fitzsimmons grandbaby!

Deke Shaw || indie & selective role playing blog for the character from marvel's agents of shield || written by boo.

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DEKE HAS MOVED TO A NEW BLOG AND A NEW URL

MUTUALS PLEASE FEEL FREE TO IM ME OR LIKE THIS POST IF YOU WANT THE URL AND TO CONTINUE INTERACTING ON THE NEW BLOG

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DEKE HAS MOVED TO A NEW BLOG AND A NEW URL

MUTUALS PLEASE FEEL FREE TO IM ME OR LIKE THIS POST IF YOU WANT THE URL AND TO CONTINUE INTERACTING ON THE NEW BLOG

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DEKE HAS MOVED TO A NEW BLOG AND A NEW URL

MUTUALS PLEASE FEEL FREE TO IM ME OR LIKE THIS POST IF YOU WANT THE URL AND TO CONTINUE INTERACTING ON THE NEW BLOG

🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋 TO YOU ALL

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DEKE HAS MOVED TO A NEW BLOG AND A NEW URL

MUTUALS PLEASE FEEL FREE TO IM ME OR LIKE THIS POST IF YOU WANT THE URL AND TO CONTINUE INTERACTING ON THE NEW BLOG

🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋 TO YOU ALL

[grcndbcby]

DEKE HAS MOVED TO A NEW BLOG AND A NEW URL

MUTUALS PLEASE FEEL FREE TO IM ME OR LIKE THIS POST IF YOU WANT THE URL AND TO CONTINUE INTERACTING ON THE NEW BLOG

🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋 TO YOU ALL

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DEKE HAS MOVED TO A NEW BLOG AND A NEW URL

MUTUALS PLEASE FEEL FREE TO IM ME OR LIKE THIS POST IF YOU WANT THE URL AND TO CONTINUE INTERACTING ON THE NEW BLOG

🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋 TO YOU ALL

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so a decision has been made - this blog will be archived and i will be moving deke to a new blog and url for a new fresh start :D

once i set everything up, blog url will be given to anyone who still wants to continue to interact with deke (who will be canon divergent)

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i think i might just revamp this entire blog completely and either restart or something? i try to keep deke as canon compliant as possible but i just have this feeling that what i want for deke is really not how it’s gonna play out in canon

so maybe if i just restart it and go completely canon divergent??

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when ur trying to get reading done for class but u get a blinding headache

wow, thanks a lot brain

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jemmaqueenofspace‌:

“If that were true none of us would be here. You stayed with us, helped us fight to get back to the past even when you were sure it was going to cost you your life, you didn’t know we were your grandparents so you must have done it because you believed in us, probably in Daisy? She’s a hero after all, that can make an impression.” She sighed a little and reached out to place her hand on Deke’s shoulder. “You’re pragmatic, defensive, and… isolated. None of that makes you a bad person.”

Deke wants to say something to counter her, to tell her it wasn’t true, that he only did it for money, to find his father, to see if all of this was really worth it. He wants to say it was all for himself. But he had been willing to die in that room and it was terrifying but he had done it because for a second, he had believed that maybe, maybe his mom and dad were right. Maybe it wasn’t all in vain. He looks at the hand on his shoulder and feels something tearing up his eyes, “You remind me of my mom...” He misses her so much, and it’s only made all the more clear to him when he had seen her again from the fear manifestation.

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Super Duper Off-Canon Road Trip || Fitz and Deke (possibly ft Simmons)

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unaugmentedmonkeyscantfly‌:

Fitz sighed. Deke was being a bit thick, and it seemed he was going to have to insist, because he probably wasn’t going to be up for it another day. “I dunno how things were for you growin’ up, but sometimes there are blokes who hit their kids or make them think they’re useless or stupid or aren’t ever goin’ to amount to anything. I hate those people more than I hate Hydra, more than anything, and I couldn’ cope if I realized I was bein’ one of them. So le’s get that clear, right now.” His tone was firmer than he’d wanted, and his eyes had gotten just a little bit cold. “You should never let that kind of talk slide, even if it doesn’t bother you at the time. It will later.”

