remedy

ᴇʀᴏsɪᴏɴ 錆

[chrrywhine]

[lrezumi]

      SHOWING OFF  …  a toothy grin, he takes her passively concurrent response as a queue to approach, one, two, three steps closer.  a hand lands atop her shoulder, unwarranted, as he is well-aware.  he is enthused by the idea of passing time with sabitsuki, now that he has her where he wants her, where she won’t be able to weasel her way out of spending time with him.  disregarding her uneasiness, he holds to his pleased expression as his free hand digs out a stolen pack of cigarettes from the pocket of his vest. 

                            “ — let’s start with one’a these, yeah?                                                             here y’go sabs.  time to de-stress. “

[gone02710]

        his touch was unwanted, uncomfortable, and almost instinctively, she shifted away from him.  there was a tenseness with which she moved, hands still curled into fists at her side as she stared, frowning, at the smirk he always seemed to wear.  how irritating...  she thought to leave, but once the pack of cigarettes came out, she hesitated.  they were hard to come by here -- or rather, she preferred not to venture into the areas where she might find them.  smile, on the other hand, would happily wander through the psychedelic streets, or even worse places to find them.  taking the cigarette presented to her, sabitsuki wordlessly put it to her lips, tugging out her lighter and fiddling with it impatiently as it failed to spark.  she looked up, hesitant, at the boy standing opposite her, smoke trailing slowly from his lips.

                    ❝  …. hey.  lemme use yours. ❞  

[r-owo]

과제 제도 빼고 다 끝냈다 

흑흑 락교는 자유로운 파절임이에요

[kaobutsu-blog]

“Follow me.”

His eyes fell upon the pavement, urging the nervousness in his stomach to leave. He’d pondered over what he was going to say for quite some time, running through every possible scenario. Though, somehow that still wasn’t enough to prepare him for this. It was taking all his will to not find a reason to leave.

Once they’d arrived, he picked out a seat for them away from murmurs of the cafe. Kao and Sabi earned enough looks as is, but together, they proved to be an even bigger eyesore. That just added on to the weight in his chest. Luckily, he could put it on the back burner while they ordered.

“Sabitsuki, you can get whatever you want.     I’ll have a cappuccino, and a blueberry scone.” 

[gone02710]

         the stares they were meriting only added to her discomfort, seemingly more frequent and harsher than usual.  it wasn’t as though she could typically wander about without any unwarranted attention, but having another rust survivor in her company seemed to capture the eyes of many strangers, more than usual.  she even felt the cafe staff adamantly staring her down, burning holes in the back of her skull. 

                     ❝  …. black coffee, please.  ❞                                   –  her voice was feeble in tone, avoiding eye-contact with the server as she spoke.

[gone02710]

 kaobutsu:

Her response was to be expected, why should she trust him of all people. Though, he couldn’t help but feel a bit dejected in return. Teeth bit down lightly on his bottom lip as he felt his discomfort grow. The whole situation was taking an embarrassing turn. Chin tilted downward, he hid his anxious expression, eyes glued once more to the pavement.

“Look, things are different now.  I’m not here to bully you.

—can you just take my word for it?”

         she shifted nervously in place, a newfound weight in her step as eyes fell away from her company. there was a stiffness in the air between them-- one that she felt was difficult to describe, and his words, unexpected, left sabitsuki in restless discomfort ... what could he have possibly wanted from her? -- rummaging through a mental list of makeshift possibilities was surprisingly exhausting.

                      ❝  …. okay.  ❞                                             --  was all she could manage.

[kaobutsu-blog]

A mixture of awkwardness and nervousness churned in his stomach. He’d spent a good deal of time running over this scenario in his mind, but none of that was enough preparation for this moment. His eyes gradually moved up to meet her pair of cold ones. It took him a moment, hesitation blocking the words that rested on his tongue. 

“Sabitsuki, do you have a minute?    There’s just a couple of things I want to talk about.”

Guilt weighed heavy on his chest, leaving him to wonder if he’d ever felt similarly before. It was childish and probably hadn’t grazed her thoughts in years, but it was still something he wanted to do. 

“Why don’t we talk over coffee?”

