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i never want to hear “i’m never leaving you” again.

i know that it’s always a lie.

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this loneliness is crushing my ribs into a thousand crystal pieces

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i can’t believe i had to be the one to get you to tell me that you didnt love me anymore

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sitting here wondering if you’ll say something first

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screaming until your throat is fucking raw

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i think my head is filled with smoke

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you were holding me so tight but i woke up cold

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i cant believe i let you so close to me. look how that turned out

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i cant hear your laugh in my head anymore

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i wouldnt be like this if i knew how not to be like this, ok?

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im ready for what doesnt exist to become real now

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why cant i stop looking at you

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get out of my head

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why cant i stop looking at you

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i had a dream where you traced my spine with your fingertips and breathed into my neck; it happened again but the awakening is still abrupt & i hate that youre still in my head

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yeah sorry i didnt reply my anxiety was eating me alive

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i am so tired of the life im leading

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“it doesnt matter anymore if we dont touch again. i just dont know where to put my hands when we talk.”