain about ____. this is not ok. at all!!!!!!

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the way that i’m actually so angry and tired and sad all at once i don’t even know what to say or type. this would be a really long post but i don’t even want to give this person this amount of energy. like. lord when will i ever catch a break i’m so..............................,

[glitteringangel]

shh

think i found him?