Okay so! Here's some questions I think I'd get/have gotten that I can just answer here.
What's your name?
I'm Jo! you can call me Grellestie if you want though. Either or works for me!
What are your pronouns? What do you prefer to be called?
They/It/Abyss!
I prefer to be called my name!
Who can or can't interact?
Just about anyone! No ManGrellers (aka the illiterate fans </3) or S3baci3l shippers. Go to jail. Literally.
No TERFs or anyone like that. I like sane people here <3
Oh and no exclusionists. I really don't care and I don't get why you people care about what other people do especially if it doesn't harm anyone actively. People are dying, Kim.
AND any fans of Vivziepop material who aren't critical of it. Please and thank you
How old are you?
I'm 20 and aging. rapidly. god save me.
Socials?
grellestie on Ao3 but I'll usually post snippets of what I write when I get shtuff done.
cupojo on VRChat!
And here! duh. My main is @a-delish-cupofjo so if you see stuff from that account, it me!!
AND, if you're 18+, you can follow me on Newgrounds where I post. Things ;) (The account is grellestieR) and PLEASE only follow if you're an adult!
Can I DM you on Discord?
Geez, ask me to dinner first. (joke)
I only give out my Discord to hot people people I know well so dm me on here a little more and then I'll probably give it out to ya! I don't answer random DMs a lot of the time.
Hey! I saw one of your edits/art on Twitter/Instagram/etc.!
I only post my Black Butler things here so if you see it elsewhere it is most likely stolen. Please do let me know though! Dunno what I'll do about it beside just whine about it lol but it's good to know anyway!
T.O.U
Do NOT repost my art or edits without proper credit or a link back to the original post!
Do NOT crop out my watermark! I worked hard on it :(
Do NOT claim my work as your own.
Do NOT edit my work without my permission! I'll likely say yes to it! BUT not to editing out my watermark.
You CAN use my art for icons, playlist covers, etc. anywhere as long as you credit me or link back to the original post (Whatever's clever). Again, just don't claim it as your own.
You CAN also use my art for any private roleplay your small heart desires! I do not care about credit in this context because what you do in a private roleplay server is between you, the other roleplayers, and God. NOT ME!
HOWEVER, if it's a public roleplay (i.e. on Tumblr or somewhere akin to that), DO credit me!
Lastly,
I do NOT consent to my art being used for any AI datasets. While I do think it's cool, I am not interested.
grelle gifs below <3
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i dont know what to put here so take my collection of uehara as grelle gifs that i took from here at one point in time <3
Would grell be supportive of a fellow trans woman? And would grell take hrt if she could?
I think that Grelle would (like, I don't think she'd misgender her or anything, she knows what that sting feels like) but she still has her interalized misogyny THOUGH I think a fellow trans woman could change her mind about it or at least challenge those thoughts. And ABSOLUTELY. she would get on HRT as soon as humanly possible and be SO happy to start
What happens if two people are obsessed with grell at the same time? Do they have to fight each other or do they just ramble about grell together? (This is a dumb question but I want a genuine answer for it)
we must combine our max slayage and fuse together to become an even stronger grelle fan. we will one day become a strong amalgamation of just grelle standom and no one could stop us. we will become a level 4 threat to all of humanity. they can join us or suffer.
DID WE GET ANY MORE INFO THROUGH THE LOREDROP ADAPTATION? (+ me being salty)
I saw @marmalade-chainsaw's reblog and got inspired. Also I have many thoughts on the new episode (and they aren't all great).
(Obviously massive trigger warning for self-harm and suicide)
Huge disclaimer: This entire post is written under the assumption that Yana Toboso has no explicit involvement in the Emerald Witch arc anime adaptation. She is listed on the official Cloverworks site as the original author only, and in no other source is it stated or implied that she has had any part in the adaptation itself (unlike Book of Circus for example, where she was very heavily involved). This means that any changes to the source material were decided on by the animation team and do not necessarily make their way into manga canon.
Which different people respect on different levels. For me personally the manga is gospel unless it disagrees with something from the anime i like (definitely not the story of Will the Reaper OVA) in which case I'll try and twist both to fit my vision! I am being very impartial and unbiased!
