[fruitorchardsystem]

I always wish the concept of plurality/multiple selves was more widely accepted because I’ll be watching someone play a game and say something strange then immediately go “what’s wrong with you man” and it’s like wow I do that.girl turn around plurality is behind you

[gnomesofgeroma]

something that worries me very slightly about modern willogenic spaces is the “everybody get more plural NOW!!” attitude, which is culturally pretty new, and while it does promote self-acceptance and highlight the positive sides of an experience that isn’t always positive, it can still have some negative effects on both endo + traumagen systems interested in willomancy. talking about that isn’t an anti endo thing but just a pro-endo-wanting-endo-spaces-to-be-good thing btw. in this essay i will

back in the days when we went through syscovery the attitude was not “have an idea for a headmate? fuck it, make them now!” but “if you’re going to create a headmate, you need to be absolutely 100% certain beforehand that you’re going to respect them regardless of who they turn out to be & whether or not that aligns with your expectations, even and especially if they’re a fictive who ends up nothing like the character they’re based on and/or completely disconnects from them, 100% certain you’re going to be able & willing to give them time in the body [if switching is possible, and back in those days it was heavily desired and encouraged for those who couldn’t switch to build the skill], 100% certain you’re going to spend the necessary time and emotional energy engaging with them, fleshing them out until they can figure out the rest, interacting with them even when you get no responses back for hours, days, potentially many months without giving up and allowing them to dissipate out of frustration, 100% certain you can handle the new existential ramifications of your own new existence as a headmate,” etc etc etc. if you were flippant about thoughtform creation you would get downvoted or disliked into oblivion, some of the comments would be calling you empathyless, akin to a murderer if your thoughtform dissipated because of you

there was definitely a time when willomancy was seen as risky, a HUGE life decision that should be given the same consideration as having a real, physical child (this was a SUPER common talking point), and that wasn’t necessarily better than some of the more relaxed modern attitudes because it had the effect of scaring people away from willomancy who may have benefitted from it but it also meant that a lot of the systems who DID get into willomancy did so with a good sense of the gravity of the situation, acceptance of any and all deviations, with a lot of thought already put into it, a lot of time + energy set aside, a lot of care already generated for a being that didn’t exist yet and may not exist for months to years. you didn’t usually find willo-ed fragments because if you intentionally left a thoughtform half-complete that’d be really frowned-upon (as a thoughtform who remembers bits and pieces of the time other alters were creating me i can attest that this is not a fun state to be in)

but now i do see some willo-ed fragments around who barely are allowed to front or further develop themselves outside of picking stock traits from curated lists online and i feel a bit sorry for them. there are probably some oldheads out there who hate the idea of BAH blogs and i don’t agree, i don’t HATE them, but i do feel iffy about the idea of that being the only method some people use for willomancy and/or fleshing out traumagenic fragments. because even for those of us who do have those traumagenic fragments, trying to flesh them out by choosing to label them aliengender or aggressive or whatever is only going to help you so much. what are the nuances of their aliengender identity? under what circumstances are they aggressive, what triggers do they have, how does their aggression manifest, why & how is it such a fundamental part of their person that they’re labeled an “aggressive person?” if you’re a system with low communication that makes this process much more difficult if not impossible. if you decide a fragment should be a traumaholder and they weren’t before, you could open them up to being exposed to memories & experiences purposefully hidden from them. these are all questions and considerations old school willomancers would make, write both long lists of traits AND explanations/descriptions for them, put their willo in various hypothetical scenarios to test & figure these traits out more intuitively.

i’m worried that we’re becoming a bit too lax about willo creation and that the resultant thoughtforms & systems will suffer for it. i have no way of knowing how people are using these blogs or any of the popular willo methods, and of course there have always been people who didn’t take it seriously and ended up hurting their thoughtforms & themselves even back when we were warned over and over and over about it, but with the modern attitude of “just make your head blorbo, don’t worry too much about it!!!!” i find myself wondering if there are more willomancers like that today than before. who are struggling or maybe should never have become willomancers in the first place because they don’t have the adequate resources to manage the process and weren’t warned about it or encouraged to give it some more thought.

while it’s a net positive that plurality is gaining acceptance & being seen as less of a life sentence of misery and more as another way of life that can be miserable but can also be desirable, fulfilling, satisfying—i don’t think we should allow it to be seen as something super easy, risk-free, harmless. because it isn’t. it isn’t like raising a real-world child but it is like taking care of and nurturing a whole new person, and if you don’t pour into them what they need to grow, they’re going to stagnate and that can cause a wide range of problems for yourself and/or the rest of your system.

i don’t think this means traumagenic & disordered systems should avoid willomancy or endo spaces though. we went through syscovery mainly in willo spaces, working together to build a couple thoughtforms before discovering both long-buried and quietly active traumagenic alters & getting diagnosed. i’m grateful for that because it allowed us to explore ourselves without feeling the shame a lot of syscovering disordered systems feel. systemhood was destigmatized for us way before we discovered we were a system ourselves and we have willo communities to thank for it. that being said, should most traumagenics & disordered systems who already know they’re a system be extra careful about willomancy? fuck yes. we inherently have less resources to dish out and many of us who don’t have well-functioning gatekeepers or gatekeepers at all will have a hard time intentionally allocating body time for the willo. you’re taking the chance that this willo will turn out to be some sort of person who’ll cause problems with other alters, not just whoever they meet outside the body. if you’re very destabilized internally attempting willomancy can further destabilize you.

