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Why do I pray to not wake up? It makes me feel so bad

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Life used to be so good

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I should have killed myself when I lost the house. I wish I would have carried out the thought, I haven’t truly lived since then. I feel like I’m just passing time, I can’t function like a normal human being. I can’t drive by myself, I can’t make my own doctors appointments, I can’t self regulate, I can’t carry out the dreams I have for myself. It truly isn’t fair, no one carries or understand the daily struggles I have but are quick to tell me I’m doing everything wrong. My whole life I’ve always wanted to disappear but everyone insists that life is worth living but these same people are what fill my life with disappointment. I’m tired… i came into the world because my parents insurance couldn’t cover birth control, I shouldn’t have to be here if I don’t want too.

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December 25th 2024

I’m tired of constantly wanting to escape. There’s days where I really don’t understand why I’m here… I’ve always just struggled to exist and be happy. I wish I could just run away, or sleep, or just stop existing together… I’m tired of constantly being disappointed and sad, this isn’t what my 8 year old self imagined my life to be. I just want to be happy but that just can’t be the case.

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I lost my house, but gained a new home.

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I hate my existence

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I’ve always struggling with the will of wanting to live. I just wish I could enjoy it.

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I just want to stop dreaming about you, stop lurking and crawling back. I want to forget the future I wanted with you, I want to forget you in general. I want to love someone who will love me, but it’s so hard after knowing what a person can do when they claim they “love you”.

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I’m not ready to let go

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I promise to never take him granted again if he came back in my arms. I never expected this pain from the person who promised me forever.

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I love his beautiful face. It makes me weak, and remind me about why I love him so much. His face is a beautiful painting sculpted by his beautiful brown eyes with a dash of green in them. The way his smile curves into a warm smile that makes my heart flutter and stop me in my tracks. Everything about this person to every inch of his body, his shoulders and arms which were made for me to kiss. To his hands to carry and walk with happiness, I embrace with love and know how lucky I am to have this person to love. He is a rare, as if buried treasure I discovered. I love him very much.

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I love you. That’s all the is running throughout my head. The crying has stopped hours ago, I just lay there. It’s so very hard to sleep but my eyelids win, it’s another day. Another day of still loving you.

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I want to get out of this house.

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Kind and beautiful

I am kind and beautiful.

I wonder what people think of me.

I see the people around me whispering the rumors my exboyfriend would say.

I want them to know I am not who he says I am.

I am kind and beautiful.

I pretend I don’t feel people’s judgment.

I feel so angry towards him.

I touch my body and know his actions do not define who I am.

I worry I will carry this with me for the rest of my life.

I cry the pain very little now, not as much as I used too.

I am kind and beautiful.

I understand I can never change my past with him.

I say I am stronger and a better person because of it.

I dream myself a better tomorrow.

I write my emotions as addressing to what he did, how could I wrote a letter to the main cause of my problems.

I am kind and beautiful.

I will never forgive you but I will cherish myself even when you neglected too.

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Love

I could be in the worst mood

Tears down my tears

Breathing hard fist clinched angry

Talking to you gets me out of that mood

You are like a whole other world.

Feelings are temporary but I never met someone who gave me a forever feeling before I met you.

Your love and words comforts me like a warm blanket wrapped around my heart.

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