I feel super unimportant. A lot of thoughts have been going on in my head recently.
I've been feeling alone and unwanted, none of this is new or anything. But I guess it's just more desperation at this point than anything else, like I don't see things getting any better for me anytime soon.
I've thought of suicide a lot recently, and the more and more it gets brought up the more that I consider it or self harm. I don't have anyone for me to talk to about this without being worried that I make them feel guilty. I don't want that, I just don't think I really fit it anywhere.
I feel super alien to everyone, like I'm losing the few people that I still have in my life, like they're moving on from me like everyone else. That here in a few years I'll be all alone. I wish I knew what's wrong with me too so I could change it.
