Nayeli feels herself tense up in complete and utter horror as Kai starts talking. She feels that sick feeling in her stomach get worse and worse as she can’t do anything but stare at him, but the normal tears don’t threaten her vision. No. These tears are heated with complete and utter fury. The ache in her throat made her want to scream, as she stared at Kai, waiting for him to finish.
“[You gotta be fuckin’ kidding me, Kai. Do you seriously think I hate you? Do you seriously think you’re a bad bromodachi? Because you’re not. You never fucking were, Kai. You were my first friend, for fucks’ sake! And yes, I fucking admit that I want someone to care for me, and as I found out, people can care for me! And I’m glad because of that! But you know who I care for? FUCKING! YOU! I care for you no matter what the fuck you say, because you are my bro, and being a bro means that I’ll be there for you! I want to try to be there for you so fucking much, you don’t even know!]”
Her voice is trembling, and she’s so angry, her thoughts are perfectly articulated and ready to go. She’s ready to speak, and her stutter won’t hold her back.
“[You saying that was an accident. I’m sorry, okay? I didn’t mean to.. to freak out. It happened years ago, it’s unimportant. What’s important here is you. You are not an asshole to me, stop fucking!! Calling yourself one! You’re amazing, Kai, okay? You’re the first person I didn’t freak out around or make cry in my first day here, damn it! You are the guy who holds that special place in my heart, okay? I care about you so fucking much, and I want to fucking! Help you!!!]”
She stops when Kai mentions that she shouldn’t bother with him. She doesn’t know what she’s doing, but her teeth are gritted, and she grabs Kai by the shirt and raises her hand, giving him a sharp SLAP across the face.
“[I’M NOT ABOUT TO FUCKING GIVE UP ON YOU NOW, KAI! YOU’RE NOT DOING ANYTHING OKAY? YOU’RE NOT FUCKING POISONING ME. YUMI-CHII DOES NOT LIKE YOU JUST FOR YOUR SPEECH AND YOUR BODY. SHE CAN SEE YOU’RE A GENUINE FUCKING GUY, WHO LOVES HER! YOU HAVE TO FUCKING TRY TO BELIEVE ME WHEN I SAY THAT YOU ARE AMAZING, AND WONDERFUL, AND THIS GAME IS WHY YOUR THOUGHTS ARE GOING LIKE THIS!]”
Breathe deeply, and clench your fists in his shirt, staring him right in the eye. Hot, furious tears have ceased falling, and dry on her cheeks as she tries to compose herself.
“[You. Are my bromodachi. I. Am staying by you. I care for you, and I want you as a bromodachi. Okay? This is my choice, and you can’t change that.]”
His mind blanked out with the slap.
He just stared at Nayeli. Ah, when was the last time he was slapped...? A week before being taken to the Big Brother house, if he correctly recalled. He’d made it clear to the girl (whose name he never bothered to remember) that he was only in it for one night. She thought she could charm him, and got mad when he didn’t keep contact. It hadn’t been his fault, but she blamed him regardless. Of course she did. Who wouldn’t want to slap him? Even his bro wanted to.
He only lowered his head after Nayeli finished. He cradled his hurt hand, staring at the blood absent-mindedly. He’d grown used to it already. Weird.
“[.........You really have no better person to care about?]”, he mumbled. “[...I won’t stop you. Even if it would be better for you to just hate me, you do what you want to do.]” Tears still kept streaming from his eyes. It was kinda... exciting, actually. To have someone so devoted to you, even if you knew you didn’t deserve it one bit. Ah... If only she knew how horrible he really was. ...But, speaking of which...
“[...............Hey, wanna hear a secret?]”
If she were to be so loyal to him, he might as well reveal it. Not like he had anything to lose. If she made fun of him or hated him; he was fine with it. He didn’t deserve her friendship in the first place.
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