Not downloading tumblr on my new phone, so this is the last post I'll be making on tumblr most likely.. I'm sorry you were under the impression that I wanted to talk things out tonight. I had said I wanted to see you one last time before I left, I don't know why you think I'd try to get back together with that much tension and stress on our relationship. It wouldnt be healthy or last long at all. I don't want you thinking I don't care because I do. I feel horrible you feel this way but I dont think we can get along in a relationship anymore. I think one day we could be great friends because of everything we've been through in the last 5 years. I want you to be able to forgive me because I will always love and care for you even though you may feel otherwise. You just tend to hit certain nerves of mine that I cant continue living with and we've been having these problems for as long as we've been dating basically. Maybe when I come back around Christmas you'll be more up to seeing me and we can catch up. You've been in my life for the past five years and even though we aren't together I still want you to be apart of my life. I know its fucked up but I just feel like I can't live with or without you. I will miss you a shit ton while I'm gone so much so that I dont know how to put into words. Just know I love you Caroline, I know it's not the way you want me to love you and I'm sorry about that, I really really am, and saying this is making me cry now but I want you to know that you're always gonna have a place in my heart. If you ever need me you have my number. Please don't hate me, I love you and I'm gonna miss you, bye.
