Me: What if Carmen never got found by A after trying to unalive and she eventually just got out by herself and kept to herself and just was stuck with still continuing doing her work with much less passion but during an Abnormality breakout Kali protected her and everyone else at the risk of her life and now Carmen is #more traumatized because of this and gets that sweet, sweet guilt that constantly gnaws at her and manifests itself as Kali telling her to look at her and just basically blaming her for things.
An AU (I suppose) where I give Carmen immense guilt and trauma. <3










