Being Skylar's Mommy

5.4.16, Skylar Victoria. Life through momma's eyes.

[flahwed]

[astralb0dy]

Holy fuck, just vaccinate your kids.

[growing-skylar]

100% honest mom thought.

I’m probably gonna get hate for even posting this, but hey, whatever. I’m a damn good mother and I know that. But I’m just gonna say it… Sometimes, I don’t want to ‘mom’. Sometimes I just don’t. Some days I wake up to a whiny crying infant, at 6 am, when the day before she slept until 9 am, and I want to rip my hair out. Sometimes, I just don’t want to sit at home all day with a baby. Sometimes, I just wanna go to the movies with my fiancé, or go to a fun party with friends on a friday night, or god forbid, I want to actually drink MORE than 1 glass of wine on occasion, and actually FEEL a buzz. Sometimes I want to go to bed before midnight, and sleep until 10 am the next day, and make myself a big beautiful breakfast and eat it…. WARM! Wow, what a thought. Some days, I just dont. Want. To. Mom! So shoot me, call me what you want, but that’s how I feel some days! But guess what? That little baby is my world, and I’m gonna keep mom-ing until the day I die! Even if it’s not my favorite thing every second of every day!

[growing-skylar]

Can't believe Skylar is almost 7 months old! She is starting to army crawl, and she's starting to chew things like Gerber puffs and small pieces of rice and bread and soft peas! Time is going by so fast, yet I feel like I've known her my whole life. ❤️

[growing-skylar]

Really missing when my makeup looked like this!

[capricornluna-deactivated201810]

this blog hates donald trump

[sailorblaintana]

you know what pisses me off most about this election?

Hilary Clinton would win by a fucking landslide if she was a man and you all know it

[parentinginplaid]

If you voted for Trump and you have a mother, sister, wife or daughter. You should wake them up this morning with an apology. You single handedly helped a man into office who is going to be taking their rights away. Their rights. Not yours. Not his. Their rights. No one has the right to take another person’s rights away! Does that make you feel good? Does that make you feel like you’ve accomplished something? But when you apologises, make sure you really focus on apologising to your daughter. And while you’re appologising to your daughter for taking her rights away, also explain to her that if a boy/girl comes up to her and grabs her private parts, that’s it’s okay, because our President does it. Congratulations, you played a part in electing the one person who is going to destroy this country! I pray to God you come to your senses and see the error of your ways in these next four years. And then, maybe you can help right your wrong at the next election. But by then it might be too late. Because you got mad over an email. #imstillwithher #momsagaintstrump

[growing-skylar]

I promise I’m back ya’ll!!! Okay, here’s an update on little miss. Skylar is 5 & ½ months old now! She is MASSIVE. She is over 20 pounds (I don’t know the exact weight, but she was 18 pounds at her 4 month check up, and Kyle said he weighed her about 3 weeks ago and that she was 20 lbs!) She wears size 18 month clothes, and size 3 shoes! At her 4 month check up she was 27 inches long, so I’m not sure how tall she is now. She is eating solids and loving it! At her 4 month check up, her Pediatrician told us that she was more than ready for cereals, fruits, veggies, and even meats if we wanted (I’m waiting until at least 6 months for meats). I asked her pediatrician if we needed to do just cereal for a few weeks, and wait on fruits, etc. And she said, “All those rules about what to feed babies first is not necessary, you could feed her chicken soup for her first meal if you wanted to!” I’m guessing she was joking, but basically she gave us the go ahead to start her on pretty much anything! We do still wait a few days in between new foods to check for allergies. Skylar is REALLY good at sitting up on her own, although she does still topple over after a while. I’m a little worried though, because she hasn’t rolled over at all yet. Anyone else have/had a baby who is completely uninterested in rolling over? She just simply doesn’t want to. I work with her during tummy time everyday, and nothing. :( If she doesn’t start by her 6 month check up, I’m gonna talk to her doc about it. I am so so so excited that the holidays are coming up! It’s my favorite time of year, and I can’t wait to spend these chilly months with my little girl. ❤️

[midwinterdream]

[growing-skylar]

This has to be one of my favorite looks Skylar's had!

[raisinghobbits]

Personal feelings.

In three hours our baby will already be 1 week old. That’s mind blowing. To think that I’m going to blink and wake up to a toddler makes me really sad.

For the past two days I’ve felt like crying a lot. Partly, out of happiness when I’m staring at Roslyn, and partly because life is already so drastically different that I’m having a hard time. It’s fucked up because I wanted this SO badly for so long. I feel guilty and ashamed for already having these emotions. It’s barely been any time at all with our child, and I find myself missing laying down with Austin and talking for hours like we did every single day when he got home from work. He’s been more than helpful with the baby, but it’s weird how distant I feel from him. I’m home all day with this little person that is completely attached to my boobs (I’m really struggling with nursing but I’m not giving up,) and I feel like I can’t catch my breath. Plus, we have a lot going on in our personal lives right now so I just feel overwhelmed.

I’m pissed at myself because I feel like I’m being so ungrateful, especially because there are so many people struggling to have a child right now. I’m going to talk to my midwife because I can’t tell if these feelings are normal or not. I just want to cry and press pause on our baby for just a minute so I can spend time telling Austin how I feel. I feel so fucking awful for even thinking like this!!!!!

[growing-skylar]

This is 10000% how I felt when I first had Skylar!! Literally. I remember laying down with Kyle for a few spare minutes, and I began sobbing, telling him that I just missed him so bad, even though he was there with me every second, I missed him. I missed our time together laughing and talking and playing. Every second was stressful the first 2 months. I craved those moments with him and I felt so horrible for it. It gets so so much better mama. I PROMISE. ❤️

[windowtomyworldsworld]

I remember being a pregblr and reblogging so many perfect baby pics and imagining the life I would have with a baby, my baby. I couldn’t wait for him to be here 💛💛

Then you come home with a newborn and everything’s a mess, it’s nothing like you ever imagined and you literally wonder if you’re ever going to find time to answer a text ever again in your whole life.

Everyone tells you it’s hard, I knew it was going to be, I thought I was prepared but I don’t think anything can ever prepare you.. I’ve spoken to so many mums and dads of various ages who all feel the same, none of us know how to put it into words.

I know I cried every day for a while, hormones, stress or whatever …. but it gets SO MUCH BETTER 🙌🎉

Being a parent is so so hard …the adjustment period is weird and it seems all these cute pics lie to us …Seriously when are we going to find time to even try and take all these lovely pictures!? It doesn’t happen, well maybe once in a blue moon.

Honestly if any new parents ever read this just hang on in there, it will get better but don’t hesitate to talk about how you feel and accept any extra help you might need 😍😍

[growing-skylar]

This is so spot on. I was so incredibly depressed the first month of Skylar's life. She is almost 5 months old now, and it's gets better and better every day. ❤️

[outcastmag]

[fredarose]

Society’s obsession with the “post-baby body” has got to be one of the most insidious and harmful things. 

Like, why do we hate maternal bodies so much? Why are mothers’ bodies and how we feed our babies so threatening to so many people?

Why do we keep infantilising women by expecting women to look like young girls when they’ve just given birth?

As women we need to really push back against this form of violence against our collective self-love.

[beanmakesthree]

I feel so guilty that I don’t want more kids and it’s stupid and I hate it

[vatide-deactivated20180102]

Growing up in an abusive house you either learn how to fight back or how to give up

or a confusing place inbetween where you have unnecessary outbursts/fights but also let people walk all over you when you should be fighting back