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Affiliated ⅋ Tired ⅋ penned by Sheep .          Hewwo .

[grandaxolotl]

Im gunna end up archiving this blog and leave it here to show I tried to reach out! Ill end up roleplaying merlin again in indie ( Maybe another group as a few are springing up ) ! But know you can always contact me through this url again. And for the time being I wish you all well and hope everything goes well! For old friends : I hope we can talk again later down the road ! I know its hard to intermingle with each other when others are telling you who to talk to and who not to.  So I hope one day we can speak with one another again!! I know I am still waiting for the day I can talk to someone really important to me, but until then! I wish you all well!! 

[grandaxolotl]

People seem attracted to icon posts ; so here is an icon.  A much more serious regard though : There are serious claims against me that are all seemingly heresy! I am not here to join Isola since the discomfort of those within the group is wildly apparent. I have concern for your health in mind as well as my own. My mere desire is to come forth and settle these matters. Or apologize for things people feel I have wronged or did wrong, and perhaps help you understand my side of the story. And further from that clear these false allegations against me. 

I had sat and thought how to handle this, So I will try this! Please reach out to me, through DM, through private. Through Anon! Whatever you feel is right, if you feel angry or upset I hope that I can burden that anger you feel towards me if you are truly uncomfortable. Please reach out to me I want to at least MAKE that effort before I walk away from this and tell myself to move on. In this way, too I feel I have tried my best rather then. Roll over and accept things as it were ; as if to say I had done any of these things. Read more so its not super long!

I think its important too because I’m sure there are deff feelings of hurt that have dragged on over the years and this had done naught but refurbish those feelings. So if any way I can help amend these things and make up for the past but also show you how I am as a person. I hope to at least do as much before I take a big break from Tumblr shenanigans. Further from that I know for sure there are many allegations with ‘ proof ‘ that are not as much because I myself know I do no such things and am willing to do whatever to prove it. For instance if you have a time stamp of when I had ‘ harassed someone ‘ I can provide a file or even screen shots of time stamps to show what blogs I have visited on all my web browsers! Further any information shared here is out of confidence, and for the sake of everyone here I would prefer to keep names of others out of any questioning so not only does this protect others. But also keep people safe from feeling further discomforted. This is entirely more about me and trying to reach out to you. As opposed to demeaning or bringing further harm of the situation to anyone else. If you want to address someone well known for issues, you are more then welcome we shall state those issues for what they are. But if they are anyone else outside of the seldom few famously known for their deeds. I may delete them for their sake!  If you want messages private, then tell me as much too!  This will be my only attempt, because I want people to know I at least tried. I tried really hard to figure out whats wrong and going on. And further from that, don’t think we need to or have to talk right away with one another. You are entitled to your discomfort and walking away for the time being. I am just here so that in the future if you want to talk to me again, we can. Without worrying or your fear thinking or knowing. I was any of these things. Again I am sorry! 

[grandaxolotl]

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I dont want to say much of anything other then speak that ; any issues pertaining to me are false and was confirmed by many people that they are mere allegations. As opposed to coherent facts -- so I am more tired. I am just really tired ; I came to this group having done nothing but been uncomfortable trying to fit myself into citta. The person ( One in particular hated me so much they constantly made sure no one talked to me. Close friends. Someone who I love ; who to this day still wont talk to me because they do not want to hurt them. And happy that I understand. ), continued to perpetuate hate over me in others. So I avoided Citta; then Isola came about. Hoping to come into Isola for a fresh new start -- i was welcomed by some of the nicest people who were so excited to roleplay with me. I cried cause I didnt have the energy to tell them ; hey guys I got kicked! Sorry I cannot participate with you! When they were absolutely wonderful and inviting ; and inclusive to me being there.  Tldr ; I am begging you if anyone says that I have defended or been okay with anything there is a much more concise story behind it. Further more, if you need people to back me up. I know a whole community of people who would speak for me and more. I personally never got to speak my own feelings about what happened and I think thats fine at this point. Im old and tired, and I want to pour my energy into doing other things. Instead of fighting people who want to believe what they are told.  Im going to step away from the rp community for a bit to get my barrings especially since I am starting my new job soon. And that job is not a easy job, im going to be working with people with disabilities so its going to be hard for me as much as it is hard for them . In hopes though that at least people know ‘ She spoke for herself. ‘ That people have this in mind, and anytime someone says ‘ well she did this and that. ‘ You can know that is not the case. I am willing and always okay with talking and discussing, I had tried to after someone showed me what someone else was saying. In hopes to resolve the issue and find out more from the other side ; with well intentions in mind. But was blocked immediately ; I am here. I am okay with speaking. It might not be what you want to hear, but I promise you can always contact me.

