Gs - Choices

Heather & Gatlin

[gschoices]

Whats the point anymore? If your unhappy you must stay unhappy. I cant change a damn thing in my life with it being controlled by everyone eles. I feel so smothered. I cant change others. The ones I love dont change for themselves or me. I really feel like im going to loose it if covid comes back in Aug and Dustin cant go to school. Idk if i can even last til then. I feel so alone. I have no friends to talk to about it. I cant talk to my partner cause uh hes fucking moody worse then a girl. I cant handle it. What did I do to deserve this. I wish i could get away for a few days but I have a kid to take care of. No one gives me a break. Im so sad I ruined my life so long ago..

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“Some friends don’t understand this. They don’t understand how desperate I am to have someone say, I love you and I support you just the way you are because you’re wonderful just the way you are. They don’t understand that I can’t remember anyone ever saying that to me.”

— Elizabeth Wurtzel

[s-e-c-r-e-t-t-s]

#always

[anxietyproblem]

[gschoices]

Wow

Havent been on here in so long but I need somewhere to talk. Maybe I need to make a new account.. Idk my depression is so bad at night i hate it so much. Its so bad when I pms too which doesnt help. Im so frustrated with my life. I fucking suck. I hate myself. I hate i have done nothing. I am so controled its not fair. I dont know where to begin to get away and have my life with my family. I know i need to make changes but i dont have any help. My dad will forever be my legal gaurdian. I wish i knew what was right to do. I wish i could have someone helping me. In RI i had a case manager now that im here in NC im on my own. I love Dustin but I'm not happy. I am but not fully. I just want what everyone eles my age does. I want to be normal. I wish i grew up normal. Thankfully i am giving gatlin a happy life. He wont be like me. I hope he will be better. I hope he will continue to work hard. I can say that I have done a fucking amazing job raising him. I could have given him up. I chose him and he chose me. He wanted to live and nothing in this world is better than being a mom to him. I want one more so i can continue that feeling of happiness. I dont want to ever loose G and then im forever alone. I dont want G to loose me and be forever alone either. I wish someone understood me.

[gschoices]

I should download tumblr again maybe? On my phone?

[ptsdinformation]

[sesh]

[fossil-arm]

Inktober Day 3: Wreck-It Ralph, Tim Burton style!

[thatsthat24]

YEsssssss

[mariam-alk]

[gschoices]

I need to come on more often, I miss my tumblr friends and watching their families!

[zoomerbro]

[internethistory]

[factsmyguy-deactivated20180214]

Rae Sremmurd - Black Beatles 

[electradaddy-deactivated2018090]

One of the many things I've learned as the parent of a child with special needs

You can teach your children manners. You can model kindness & empathy for them. But, genuine empathy and kindness simply come from the heart.

If you’re lucky enough to have a child who naturally exhibits those traits, treasure that. It’s a gift and will mean so much to those who are the recipients of your child’s natural displays of empathy and kindness.

[gschoices]

Gat is sick, first day of missing school.

[thestanconfessions]

[imperfectlyxo]

If you are scrolling through Tumblr trying to distract yourself from something you don’t want to think about, or you’re looking for a sign. It is going to be okay. Just breathe. You are alive and you matter.