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I already stated that the short story is; we do not have any new information, and won't be getting any unless Yana blesses us with more lore drops or background on specific characters. But I want to go into detail and explain exactly why:
Yana as a mangaka is usually very deliberate about details. She loves her Easter eggs and foreshadowing (see: all of the twin ciel theory hints throughout the series). If she's put it there, it's probably there for a reason.
I joined the fandom right when ch. 105 came out, and the whole "who died how" debate was always going strong. I love reading everyone's unique theories on which frame corresponds to which shinigami.
What I remember being very popular was:
Sascha is the reaper who died by hanging, since it clearly has their frame and hair pictured. I think everyone can agree on this.
The one drowning was always a tie between the Undertaker and Grell. Someone in a post's replies (I'll find you) said that it can't be UT, since his hair was short during his trainee days. Which fair, but this is meant to show their deaths from when they were all still human. All trainee reapers we've seen so far had short hair, regardless of their human or fully-fledged shinigami hair, so this isn't a clear indicator of who it is. Maybe they do a military crop on new recruits or something???
The bottom right picture was always said to be Grell (although less popular, I have also seen an interesting theory of it being Ronald), but in my opinion it is often believed for the wrong reason. It would make sense if it was a means of showing us Grell's obsession with blood and red predating her afterlife (something which I completely agree with). However, I never thought that the nail colour is necessarily lacquer. It could be a stylistic choice, which would fit the way b/w contrast is used across the frame, so we can make out the hand, fingers and nails.
(btw at this stage I am going to kindly ask everyone to share their human shinigami headcanons with me. Who were they before. Why did they do It.)
So how did this change in the anime? Generally, we've all noticed this season's weird pacing (5 MINUTE RECAP?!?), and this entire episode has felt especially rushed because obviously they are running out of time. This didn't stop the animation team from taking several liberties in these past episodes, for example
Changing Cedric's death date in the previous episode
2. Making this scene really awkward and clunky (also isn't the unnecessary presentation of Grell as universally annoying kinda old and tired and dropped by Yana in all of Grell's recent manga chapters?)
Like why's he looking like that. This entire segment was awkwarddd
Couldn't have given her a bit of a frame?
No reason to change his lines like that
Also unnecessary. The anime is obsessed with putting that man's name in her mouth.
They took your beauty away babygirl
I think I am very biased so feel free to tell me I'm making a big deal out of nothing but the subtext and framing kind of changes the entire scene. I could write an ESSAY.
3. The seceder bit
Again, seemingly small changes change the characterisation and dynamic of the scene. "What makes them want to run" vs "Do they think they can escape" is a massive difference in how the Association is viewed by its employees and the way it operates. Workplace vs Prison/Cult. Clinical vs oppressive. Especially since resentment for the Association plays a role in the main antagonist's entire arc, I think that line was sort of important. But who knows? Perhaps it is all just a mistranslation?
And of course,
4. The infamous suicide loredrop panel
We can still make out that it's Sascha hanging themselves. The art in the anime is a little more three-dimensional, and there's no pesky text bubbles obscuring the scenes. But the nails? A very deliberate choice of the animators. Especially after that little bit of dialogue both in the manga and the anime where Grell once again is being very vocal about her love of red. However, knowing that the initial manga panel did not make that explicit in any way, and also being aware of the fact that Grell was most likely not out and/or even aware of her own identity up until the OVA, I doubt she was getting her nails done as a human. Don't ask me my thoughts on that unless you want me crying and spiralling.
Indeed, if you accept that Grell committed suicide by slitting her wrists, that makes UT the only person that fits the drowning panel in any capacity. However I do believe there's a chance that Yana is playing with our heads here; the panels could be metaphorical, a red herring, picturing completely random suicies (+Sascha) or even presenting the shinigami we already know in their human skins, which might not be what we expect. Their backgrounds are unknown to us and all we're working with is their personality now, the knowledge that they all once committed suicide, and the rest is pure conjecture.