[grandaxolotl]

HE ww o                                                                                  ٭ ✿ .  ⃰  ❀

٭ ✿ .  ⃰  ❀          FOLLOW      FOR       MORE        SOFT        OLD        MAN   !!!!   ⅋ ⅋  Old man with a staff -- Cane .   ⅋ ⅋  Very funny most chill person ever ; will get along with anyone because he just -- can be anyone.     ⅋ ⅋  Is very lazy and doesn’t wanna do anything, dont make him do anything.   ⅋ ⅋  Will probably fuck something up ; if not everything up.     ⅋ ⅋  Feeds off your emotional energy ; and will tease you purposely for it.   ⅋ ⅋  Raised Arturia ; and doesn’t feel so much responsible for the ending that befell Camelot and his King. Rather, feels responsible for the lack of life Arturia didnt basically have.   ⅋ ⅋  He hits on anyone; everyones free game. Especially girls because he likes women.   ⅋ ⅋  IDK WHAT ELSE TO PUT HERE BUT FOLLOW OLD FLUFFY OLD MAN that HAS FLOWERS THAT FOLLOW HIM EVERYWHERE! 

[grandaxolotl]

HE ww o                                                                                     

٭ ✿ .  ⃰  ❀   My name is Diana more popularly known by this name in the past, recently I’ve changed to Sheep and/or Nana! I would prefer the latter! I dont have much to say but I will say a few things real quick!    - - -   I work a lot and just recently got hired by a group home. I will be working as a Direct Support. A serious job with serious work; I start training in three weeks so my activity in the beginning will be sparse until I know what is going on.   - - -    My home situation isnt always the best, but no worries you wont hear much of it here! Just know if I have somber days something probably occured.   - - -    I roleplay my own version of Merlin and King Arthur , as well as Gawain from Fate in the Indie community! All three are well received by many fandoms, and I also switch around there if I am not here.   - - -    I DRAW!! AND !!!! My art has improved so much so expect me to draw things from time to time!!   - - -   I rp’d at Citta in the way beginning and was mod oo3 back in the day-- the stupid OO aesthetic came from me.  you’ll see me label my threads that way too lol! I rp’d Masamune, Oichi, uh --- ..... Oh Panty.... Idk a lot of characters there! Might of seen me around!   - - -   All in all I plan to follow everyone and rekindle with old friends and re-establish friendships that may have disappeared from expanding to other horizons. I hope we intermingle, cross paths again, and have lots of fun! I look forward to that a lot!!

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Perhaps third times the charm, apping Merlin from Fate as par reserve! App is located on the side bar.

Welcome to scenic Radiale, Merlin!

You’ll be housed in CONDO 444!

You will retain your clairvoyance, which can be used once per day to see an inconsequential event!

You will also be given a wooden staff!

Enjoy your stay!

–Mod Lyra

[grandaxolotl]

[grandaxolotl]

 Hi guys this blog is going to be repurposed for a group roleplay!! Please like this post if you still wish to keep in contact or continue following me. Otherwise I will begin to soft block everyone and clean up for the group!

[grandaxolotl]

"What have you DONE?"

