Grow With Me

Becoming the person and nurse I want to be one small step at a time

[growingfromlove]

Thursday, January 17, 2019

6:07PM

Well, I did it! I survived the first shift of my final placement!

And get this -- it wasn’t even bad, in fact, it was good! My preceptor seems awesome, the other nurses seem awesome, and there’s tons to learn on the floor. Who knew? I am officially finished 1 out of 36 twelve hour shifts on the floor. I’m 2.7% of the way there. 

I got to see so many things! Trachs, NG tubes, foleys, blood transfusions... I even did bloodwork and a successful IV start on the first day! The med-surg atmosphere is beginning to actually make sense to me. If only I could tell first year nursing student me that I would get this far alive and in once piece...

Even though the shift went well, I was dead tired when I came home. My calves were killing me from standing, and I had a big bump on my forehead from boinking my face off of an IV pump. Oopsie. I showered, ate, and fell asleep as Alex was talking to me. I am incredibly lucky to have someone that not only puts up with my ridiculous shiftwork hours and studying, but makes me yummy dinner and doesn’t mind when I doze off mid convo ♥♥♥. 2019 is a year for never taking things or people for granted, especially Alex.

Surviving this clinical means self care and stomping out self doubt and anxiety before it gets itself going. I can do this.

I’m working my first night tonight, hoping the floor is slow so I can study.

E

[growingfromlove]

Tuesday, January 15, 2019

2:38 PM

I just went to the gym and now I am exhausted. I’m realizing how out of shape I am, but it is motivating me to be better! Fitness is important but it sure is tiring.

Planning to clean up a bit today, and maybe get some laundry done.

E

[growingfromlove]

Tuesday, January 15, 2019

11:26 AM

Today, hopefully, is the first of many writings to come.

Introducing me: a twenty year old female, nursing student, food lover, and high achiever. I like the colour yellow (cadmium yellow deep, to be exact), and despise movie jump-scares, walking on slippery ice, and celery. And, I’m growing.

By growing I mean learning, maturing, dispelling my biases and realizing my strengths. Becoming the best nurse, woman, girlfriend, and general human being I can be. These things are important to me.

Over and over again, I’ve found comfort in writing my thoughts out -- reflecting on the workings of my mind. Overly dramatic, yes -- but helpful nonetheless! I’ve decided to document my thoughts here, in an aesthetically pleasing blog where I can read them for the months to come. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t get this idea from the movie Julie & Julia (which is one of my favourite films, I’m admittedly a sucker for Meryl Streep). I like to think I’m original and witty, but in reality this is probably very cringy. Oh well.

Tomorrow I begin my final clinical placement of my nursing education. I will work on a surgical unit for 3 months, and by the end, I will be a grown up nurse. It’s almost scarier than the movie jumpscares.

Until tomorrow,

E