So I guess this brings me to the conclusion that we really do not have any more information than we already did, and any tweaks on the side of the animator team could easily be just arbitrary. Personally, I am not a fan of how this was handled in the anime, and I like to be surprised by the media I am consuming, so I am content in making my silly little headcanons and waiting for yana to drop another hint. I don't know if any of all this meant something to anyone but thank you for reading through it.
people who actually use proshipper and antishipper seriously and actually treat it seriously will never not be absolutely hilarious to me. like, the nerds who never go outside really just made up their own politics to get mad about. something something nuance is dead.
anyway spring cleaning for the anime coming out. im okay with dark subjects in general and actually like exploring them but i dont want to interact with sbcls and i dont owe you, random internet user, a reason why. i dont care if it saved your life, watered your crops, cleared your pores, or about your parasocial relationship with yana. i just want to see my babygirl and enjoy the series while it lasts.
though kind of scared to hope grelle is in the new arc because i dont want her to get more death flags than she already has (im being dramatic, she really only has one but sobs)
actually, here are my full thoughts, THOUGH you're going to need prayers going into it.
Oh, GrelleRon (i think thats what you crazy kids call it lol). I have so many different emotions about it. I feel like it has a LOT of interesting concepts attached to it and things that could really be developed from it! I haven't read fics in a while, but I am SURE some of these have to have been explored at least once or twice. Or I have to finally open docs. . . Scary.
Ronald already has to deal with Grelle as his mentor which is already introducing an interesting dynanic- usually in stories, it's the mentor falling for the mentored but we all know Ronald just wouldn't be her dream man. He's cute, but he's not Will and could never be Will. Maybe she would open up to him a bit after he witnesses her in the middle of a cute girl moment (read: depressive episode).
As nihilistic as it sounds, Grelle knows her end when it comes to relationships. She'll end up with William, become a star, have children, and then her soul will finally lay herself asleep. It's simple. Sure, she'll play around with other men (and women too), but it's all just for fun and to keep her excited! She's gotten herself attached before, but she's learned her lesson - especially after being out into. . . doing chores for a year. But falling for a different reaper could change her mind. It's the ONE species she could fall for and not be in trouble for being with them. . . or just judged ever more so than she already is. Which she wouldn't mind necessarily? But it'd get obnoxious getting called some uncreative name for the umpteenth time, like seriously.
Ultimately, she's keeping him at arms length but does consider him someone she trusts somewhat. But can you really trust someone if you only tell them so much about you? When that facade crumbles, how will you unravel your lies that never seemed to add up in the first place?
Now, for Ronald's perspective, I see him falling for her first. Think about it. This is the only girl that's broken up with Eric first, as well as broken the hearts of SO many other men in favor of Will- who she could do SO much better than, in Ronald's humble opinion. If he could be the one to ultimately sweep her off her feet, do you KNOW how much every guy around him would be jealous?
She's also amazing at her job! kind of! she's one of the stronger reapers in the dispatch and has probably one of the cooler scythes. She also survived a punishment from the Higher-Ups without changing in the slightest. She's also gorgeous! And the only woman to be apart of the Retrieval Division! That's SO cool!
I feel like he would fall for her in a falling for her shadow way- just completely misunderstanding her entirely and falling in love with that rather than who she actually is. He sees her for the woman she portrays herself to be; A strong actress capable of setting the world aflame with her passion alone. A gorgeous woman put against all odds, allowing herself to fall for men like Will when clearly needing a hero rather than a pencil-pusher. He entirely ignores any breakdown or outburst that ruins his image of her because it doesn't fit his version of his Grelle.
That's until her instability gets to an all-time high. He's socially smart for sure, but he's not an expert on the human mind, and Grelle is an enigma all in herself. How could someone jump from a simple mood to thinking the entire world is against you and that the person closest to you only wants you to be a distant memory? Or even just a joke, they tell everyone? That quick switch in emotions would confuse Ronald to NO end. But that just makes him build Grelle to be a needy princess in his mind. She just needs a strong man to keep her out of her own head. But is he even strong enough to handle her?
(SPOILER: Nope. Not one bit. He's witty, but he can't handle her at her worst. Will can, but only because he gets her mindgames while Ronald falls for every single one. Also, Grelle's lies would have to catch up with her at some point, and it heavily depends on what she said and how deep of a hole she's dug for herself. I can only imagine how much Ronald would be willing to let slip by him.
They would have SUCH an interesting dynamic. I just don't think they'd make it as a couple, but they'd make a GREAT case study if you're a psychologist.
