I got pain in my heart, I told you a hundred times
I love you like a fat kid loves cake
You’re were my babygirl my best mate
Dinner for 2 New Mexican food was our date
Cruising down coors the weed smoke loud
Life moving effex; we loved moving the crowd
You was on the phone and you were so open
Heard you said you're over me, is that so?
You don't ever filter girl and that's okay
Coulda held on but you let it go
Sayin' to yourself that it's better this way
Funny thing is that you're going to need me and I'm nowhere
I can't keep explainin' myself, feels like I'm drainin' myself
I guess there's no one to blame but myself
Been taintin' myself, I'm ashamed of myself
I've been praying for myself like you used to
Embracin' myself, like you do too
Although I hate the feelin', I gotta face the feelin'
Bury the feelin', kill that shit
The only way to heal that shit, you know
How you talk all this shit and we still lack communication
How beautiful our kids would be, girl, I don't need convincing
You used to say: "You can be whoever you want, even yourself"
Yeah, I show up knowin' exactly who I was
And never leave as myself
But when it falls apart, I'm always still down
To pick a million tiny little pieces off the ground
Wish you would learn to love people and use things
And not the other way around
Let my insecurities take over
Right now, it's kinda hard to stay sober
Last thing I wanna hear is "It's over"
Love is deadly, it's gon' put me in a coma
If I lose you, then I'm losin' my composure
Got me flippin' in my coffin, turnin' over
All this pain in my chest got my lungs hurt
Stab me on my left side, heart burst
Ever since the day you've been gone
I don't feel like myself no more
I've been in and out of my thoughts
Trying to figure out what went wrong
Trying to figure out what you on
Really thought that you was the one
Now you left and I'm left alone
Damn it's so hard to let you go
You always be talking like you know, know, know
But I don’t think you know about half the things I go
But when I’m without you shawty it feel wrong
And I should slide for you
And that's my biggest problem, in denial are you?
Denial, I go up and up and down for you
Probably die for you, fuck around and lie for you
Feelings running deep, so I just pray and blow the pain away
I'm smokin' dope, it's to the face, I'm finna fade away
I used to think you was everything
Now you not even cool to me
I used to think you was everything
Yeah, that's how I used to be
And you can not say that I didn't try to make time but I guess time away
Got you in your brain, thinking about my mistakes
My vital organs are beating through
My ribcage opened, my heart ballooned
I... I've lost another one
I'm on the floor trying to dress my wounds
Address the fact it was mine to lose
And when I'm left without your love
It could feel like a lifetime baby
And somewhere in the start we had it alright
Sunshine and blue skies, yes I recall
But now there's a darker blue
I'm bleeding and you don't care
The sun sinks and you're not there
I walk, walk away, away from all my problems
I look, look at you, look at you to solve 'em
Now I see, now I see, that is the problem
Codependence, not independent
You don't know me like you think you know me
Any confidence I came with, you take it from me
I just wanna get beside you and make you love me
I just can not take the silence, you keep ignorin' me
See you makin' all this time for more important things
We was s'posed to catch a vibe the other night
Busy now, but you was down that other time
Why you always lead me on and give me signs
I just wanna get beside and make you mine
I just wanna come inside and reunite
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