just had a somewhat wild realization
i've been very much enjoying getting into Coronation Street and Carla Connor/Lisa Swain these last few months, and the run up to this week's Royal Wedding (2 more days!!).
and it occurs to me: the last time I actually watched any royal wedding was way back *right* in the earliest days of my coming out. I looked up the date. April 29 2011 - that was Prince William & Kate Middleton. I remember it because I was house sitting and accidentally awake in the middle of the night to see it live on TV, and it was literally less than two days after I'd first come out to my therapist - the first time I'd come out to anyone at all. I was feeling so uncomfortable and anxious and grief-stricken, trying to wrap my head around being gay, watching this elaborate ritual of state-sponsored church-sanctioned heterosexuality. So that was then.
And now? 15 years later almost to the day. I'm psyched as hell about these fictional soap women getting married. I'm grateful every day that I'm a gay woman. Yeah it took a little time, I had to work at it, I had to choose to love and celebrate a part of myself that my immediate community at the time was not equipped to help me love. But we got there!
It's really nice to have a little full-circle moment to reflect on this.
I'm so glad I got up the courage all those years ago. I'm so glad I get to be my whole self, that I get to experience life as a lesbian. It's not without its challenges. But there's so much joy, and delight. I've met so many wonderful people. I've learned so much about myself, and the world. And also because......Women.