the TLDR is this: we used to scare people away from willomancy way too much, but now we maybe don’t scare them enough. it’s not always an easy, fun, happy, fast process, and if you’re already a traumagenic &/or disordered system you especially need to be mindful of what willomancy requires from you. BAH blogs aren’t bad but if that’s your one and only method for engaging in willomancy that’s concerning and they aren’t even really that helpful for fleshing out fragments beyond giving you an outline of identity labels to work with, many of which might end up discarded anyway

[gnomesofgeroma]

thought exercise: how i think various people in our life would react if we told them we’re a system

dad: ??????? ok?? *cries*

guardian/dad’s spouse: you’re faking because you’ve never been abused or traumatized especially not by me also here’s a twitter thread i found about how DID is fake after googling “why DID is fake twitter.” and now i want to be a system because it seems cool and special

guardian’s 2 older family members: is that a new trans?

current nonbinary situationship: oh! that’s… ok, tell me more

family friend 1 [i like them]: sounds like a good idea for a DND character. can you use weapons in your mind

family friend 2 [i also like them but they’re kind of wokescoldy]: i’ve heard of that but you have to have like really really really severe trauma, like being a trafficking victim your whole life kind of trauma, how would you have it? not trying to be invalidating, but… oh i mean i heard it has to be more severe than that but if that’s how you feel, whatever, what do i call you? i’ll try my best but… [side-eyeing aforementioned guardian. they are going to talk so much shit as soon as we leave the room] also how do you feel about endogenics……..

[faeriefallow]

Never let anyone stop you from being weird, use microlabels, use neopronouns, be altersex, be xenogender, be objectum, be posic, be therian, be fictionkin, be otherkin, be an endogenic system, use controversial terms like lesboy and bi lesbian, tell anyone who wants you to stop that your identity doesn't fucking effect them

[sirenium]

'You need dysphoria to be trans' motherfuckers when they realize the 'trender' they 'called out' for having xenogenders is a dysphoric trans person: erm actually you're still not trans cuz I don't understand you! >:(

[gnomesofgeroma]

i dont miss our airpods at all, these new earbuds sound so much better and the battery lasts hours longer, but i dont like that if anyone asks what brand they are i have to say oh yeah im rocking with the earfun airpro 4s

[jayjayjayjayjayjayjayjayjaye]

Carl consulting the Cookbook whenever he needs something

[knighthearts]

happy pride month for it/its users, polyamorous people, xenogenders, non-transitioning trans people, and other "weird" identities. btw

[sourpatchcherry]

June 2nd, 2026

[gnomesofgeroma]

in some leftist circles there’s this idea that we should hate and shun all veterans because they served in the MIC, which is an understandable emotional response but that’s what it is. just an emotional response. veterans are capable of being as multi-faceted and opinionated as anyone else. there are plenty of leftist veterans who either during or after their service reflected on their actions and decided it was all bullshit, it was terrible, it was something they regret even if they were so poor it was their sole means for upward mobility, and those people become some of the best educators, organizers, and leaders the left has. because of their experience directly interfacing with and enacting the endless violence required by the MIC they have unique knowledge and perspective to give us. veterans are INCREDIBLY important to leftist movements

i think about this when i read DCC sometimes. carl was in the coast guard, technically part of the armed forces, but didn’t see much or any combat since he was just a technician. regardless he looks back on his service with disdain and on the industry with disgust. carl doesn’t seem to consider himself a very political person, he just “sees through the bullshit,” and maybe this is a projection of matt’s own apolitical-but-obviously-left-leaning personal politics or maybe it’s a storytelling device intended to make us more empathetic to carl & avoid division in the fanbase between normie centrists/libs and leftist ball knowers. but in my experience carl is a great example of how most real-world veterans i know feel, and how i’m sure tons of others feel across the country. they don’t necessarily think of themselves as belonging to one ideology or another but they hate the MIC, they despise the government as a whole even more, they’re more well-aware of the evils of imperialism and corporatization than the average civilian, and most importantly they are very fucking angry about all of it. if the veterans i know were put in carl’s position they’d do exactly what he does, putting himself and even the life of his closest friend in incredible danger to encourage far-off alien civilizations to revolt against their oppressive governments (his first appearance on ripper wonton’s show).

THIS is the idea of veterans we should be operating with. we should not be immediately assuming all veterans are murder-loving religiofascist freaks. we should be assuming that this is a group of so many diverse sorts of people with diverse experiences they likely have strong feelings about, who are actually better primed for engaging in leftist politics than the layperson

[videomontage]

some people have therapy all i have is jack kerouac’s june 10 1949 letter to allen ginsberg

[videomontage]

abt to smoke some deer meat pack it in my saddlebag and go away over the bluff for real

[kabber]

[knightbrunnhilde]

Just saw someone defend the use of TMA and TME by comparing it to the use of black and non-black. You realise you're kind of exposing the falsehood of your own argument here, right? Nobody calls non-black people "anti-black racism exempt" and I feel it they did, they'd sound pretty stupid. Calling someone TME is always exclusionary. It is not merely an acknowledgement that trans women face a different set of struggles to trans men and other identities - it is a cudgel used to silence discussions of trans mens' issues. When trans men stop being singled out and deliberately harmed on this godforsaken site then maybe you can start using it.

[kneatle]

I got the game and now I get to feed my miis cigarettes too. >:)

[gnomesofgeroma]

couldnt get our T for a week because of planned parenthood shenanigans. we must forgive the underfunded and understaffed etc etc. but when we went to pick up 3 new bottles yesterday our doctord increased our dosage by 1 pump, which is strange because the max dose is supposed to be what were already on. i dont know if this is a sorry gift or just a little treat but thank u mama i WILL be taking more T now :3

[crazysodomite]

[moldavite]

good news. the things that used to upset me no longer upset me. bad news. i'm creating an army of bugs to hurt innocent bystanders