WhyAmI...

dumping thoughts.

[untouchvbles]

Nissan GT-R Nismo (R35)

[greenskillz]

RIP, my dream car. Even though you are dead now, the day will come for me to open the drivers side door.

[cyberxbattalion]

[greenskillz]

I drive too fast on the highway

Close my eyes when I cross the street

Occasionally I let my feet off the pedal

Hoping that the transport and I meet

I'm just driving fast on the highway

Aiming for the sea, warm and foreign to me

Past the hills and the odd trees

The people with accents that stare at me

I'm just driving fast on the highway

Running from my troubles

Attempting to drown out my worries

Instead, I can see them in the mirror, steadily behind me

I'm just driving fast on the highway

Hoping you notice me

[greenskillz]

The way I drive, the way I handle a car, is an expression of my inner feelings. Always focus on the front windshield and not the review mirror. Everything in life is somewhere else, and you get there in a car. Life is a race with a lot of turbulence and uncertainty. But you are the driver of your own success. People with fast cars understand death, the thing you like doing the most is most likely to kill you.

The road is calling and I must go.

[greenskillz]

Wow racing pilots are psychos. They litteraly get a boner when they crsh their car in greenhell with 270kh/h nearly killing them self.

Damn i wish i was in that car, im a psycho.

Crash Manthey Grello 24h Rennen Nürburgring 2022 Laurens Vanthoor

Unfall von Laurens Vanthoor im Manthey Grello Porsche #1 beim 24 Stunden Rennen Nürburgring 2022

[nurturose]

[greenskillz]

You can enter or leave my life as simple as a door that is always opened. Im happy if you come in, im fine if you leave and i will welcome you back if you decide to come back in. But dont block that door by standing in the door frame. There is nothing i can do for you if you do that other than kicking you out and giving you another chance to eather come in or leave.

[greenskillz]

Try,

Fall,

Understand why you fell,

Stand up,

Repeat till success

Simple as that.

If you skip point 3 because you cant admit mistakes just stay tf down. Untill you start understanding why you fall there is no way of succeding.

[greenskillz]

Waiting and beeing ignored can hurt.

But for you its totally woth it.

I wont give up. Ever.

[greenskillz]

When i need the sun it starts to rain.

When i need the Moon clouds start to appear.

When i need someone they are busy.

When i need you, you dont talk to me.

This world was really boring before you became my sun my moon and my someone.

Even though you dont talk to me im verry thankful for meeting you.

There is no way of stoping me now.

[greenskillz]

Guess im confused. Idk...

[greenskillz]

I try to sleep, 30 minutes of detailed dreaming about dissapointing her and other people i love, wakeing up stressed with wet eyes as if i cried while dreaming, checking phone, nothing. Repeat.

Its 4:34 now, went to bed at arround 0:30.

Repeated the circle arround 7 times now.

Alarm goes of at 8:30

Final count of wakeing up: 11

[greenskillz]

I just had a dream about an old friend of mine. I remember him as the Funny always positive Athletik guy.

But that all changed when he found the dead body of his dad in the basement. His father was drunk as always and the police said its likely that he fell down the stairs onto a nail that penetrated his skull ending up killing him because he lost to much blood. My Friend was 13 at that time. I always thought, if i were him i would never recover of something like this. But this part of his life shaped him into the ruthless Business man he is today.

When i think about him im verry proud that he handled this so well, but also sorry because at that time our contact was fading away, i knew it happened but i didnt even called him.

Im still sorry about that m8...

[greenskillz]

I've tried to hold together my crumbling flesh with whatever demonic power I have left, but... I'm approaching my limit. In separating and regaining my human soul, I've realized the gravity of the crime I've commited. I've realized how important everything was... everything I've thrown away in my pursuit for power.

V

[greenskillz]

The hours of folly are measur’d by the clock, but of wisdom: no clock can measure.

V

[greenskillz]

n 3^o7 !

Always...

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