Was the psychosis expressed on here or just irl?
there were signs and symptoms, but I guess I didn't present typically. I didn't think I went through religious trauma & never processed how deeply rooted my beliefs were. it's how these things go undiagnosed and untreated for so long. Obviously there was something wrong with me, my anxiety, paranoia, depression, sexual expression, substance use was all there. The strange things I said that felt so normal or groundbreaking to myself at the time. But I never thought my lifelong held beliefs were part of the problem, that the way the world worked and the "proof" I was right wasn't really there.
No, I didn't post about blaming myself for ebola, war, or the tribulations of the Bible, or about my long standing belief that I am a antichrist like figure, but I did post my artwork of Eve killing herself in Eden and post videos of me cutting crosses into my arms in case I forgot my rosary. If you grow up believing you were put on this earth to be punished for the sins of those who have hurt you and to show them forgiveness no matter what, believe you are somehow the cause to grand world disasters, or constantly feel like you have to prepare for the rapture or tribulation period even if you were not raised religious you should probably be screened for OCD. Even if you don't voice those compulsions or thoughts, if you are acting on them it's worth bringing up. Especially if you feel like it's something totally normal to do, but you think something bad will happen if you bring it up in any meaningful way.