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SW 220 CW 211 LW 188 GW 180 5’11 / 22 / lesbian Active August 2023

[greentea-baby]

Backup @baby-greentea

Days without binges - ?? Who knows I don’t even know what a binge is anymore

GW1- 200

GW2 - 195

GW3 - 190

GW4 - 185

GW5 - 180

[greentea-baby]

It’s been another long ass time since I was last here, I’m too busy for my previous amount of self loathing but also this experience is one that I don’t know who to talk to about it other than people on here

My gf showed me a picture of herself a few years ago and she was super thin and I’ve seen these pictures before and said something to that effect but this time I just said ‘you look sick in that photo’ and that lead to both of us admitting our disordered eating history to each other. It was a good conversation and I feel closer to her but we also both said that we saw the ED in each others habits prior to this. So it was emotional but not unexpected for either of us.

But now I’m thoroughly triggered and somehow completely repulsed by food. It’s a very loving relationship and she does constantly compliment my body, even with me being the larger one she verbally says it’s something she likes. So I can’t blame her at all and obviously it’s just my ED popping up deciding to be competitive now that it’s threatened by being in the open with someone I am constantly with.

I just feel so guilty too, she definitely gained weight in this relationship because I was in a horrific binge cycle when we started and then those are just the foods we keep on hand now… so I’m reverting back to restrictive habits after finally breaking the binge cycle and there’s no way she’s not going to notice and not say anything.

[flacacant34t]

Me when my brain🩷

[matchadolly]

girlie that's not a random headache u are dehydrated malnourished over caffeinated over stressed and sleep deprived

[greentea-baby]

I’ve kinda missed posting here and I don’t feel as awful about my body as I used to but there’s still an annoying voice in my head that gets to me sometimes

I cried the other night when I noticed a bone in my gfs hand was 1cm shorter than mine (she’s 7 inches shorter than me) and I just felt overwhelmed with how big I am and started sobbing immediately

In her consolation she said that she doesnt understand how I feel about my body because society has never made her feel to big and idk that’s weighing on my mind. She definitely meant it as she doesn’t have any useful advice because she’s never lived through this but it still feels weird

[juno-infernal]

my little brother & i are having a scholarly debate about mornings

[juno-infernal]

[juno-infernal]

he’s like if an enlightened sage was a 22 year old metalhead who likes to rollerblade in the house

[widebruh]

[greentea-baby]

I’m back! lots of people are missing from my dash so like this and I’ll follow you 💕

[stimulants-4-breakfast]

on a scale from 1-10 how happy would you say you are at this moment?

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Voting ended onSep 2, 2023

1 being not happy at all and 10 being extremely happy

[greentea-baby]

Any tips for restricting when living with your partner?? I don’t wanna trigger them bc they have a history but god I do not feel comfortable in my body right now and I can’t stand looking at myself

[stimulants-4-breakfast]

who has better burgers???

burger king

a&w

Voting ended onApr 17, 2023

[greentea-baby]

The fact that a&w is losing means there’s not enough Canadians or vegetarians voting

[fruityyamenrunner]

something charmingly twentieth century about this

[cryptotheism]

This counts as a spell

[greentea-baby]

I woke up with a headache last night and it started to come back so I took more pain killers but they made me nauseous and sweaty :/

[black-coffee-and-boness]

i keep craving sweets so i bought some protein powder to hopefully satisfy that want in a way with some protein involved

[blubgloop]

this was my plan but the effort of making it and the amount of cals scares me off performing this plan.

[greentea-baby]

I buy chocolate protein bars bc they at least taste good for the amount of calories and it fills me up

[greentea-baby]

Finding everyone who got termed/ deleted since I’ve been gone

[greentea-baby]

Im back on my bullshit bc I saw a stretch mark how’s everyone doing?

I got dumped by the person I was super into when I was last active, had a kidney infection and then passed a kidney stone (don’t replace all your meals with Diet Coke), met my partner (they’re amazing and I might be in love but I haven’t told them yet) and we’ve been together 6 months, and got kicked out of the place I was renting but I just moved in with my partner bc I was basically living there anyways and that’s been great but I started on a pretty bad binge cycle and now I’m here

[greentea-baby]

They’re blocked a couple of my insta accounts but also posted about how they wanna be sad on main so I guess that’s fair but honestly I miss them bc they were a constant positive presence for the last few months and now it’s gone