This wasn’t how he’d wanted the conversation to go. He wasn’t there for his own sad story, though it definitely informed the truth. He wasn’t there to manipulate Deke into something. He was there because he wanted to try to make some peace, because if by some miracle they changed the timeline and Deke vanished, Fitz would never find peace again knowing Deke thought he was hated.

Fitz bit his lip. “Ehm. Rusty’s RV is still parked up top, I’m mostly waitin’ around right now, what do you say we…go for a bit of a spin? I haven’ been above ground in seven months, give or take a day or so, there’s gas in it, snacks, margarita machine, bed, we could call it a recon mission.”

“But you’re not being one of them...” Deke looked at Fitz rather confusedly, Fitz isn’t even his parent. Yes they are related but Deke didn’t need parenting from Fitz and yes what Fitz said hurt but he’s old enough to deal with it and move on. Life for him had always been about moving on and keep going. “I mean, look, it’s not like I don’t fight back or anything.” Deke gets defensive, he knows he does that a lot when he feels threatened in any way. He’s not completely defenseless.

This whole conversation was still rather strange and Deke isn’t entirely sure what made Fitz even want to speak to him. He suppose it’s one of those Earth social graces that he’s read about but doesn’t fully comprehend. The Lighthouse was such a different world, people didn’t have these kinds of conversation very much. Not that Deke ever had much of a family to have these sorts of conversations with.

Fitz’s next words made Deke look at the other with a widened gaze and even more confused than ever, “You want to go somewhere...with me?” A strange feeling rugged at his chest that he couldn’t explain, “You want to spend time...with me?” It didn’t compute in his head, “Shouldn’t you be spending time with Simmons? I mean, you two just got married, you’ve barely had time together and she’d be much more useful up top, I mean people are looking for me and I don’t wanna cause any trouble.” He doesn’t want more of the team to already think lower of him than they do.

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let’s be honest here, the real canon is that Deke is actually Fitzsimmons AND Kara/Grant’s grandchild

it makes all the sense in the world 🍋

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I know that the deleted scenes showing Deke hugging both Fitz and Simmons and wishing them well and seeing them off has been a lifeline for those of us who wished for more of the family feels

but consider what I’m about to say as well - there is something deeper in this moment than just family love and hugs

this is also about someone who FINALLY gets the chance to say a proper goodbye to the people he loves - someone who isn’t just left behind with regrets and pain but someone who got to make his peace, something that he never got to have growing up

because let’s not forget, Deke lost his mother when he was 9, the kree dragged her away and murdered her because she was smart and she was fighting for the cause - he never got to say goodbye, she was torn away from him and he never saw her again

then his father went on to fight for the cause too, and because Deke got older and more scared about losing his father like he did his mother, their relationship was filled with conflict and anger that when his father got exiled and taken away because of the cause, Deke didn’t have his goodbye then either

that’s two parents, his only family, torn away from him because they went off to fight for the cause and he never got to say goodbye - he was just an orphan left behind to deal with the consequences

but in those deleted scenes, Deke got the chance to say goodbye on his terms finally - he got to hug them, show them he loves them, and wish them well before they went off to fight for the cause - through his grandmother and grandfather, Deke got to say the goodbye that he never got a chance to do with his own mother and father

he got to make sure that they know this time, and that he got to say it out loud, that this time, he’s not the orphan who was torn from what he loved without a choice and left behind like before

no, this time he got to make the choices and he said what he needed to say and showed what he needed to show - he’s not the boy left alone and abandoned, he had his job to do too and he would do his part

the thing that’s haunted him all his life, the fact that he never got to make peace with his father or say goodbye with his mother - he FINALLY got to do it with his grandparents, his only family that he has

this moment speaks so much to Deke’s character and the depth of emotion inside him and in his past that made him who he is, and while I so wish they hadn’t cut this scene, I’m still glad it exists

an orphan left alone in the world, finally found his family and this time, they got to say goodbye before the end

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5.16 | 5.22

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5.20 | 5.22

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IS MY SOUL STILL DYING FROM THAT DELETED SCENE??

yes yes it is

Deke loves his grandparents and nothing will take those moments away from me