Golden

Pete Wentz journal entries

[goldeninmemory]

July 18, 2004

“This Place Is A Prison And These People Aren’t Your Friends”

I heard somebody once say “if you love something set it free”

But we’re doomed to crash with these clipped wings

[goldeninmemory]

July 18, 2004

A lot of people have been asking for this. Here’s a bit from our new song- we don’t take hits, we write them. . . .

Find myself on the street out in front of your house so you can kiss safe thoughts good bye. I’m coming up to break your heart. You’re sleeping with the light on like you’re dying to be found out.

I need to take a break from the internet for awhile. I think you’re getting to me love.

- petey

[goldeninmemory]

July 16, 2004

“Nobody Puts Pete The Baby In The Corner”

Sometimes I just write when I am in a bad mood. And often what comes out is trite and depressing. I am sorry. As I sit here with my posture clearly indicating hours on a glowing screen filled with meaningless words, my middle finger calloused and crooked from writing for hours a day in a notebook that seems filled as soon as a new one it bought. With this keyboard I take AIM on nothing and don’t really care. My wrists feel like they’d slit themselves if I let them, they want out (so do i). Then I remind myself I am out with my bestfriends and having the time of my life. My hotel room was next to a palm tree, I slept well and dream free.

That was me being a baby. It happens. You have all always been so nice so don’t even sweat it. Just deal with me getting “emo” sometimes.

P

[goldeninmemory]

July 16, 2004

There’s a part of me that thinks that things might turn out alright. but there’s another part that hopes you didn’t leave your hotel key between pages of the bible iin the drawer.

- petey

[goldeninmemory]

July 15, 2004

“Its Like Chris Said”

New mexico was great for never having been there before. People were so welcoming. I got electrocuted. That was not so great. I’ve got to stop reading the internet, it bums me out a lot. Okay I’m through with (me) all the complaining. I feel like I am holding my breath all the time. A nervous stuttering wreck, and then you don’t like me anyway. I’ve got it figured out, none of it matters. Either: you love to hate me or you hate to love me. But for the record you are my favourites anyway. Love peter. Oh yeah. Hey j.m.

Remember that boy I was always nervous about you hanging out with, the one I hated? When did I become him? I dunno, but I did. I’m sorry. For the record I hope you’re doing alright.

[goldeninmemory]

July 15, 2004

its been awhile. i apologize. i can’t say i haven’t missed you. i need to write more. i think i start to lose it otherwise.

sometimes it all just feels so fucking on. if you don’t get that, i’m sorry i cant explain it.

seeing this country in the summer in a van leaves me breathless. get off the computer and go out and fall in love with someone or something.

you gotta know you have my heart.

- petey

[goldeninmemory]

July 14, 2004

“Which One Is It Gonna Be The Smile Or The Voice Cause You Can’t Have Both”

For some reason texas air feels right on my lungs. I can’t wait to hit the coast. The stars out here are playing jokes on me. These shows have felt pretty good too. Me and patrick wrote a new one today, it gonna make you dance.

[goldeninmemory]

July 12, 2004

“I Would Forgive You But You Could Never Forgive Yourself”

sooo. this half of tour has been hot. hot and fun. there has been lots of drama in my life. i apologize for being out of it. so st. louis- i got hot. i got delirious. i made some weird decisions. i smashed a bass. said weird stuff. left the stage. threw up. asked bill from the academy to get me some FOB booty shorts and tell the crowd i quit fall out boy. then i yelled into a megaphone. got into skimpy shorts and ran around on stage playing.

Oh yeah all these ideas seemed really funny at the time, now not so funny.

i apologize for anyone who had to see my legs in shorts.

that was the hottest i have ever been in my entire life.

peter

texas is the reason.

[goldeninmemory]

July 8, 2004

“Clip My Wings, I Don’t Deserve The Sky”

I must confess how much I love touring here and seeing old friends. Please come say hi.

I also must confess my serious ashlee simpson crush.

Peterabbit

[goldeninmemory]

July 7, 2004

“And I Dont Care If Im Just Like The Boys I Trash In All These Song. . .”

heard a bunch of the new academy record- you are gonna be suprised. don’t sleep. this thing is good and not just in a “my friends are in this band” kind of good, i’d like it even if i didn’t know those geeks. they are like my little brothers. sorry i cut out of the show fast tonight. im not feeling so great about some friends lately. i don’t get “it” but i get it.

if you have some crazy home footage (like the time you and your brother glued yourselves together or whatever) send it to us. we are gonna include a section for it on the release the bats dvd- send it and release (a peice of paper saying you release the footage and your image to be used by clandestine industries) to: Release the bats DVD at 900 forest. wilmette, il 60091- we need it this month. expect it to drop this fall around the TBS tour.

peter

we joked about the kids who used to be just like us- sick inside of their own skin.

i dropped an “i love you” thankgod it got caught in the wind.

you shouldnt have come back here alone. i’m a shark, baby. and theres blood in the water.

[goldeninmemory]

July 5, 2004

“Its Such A Joke How Every Song I Ever Write Is”

we’re getting close. i think we might do one more video for TTTYG. the song is gonna be one thats gonna suprise you, because its our favourite one off the record. if it happens, the band is gonna write the video and act in it- cross your fingers and we’ll see what goes down. has anybody noticed how cliche, selfserving and overdramatic this journal has become? me too.

peter wentz- president of the FOB drama club

love never wanted me but i took it anyway. and there aint a pill that can keep you away from my mind- there aint a siren that can keep me from your window. didn’t you hear the word on the streets? i’m getting by on obsession, baby.

p.s. my hair is now black, im here for your heart.

[goldeninmemory]

June 29, 2004

sorry that picture was huge. try this one instead. i am gonna be dying my hair black when i get back to the states caused i am sick of making pillows red. its been a really great time over here… sont mistake my arrogance for shyness or the other way around. i cant wait to get back out and touring again in the states. thats what feels like home to me- i know i can be hard to understand and deal with at times, so thanks for putting up with me.

please dont hate me

did you expect us to just roll over and die. your mouth is writing checks your heart cant cash.

i miss you guys so much

peter

[goldeninmemory]

June 29, 2004

this is my heart version 2.0

download new picture.

www.fueledbyramen.com/journal

[goldeninmemory]

June 27, 2004

im in japan. its real late at night. why would anyone in japan like my band? clandestine- the story is almost done, the release the bats dvd is gonna drop this fally. funny stuff. someone please send me a torch and some faith, cause i just cant see.

peter

- petey

[goldeninmemory]

June 26, 2004

kaweii co

boys and girls, deadly cobras and snake charmers. japan is amazing. it is a perfect cartoon over here. we are written in. i am not going to waste too much time typing. i have been keeping a real tour journal of it and will post it when we get back. until then stay lovely.

peter pan

keeprunningyourmouthontheinternetyouresuchajoke

[goldeninmemory]

June 25, 2004

“there’s no greater weapon then her name”

Getting ready for japan. I have so much to say. But its way too early. I don’t know when ill get to a computer again. I dyed my hair. Its pink with a bit of black in it. Ask some japanese kids to post them.

Underoath “they’re only chasing” is almost thje new “tell all your friends”

Napoleon dynamite is almost the new rushmore

Ilove you is the new…

P

[goldeninmemory]

June 20, 2004

“R.I.P.”

American nightmare/giveuptheghost- whatever name is over. This band has changed my life in the past few years more than any band has in recent history. Honestly it hurts and feels so strange that its over. If you get a chance to buy a record, you won\’t be disappointed.

When people talk to me about reacting to FOB and how it makes them feel, only this band comes to mind. Their music saved my life.

P