٭ ✿ .  ⃰  ❀   Ohh.... But you told me I could have this chocolate?   ❞

[grandaxolotl]

“Why is everything in the kitchen pink?”

٭ ✿ .  ⃰  ❀   I love pink! So I thought why not--can I make your hair pink~?   ❞Merlin teases, though he would never.

[grandaxolotl]

“Do you still have a stuffed animal collection?”

٭ ✿ .  ⃰  ❀   Yes I do...~~ But do you share your favorite stuffed animals with others?   ❞Merlin was not about to show Rhyme is secret stash of Arturia Body Pillows.

[grandaxolotl]

“Can we just pretend this never happened?”

٭ ✿ .  ⃰  ❀   .... Can I at least keep it though?   ❞Stares at the tiny nobu nobu mecha before them.

[grandaxolotl]

“Oh my god what did I just walk into.”

٭ ✿ .  ⃰  ❀   I can explain! It’s not what you think!! She just—I’m just                   trying to help her! She fell over-and-and-and!!                  ❞Of one of Merlin’s faults was him thinking far faster then he could speak. The reason why he hated incantations so much, was because of this and in moments of stress. Merlin failed to make explanations fast; the rush of his thoughts causing him to stumble over everything at once as well as his words. As such, he had a unconscious woman in his arms. Unable to explain what happened without making himself look bad--

[grandaxolotl]

“You’re into that kind of stuff?” - From, Mammon

٭ ✿ .  ⃰  ❀   Please do not judge me! I know I collect life size pillows                   of my favorite idols but this was suppose to be a no judge                   free zone!! You Promised!!                                                        ❞Tons of them of his favorite JPop idols, he immediately scurries to hide them. Finding the others reaction to be embarrassing!

[grandaxolotl]

nurseryrhymed:

    “i wasn’t trying to be cute- wasn’t i just greeting?” 

she dropped from a crouch to sitting down next to him, shifting her book into her arms. what a terribly hard question of him to ask. these sorts of things weren’t easy to figure out, you know- 

                 “uh… hmm a caterpillar- no wait– a dodo bird– no? a bunny?? hmm.. i’m not sure-” 

  she clutched her book tighter to her, pout returning to her face. 

       “this is too hard-!” 

٭ ✿ .  ⃰  ❀   Oh? Whoa! Whoa!        ❞ As she spoke out from the cloth of his sleeve came a Caterpillar. He set it down in front of them. A small tiny miniature Dodo Bird rolling about; he sets that beside the caterpillar. Then a Bunny? Oh no he pulled a life size one out and settles it before them. It had hopped closer to Nursery Rhyme. Its nose twitching. ٭ ✿ .  ⃰  ❀   Whoa are you a magician Rhyme! I guess that’s why your Caster!                    How did you know that was what was stored in my sleeves? Huh?      ❞

[grandaxolotl]

obdurcte:

       Merlin would regret the day he cursed him with cat ears. He was not one to forget anything, harboring a grudge until he deemed it necessary to let go. It was a bad habit he had kept since his youth, and seeing the circumstances, it was quite justified. Slowly, his hands moved from the top of his head, revealing a pair of fluffy black ears. “I will hold you to your word.” Or else. The Caster was not one to think highly of being lied to, more so than being turned into some travesty of a cat, but he would remember very well if Merlin did not uphold his end of the deal. Imitating the other’s pose, he placed his hand by his chin and scowled, not at all pleased by what he had to do to get back to his normal appearance. 

       “Nya…”

٭ ✿ .  ⃰  ❀   !!!    ❞ Just like that the Cat ears and tail would disperse into the air; he having clutched hold to his heart. Finding himself most delighted and overwhelmed by the sight he had come to see. Faltering slightly, casting his entire weight onto his staff. Having seemingly acted as if he ran a marathon. The feelings he concurred from such manner--ones that he felt excessively excitement over. Pleased him--Made him so happy! He would remember this for days to come. ٭ ✿ .  ⃰  ❀   ... Caster... I’m... Weak....   ❞