[gone02710]

         her expression changed as their eyes came to meet, uncertain of whether or not accepting such requests was truly wise. hesitance played across her visage, sabitsuki unconsciously withdrew from her company in posture, shifting nervously amidst her hushed response.   ❝  …. talk ?  about what ?  ❞  she couldn’t possibly imagine what he’d have had in mind .... should he have had good intentions at all.

[kaobutsu-blog]

A backpack heavy with new collected libation rested heavy on Kao’s shoulders. An expensive and impractical habit for someone his age to be reliant on, but there was no way he’d be quitting based on those reasons alone. Kao pulled his scarf closer to his face, covering his reddened features from the cold as he looked around to make sure he’d gone unseen. 

Through his paranoid glances, a familiar face crossed his path. Had he been less observant, she’d have gone unnoticed, but luckily the stark white caught his eye. He stood for a moment in shock as he nearly let her pass. Kao called out to her, a soft spoken hesitant voice that didn’t match his personality. His eyes met the ground, a cowardly move on his part. 

“Sabitsuki!         Hey…”

[gone02710]

         blinking away saline from the corners of her eyes, sabitsuki winced against the breeze, clutching her shoulders for whatever warmth she could retain against the brutal winter wind. the cool air was dry, chilling as it tickled the back of her throat, and a weak series of coughs left her lips to be followed by a quiet sigh. it would have been best for her to hurry indoors-- glancing around in search of somewhere to warm up with fingers tingling as she shakily tucked them into the thin lining of her jacket pockets.

       the sudden call of her name was unforeseen, unusual, in fact, and the girl turned with a pensive expression, unsure of what she’d find.

         ❝  .... !  ❞  her initial reaction held back her words, lingering with weight on her tongue. a face she’d nearly forgotten with the passing time stood before her, an unsettling-- almost ominous feeling writhing in the pit of her stomach.  ❝  ...it’s been a long time...  ❞  she began, nervously trailing off at a loss for what to say. 

[lrezumi]

                             “ — …got somethin’ better to do?                                                                                                                         i don’t think so… “

[gone02710]

         ❝  ….  ❞  she hesitates, shifting nervously where she stands. in the midst of the silence hanging stiffly in the air between them, her fingers tremble, unsurprisingly, and curl into a fist at her side.  ❝  do you have something in mind ?  ❞  

[onceuponamusing]

                  once, my heart was PURE.                   once, my touch was TENDER.                   once, my words were KIND.                   once, i was GOOD.

                                             once…

                                                                    —— NOT ANYMORE.

[lrezumi]

                              “ — how ‘bout some company?                                                                                                                    let’s go somewhere. c’mon.  “

[gone02710]

          ❝  …i’d rather not. ❞  she evades his eyes, gnawing softy on her bottom lip.

[lrezumi]

                               “ — ….                                                                                               look who it is. “

[gone02710]

           ❝  ...what do you want ? ❞  

[justanotherrpmeme]

bold which habits your muse has

[shallowrot--archived-deactivate]

bold which habits your muse has

nail biting | throat clearing | lying | interrupting | chewing the ends of pens | smoking | swearing | knuckle cracking | thumb sucking | muttering under their breath | talking to themselves | nose picking | binge drinking | oversleeping | snacking between meals | skipping meals | picking at skin | impulse buying | talking with their mouth full | humming/singing to themselves | chewing gum | leg jiggling | foot tapping | hair twirling | whistling | eye rolling | licking lips | sniffing | squinting | rubbing hands together | jaw clenching | gesturing while talking | putting feet up on tables | tucking hair behind ears | chewing lips | crossing arms over chest | putting hands on hips | rubbing the back or their neck | being late | procrastinating | doodling | shredding paper | peeling off bottle labels | forgetfulness | running hands through hair | overreacting | teeth grinding | nostril flaring | slouching | pacing | drumming fingers | fist clenching | pinching bridge of nose | rubbing temples | rolling shoulders

[rabbitinthemoon-blog]

My heart beat fast or did not beat at all; I could not say all that I thought and thought till words deserted me. I loved too abstractly.

Anjum Hasan (via rabbitinthemoon)

[deadacc-archive]

day 67

Still haven’t reached the other new area with the pretty dresses.

[madhouseishere]