fuck, i’m lonely

tw ed stuff 24 | she/her and gay this blog is for rants and depressing shit

[heartclef]

NEW EARTH PHOTO JUST DROPPED FROM ARTEMIS II

[busket]

thats my home

you can see the atmosphere. that halo around the edge, that's my air. the green on the upper right is my aurora borealis. those are my clouds, my sunlight.

and its yours! this is your home. this is the home of everyone you ever heard of and everyone you will ever meet. every animal you've been curious about. every plant you've ever picked, and sniffed. its mine and its yours and its theirs. everything is here. its all that i have. its all that you have too.

[greengardenz]

I wanna not eat but I am also a smart bitch who doesn’t wanna fail her classes and I need the brain fuel and I’m ONE SEMESTER away from getting my bachelors

[greengardenz]

idfk how to use tumblr but I have nowhere else to put my thoughts

I miss my ed and wish I was skinny again

my girlfriend won’t tell me i’m pretty or let me sleep over

I feel like a horrible person for wanting a break from my relationship

[st4rboundd]

i have no secrets other than my social media accounts dedicated to my eating disorder. Thats a pretty big one.

[kipplekipple]

“I don’t want to die, I just don’t want to exist any more” sounds mild if you’ve never experienced it, but it is in fact a horrible, violent way to feel.

[outcastsuggestion]

I'll never be anyone's #1. Never have, never will be.

[greengardenz]

my gf has her own place and I have to beg her to let me stay over on her couch is that pathetic

[greengardenz]

I’m back and crashing out chat

[greengardenz]

every single one of my fingers wraps around my wrists now that’s hot

[st4rk1d-555]

I can't be the only one who's already stressed about food during the holiday season?? Halloween?? Thanksgiving?? Christmas?? New Years?? Why do they all have so much to do with food? I'm already so anxious about thanksgiving and it's only September

[greengardenz]

goddamn I haven’t been on here in a minute, i’m still disordered but I have a pretty girlfriend now that makes me hate myself a little less.

but my stomach is aching and my hands immediately went to tumblr

[greengardenz]

having to add new holes on your belt >>>

[greengardenz]

Me telling myself “you deserve good things” while drinking a giant glass of water after eating half a meal the whole day

[greengardenz]

Tell me why I literally cannot eat if I’m home by myself. It feels like I’m wasting a meal or something if I eat without anyone else

[greengardenz]

I haven’t been on here in a minute- mostly because I felt like I was faking my ed cuz I was eating too much but I’m back on my skinny girl bullshit for the summer

[tiny3racha]

so anyway

[greengardenz]

Someone please motivate me to starve myself drastically again holy shit