He could tell he wasn’t winning himself any points. If anything, he was just being successful at driving her away, making her (reasonably) distrust him. He hoped he had the key to earning that trust in his pocket.
The walk was short and heavy with tension. He’d imagined this conversation was going to be awful, but it was gearing up to be pretty excruciating. He could be thankful for small miracles, however, when they walked into the coffee shop to find it relatively empty. He led her to a table near the back, feeling a little weird for not purchasing a drink before taking a seat. But he’d known of people that had spent their entire day hunched over a computer after buying only one, so surely this wasn’t completely abnormal.
He struggled to find words as he took a seat across from her. He drew in a long breath as he tried to buy enough time to figure out where to start. The time did nothing but delay the inevitable so, instead of the words that failed him, he reached into his pocket, the necklace feeling heavy as lead as he slowly pulled it out. Giving it up might not have been the hardest thing he’d ever have to do, but it was definitely up there. Silently, he set the necklace down on the table, his eyes drawn to it for a long moment. “Lucy was my friend,” he said for the second time that day, his voice thick. He met her eyes finally. “I met her almost a year and a half ago. She…” He swallowed, dropping his gaze again, the burning threat of tears behind his eyes. “She was killed. I’m sorry.” The words broke a little, impossibly hard to form in his throat. But he knew it wasn’t going to be any less painful if he took forever to get to the point, right? The end result wasn’t going to change. He reached into his other pocket, hands clasping around Lucy’s long dead cell phone. He didn’t know if the necklace would mean anything to Grace, but Lucy had worn it every single day he’d known her, so even if it hadn’t held some kind of special memory from the past, maybe it could now. The cell phone had been the only other thing she’d had on her and he knew there was at least one picture of her on it. Of them. She’d snapped it the moment after he realized she’d been trying to sneak a picture so he’d been glaring at her while her own head was thrown back in laughter. He used to hate that picture. But he thought Grace might like to have it anyway.
“I don’t know if these will mean anything to you, but they’re all she had the day she–” He didn’t need to say it again. Couldn’t. “It was all she had on her. I thought you might like to have them.”
There was a piece of Grace that wanted to bolt, to just up and leave before he could say anything else. What happened to Lucy and here parents was not something she liked to talk about. She kept it close to her chest, hidden in her heart. Even her friends didn’t know the truth. She’d never told Tae or Erin about Lucy or her parents. She’d always been cagey and vague when talking about her past. It wasn’t comfortable. It was heartbreak that she hated. She wanted to keep that tucked away, but he was bringing back those feelings and that loss. Grace didn’t know how she felt about it.
They moved into the coffee shop and she sat down, anxious about what he was going to say. She wished she had a coffee, just something to occupy her hands with while they talked. It was an uneasy situation. Grace just wanted things to go back to normal, but then he started speaking and she quickly realized that normal didn’t exist anymore. “Wait...Lucy was alive?” she asked as a lump formed in her throat. However, as quickly as the hope was given, he took it away. Her sister wasn’t alive. She was alive. She spent fifteen years mourning someone who wasn’t dead, but now it was too late. Lucy was dead.
Tentatively, Grace reached out for the necklace, her fingers brushing over the pendant. That was when the tears started brimming in her eyes. She could remember when Lucy got that necklace. She’d helped her mom pick it out to give her for her thirteenth birthday. It was special. She picked it up, her finger brushing along the top. There was so much missed time...why didn’t they tell her she was okay? Why were they separated in the foster system? Had she known Lucy was alive, she never would have run away. She wouldn’t have been homeless. Her whole life would have been different.
She reached for the phone then, her finger brushing over the screen. “What happened to her?” Grace asked. “Where...where was she? Did she...did she miss me?”