the post-anorexic gainer.

33, he/him, ~440lbs, gay/gray-asexual. For 10 years I used to be anorexic, but now I'm celebrating my new, larger body.  Life is weird, right?

[greenrangergainer]

Life's been suuuuuper busy with home renovations, and also I've been dealing with some GI issues since the start of the year, so gaining's been on the backburner unfortunately. But otoh i'm still fat as hell so it's not all bad :o

[greenrangergainer]

Sometimes I wear clothes! Not often, but its been known to happen :o

EDIT: But also, big guys post more clothed pics. Idk, it gives a sense of scale that's sometimes missing in shirtless stuff. Or something. But do it.

[greenrangergainer]

If you get to 500 and are healthy do you plan to gain even more??

I want to say no, I'll be sensible and reasonable and go 'this is enough, I am enough, this is a reasonable and sensible thing to stop and I can be comfortable and sustain this weight'

But I've more or less said that since I was 300lbs sooooo

[greenrangergainer]

You ever see a really big guy waddling along with a semi-vacant stare of concentration on his face because he's clearly struggling to even keep walking and is kind of having an existential crisis as he realises just how massively fat and out of shape he's gotten, and the real consequences of getting to a point where he feels severely limited by his weight? Like 'ok, just a little bit further, then I can sit down, oof, this is a lot harder than I thought it'd be...shit, I'm in serious trouble...'

I think about that. A lot. :o

[greenrangergainer]

Beached after having dinner bought for me. It doesnt happen very often, but damn does it hit different.

[greenrangergainer]

would you ever consider having a feeder/carer to help with your progress

Absolutely! Don't get me wrong, I'm loving this independant era. But if the right guy came along, and especially if my weight continued to climb to the point of needing more assistance? I think I'd be pretty onboard with that kind of dynamic. >.>

[greenrangergainer]

You may have answered this before. When you were anorexic, what did you weigh? I feel like your thigh is bigger now than you used to be as a whole.

I didn't have scales when I was at my worst because I'd thrown them out, and only got a new set after I started gaining weight. My first weigh-in after I started gaining was ~50kg I think, so the ballpark would have been ~45kg.

[greenrangergainer]

Are you going to keep gaining until you're over 500 pounds?

Health permitting, but....yes :o

[greenrangergainer]

The post-move regains must be going well, I swear I fit when I first moved in... >.<

[greenrangergainer]

The pipeline from 'I'll just gain 10lbs to see if I like it' to 'hey this is fun, cutting loose on food is kinda cool?' to 'god, my uber eats bills are getting out of hand, I really need to be more careful' allllll the way to 'shit, why can't I stop? I'm always so hungry and nothing is ever enough....what's wrong with me?' and finally 'I'll....I'll do something about this. I have to. Otherwise....no, don't think about that. I'll call someone and finally admit I have a problem. Just....after I have something to eat. I need to focus. Come on, the pizza guy's waiting. I can still stand on your own, I'm not too far gone....3....2...1...god, I'm so hungry...fuck, even walking to the door is getting so hard, like....scary hard...what have I done to myself...?'

[greenrangergainer]

the desire not just for fat, but for dimpled, cellulite-ridden, cottage cheese mountains of wobbling, weak, sweaty rolls that threaten to spill free of your clothes with every movement :s

[greenrangergainer]

I want to enable you so badly. Not feed. Not even encourage. Enable.

I want to ensure that you have access to everything you could possibly want to eat in unlimited portions at every second of the day. No encouragement, no implied pressure, no caregiving or control, no power dynamic, not even any suggestive comments about your diet. Just an endless and all-too-accessible supply of your favorite foods that enables you to overindulge at your own pace again, and again, and again, until your appetite and stomach capacity become so hypertrophied that you can barely go an hour without needing to gorge yourself again.

I want us to get to the point where we're both genuinely scared by just how much you eat, and how huge you've gotten, but cutting back is nigh on impossible. Your life revolves around consuming food, and mine around making sure that it's available for you.

thiiiis is the good stuff, phew!

[greenrangergainer]

do you not enjoy shirtless gainer meet ups? Not trying to shame or anything, just curious as I know they're very common

Tl;dr residual weirdness from having had an eating disorder. I love my body, but I'm also a bit reflexively modest too. So public shirtlessness is a bit of a hurdle for me.

[greenrangergainer]

If there was a (fully or mostly clothed, reasonably civilized) gainer event hosted in Melbourne, would you go?

Totally! Soem of the recent(ish) events have been stuff like beach parties and stuff, and its not really been my vibe (hell I don't even own any trunks or w/e) so it depends on the event itself, but if its a purely social thing, like just....hanging out at a bar or whatever? Like literally 99% of all social activities I do are just....going somewhere and getting something to eat lol, so I'd love something like that with other guys in this scene.

[greenrangergainer]

What if the dom in the relationship was neither you nor your partner, but your growing food addiction that was taking over both of your lives? 🤔

[greenrangergainer]

I feel like I never know what to do with photos and facial expressions? Usually I just wind up accidentally doing some kind of vacant stare as I focus too much on trying to make sure my body looks decent.

But ngl this I love, like....body, face, everything. I feel pudgy and cute andattractive. So that feels pretty good. :)

EDIT: and grommr wont let me use it as a DP 😭 it's not my fault my rolls obscure any trace of clothing! 😭

[plumpybread]

An Alex sequence I made over a year ago but never posted before!

[greenrangergainer]

For whatever reason this sequence keeps rattling around in my brain, but as my preferences tend to skew towards the bottom heavy, I've more or less headcanon'd an alternative take that revolves around the the thought of Alex going on a bulk, lifting weights, neglecting his cardio, and remaining oblivious to the way his legs and rear are blowing up far faster than his muscles or the bit of pudge around his waist.

Obviously, he's not bulking hard enough, he reasons, and as his diet shifts increasingly towards junk food and empty calories, his legs and rear blimp out further and further, making cardio harder. His increasingly feeble attempts at lifting weights more than counterbalanced by huge food-addicted binges of junk food, having lost all control and restraint as his hips, thighs, and overall overwhelming obesity leave him too wide to leave his room.

Idk. Fun thought. Or something. Either way, the original sequence is still awesome, and @plumpybread's fat anatomy is second to none and has ton of fat guy art to ogle. Give them some love!