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//sometimes you have to find people with who your brain works well with, especially if you’re dealing with a mis-wired brain. It’s not that you stop caring about people. It’s just how your brain works. It isn’t fair to anyone, but it’s how your brain works. It truly doesn’t make you a bad person. It’s just how your brain works, and you’re doing the best you can. I wish it could be different sometimes, that I could be normal, but this is how my brain works and I’m learning to live with it.

#reblogging again cause some of all need to hear this

// if anybody else wants to blast me for getting the courage to speak up about my struggles then go ahead and just block me. Y'all need to understand that mental illness can include isolating one's self, pulling away from people they care about, and then being stuck with the crippling anxiety of how do you reach back out when that happens. It's not that we hate you. We're struggling. This is exactly why I don't try and make friends. They say they will understand, but then they take it as is being rude or using them. If you can't handle it that's a totally understandable situation. I don't blame anyone for not wanting to stick around because it is hard, but don't ever question my intentions. I'm a good fucking person with a huge struggle and trying to get out of bed every day and not run my car off the road is all I can do right now. You can not want to be around me, but don't ever question my integrity. The fact i even formed a relationship, no matter how short it may have been, was a huge accomplishment on my part.

#▷ ooc; speaks #trigger warning #tw; suicide mention

//A little life update to anyone who cares

Life has been one big runaway train this year (I start my years in mid August) I’ve been averaging 55 hours a week. Had two breakdowns at work, and countless others in the privacy of my home. It’s been hard, extremely hard, and my anxiety has gotten so much worse, but there’s been some good things. I have been busy building my house and will be moving in this weekend. I got first place at my taekwondo competition for sparring in November. I know better days are ahead.

Anyway. I know there must be countless people who are upset, or just don’t care. I’m sorry. A literate blog was just too much to handle. So I did what was best for me. Of course you miss things, but how can you even go back? I guess you can’t and the anxiety of reaching out...it just seems better not to bother anyone.

So I hope you’re doing well wherever you are. If you ever want to reach out and have my discord it’s still active. I’ve been hiding out on my non-literate blog, mobile all the time. Doing what works best for me in this hobby. It’s there, almost all of the muses from here are not (at least none I ever really used) there. So yeah. coooooollllll....... <.< >.> ~~~~~~~

#▷ ooc; speaks

//I apologize for my absence. I've been out living life and enjoying my quickly ending summer. I'll be getting to my discord replies (as the ones on here seemed to die?) soonish. Hope you're all enjoying the weather!

#▷ ooc; speaks

straykidsupdate

realstraykids: #straykids #stay #9 #felix #haengbokie

translation credit: Mod E @ straykidsupdate, take out with full credit

(vol4ep01) two kids room ♡ jisung

#▣ alex; face #//the prettiest boy in existence

//sooooo.... i know i’m sh*t when it comes to replying on here, especially with small, more sol interactions. honestly i live on mobile so if you really want to get something going with our muses discord is really the best way.

so yeah.....like this if you want to do something like that and i’ll give you my discord and we can see what happens. really feeling lucas and jisung at the moment. eunhae and sooah are also slipping in there.

#▷ ooc; speaks #//and now to eat because i told someone i would >.>

fy-hongjoong

#▣ jisung; face #//who gonna love this baby?

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