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FAIRY / HIDEOUS. *
but ..... alex .... listening to every tapes .... and being broken at the last one .... and actually trying to forget about them when he gave them to the next one ........ but can’t............ felt guilty and shit ........... and actually not telling anyone ............. ending up with depressed thoughts............ and being even more broken when he saw clay’s face............... everytime he saw him listening to them............. knowing how broken he will be ............. while listening to his own tape.
Deep Starters Meme
Sometimes it's hard to get in depth with your muse and their backstory, because you can't figure out how to bring those things up with others. Here are a couple of starters intended to make things a little more personal!
"What's holding you back?"
"I'm not comfortable with this conversation."
"Will you /ever/ be comfortable with this conversation?"
"Let me in sometime!"
"It's not that easy, you know."
"Help me understand."
"It's hard to connect with someone when all they do is push you away."
"Why are you always so cold?"
"Why are you always so happy?"
"Are you really happy now?"
"Who hurt you this badly to make you this way?!"
"What, did your ex mess you up that badly?!"
"Why do you keep fighting it any time you feel?"
"It's a problem, I get it."
"This is all kinds of messed up."
"That's not exactly a good coping method."
"So what happened, with your parents, really?"
"What was your childhood like?"
"Everyone has at lest a little bit of mommy/daddy issues. It's nothing to be ashamed of."
"My parents aren't exactly perfect models, either."
"You were bullied? What for?"
"Was it hard? Coming out, I mean."
"You can't just run away all the time."
"You can't just hide all the time."
"Are you still thinking about them?"
"I'm not the enemy here. But this makes me wonder who the real one is for you."
"Is the reason you're so cold and defensive because you feel threatened?"
"How long has it been since you last spoke to them?"
"You never talk about it, why?"
"How come you're so different around them?"
"It's like you don't have a care or worry in the world."
"You seem so perfect. I don't get it."
"What was your ex like?"
"I don't think I was ever good enough for them."
"Are you not comfortable being intimate?"
"Why don't you feel comfortable being intimate?"
"Letting someone see you that vulnerable, it's a scary thing."
"Are you scared of being hurt?"
"Have you ever been taken advantage of?"
"Why are you afraid of saying I love you?"
"I never understood how someone could say those words so easily."
"You're hurting others the way you've been hurt in the past, don't you think that's ironic?"
"You use people to make yourself feel better."
"I'm scared of being used again..."
"Losing someone isn't easy, but you're making it harder than it needs to be."
"How long has it been since you lost them?"
"You're too attached."
"I'm not attached, I'm just comfortable with what I'm familiar to."
"Maybe the real reason you're so controlling is because, deep down you'd rather have them in your grasp than lose them."
"Why did you ever break up?" / "Why did we ever break up?"
foundtrouble !
“Give him a few days Alex, and don’t do anything stupid in the mean time. He’ll get there eventually.” Gracie let out a sigh. “Just leave him alone, and ask the others to do the same. Please?”
Alex sighed in annoyance, but he knows she was right. He knows that the other needed time to actually think properly and listen to everything. ' I know he needs time! I know the others and me aren't helping either, but Justin and the others are dicks! You know they aren't as sane as me and Cherri are. '
five word prompts
[inspired by this]
“actually… i just miss you.”
“alright, i’ll leave you alone.”
“and slowly… i was forgotten.”
“and then everything just disappears.”
“and where do i go?”
“anyone could tell from here.”
“are you finishing that or…?”
“are you stupid or stupid?”
“anything, just call me, okay?”
“bitch better have my money.”
“bro… that’s so… not cool…”
“but did you do it?”
“call me now. it’s urgent.”
“can’t you listen to me?”
“cross that. don’t answer that.”
“don’t even think about it.”
“don’t you dare walk away.”
“do it. i dare you.”
“did you think i forgot?”
“eventually… you just move on.”
“even if you still do.”
“everything will fall into place.”
“fight me, you attractive stranger.”
“for once, i need you.”
“for once… i was right.”
“for once… i was wrong.”
“forget i even asked you.”
“forget it. you fucking suck.”
“fuck’s sake, what’s your problem?”
“fuck off. i mean it.”
“give and take. that’s life.”
“great. perfect. nice. fuck this.”
“have you lost your mind?”
“hello? it’s me. i was-”
“hey… that wasn’t so nice.”
“here’s a glass of whatever.”
“how about a hug, hm?”
“how about you make me?”
“i haven’t forgot you yet.”
“i can’t be around you.”
“i don’t need you, really.”
“i don’t need this now.”
“is this your first time?”
“it’s just a cut, really.”
“it wasn’t me, i swear!”
“i said i love you.”
“just don’t fuck it up.”
“just… come back alive, okay?”
“just make sure you’ve eaten.”
“kick his ass for me.”
“killed him? wait, what, literally?”
“life really sucks. feel better.”
“letting go hurts… a lot.”
“let me live, will you?”
“no, i don’t need you.”
“nothing can hurt me now.”
“nothing matters anymore to me.”
“okay it was me… so?”
“people lie all the time.”
“pipe the fuck down, asshole.”
“please, you can’t die now.”
“please don’t leave me alone.”
“quiet. they can hear us.”
“quick! give me your phone!”
“quicker, you freaking piece of-”
“quit it or i’ll bite.”
“quit staring! they’ll notice us!”
“really? do i look stupid?”
“real smooth, tripping over air.”
“rise and shine, sweet thing.”
“rise and fucking shine, motherfucker.”
“seriously? give me a break.”
“so… what are we now?”
“so… did you miss me?”
“so… can we go eat?”
“so… when’s the next flight?”
“so… how did everything go?”
“sometimes, i wish you died.”
“so what? you did it.”
“time passes slower without you.”
“then what do you suggest?”
“the fuck? who are you?”
“then you tell me why.”
“this is not working out.”
“this isn’t what i wanted.”
“this is all a fucking disaster.”
“when did it all happen?”
“who knew you’d be here?”
“why do i even bother?”
“why do i love you?”
“why didn’t you tell me?”
“you’re just… so, so stupid.”
“you can’t be here now.”
“you look like an accident.”
“you really need to go.”
“you know who to call.”
“zero fucks given. next please.”
cute shippy starters
Adapted from this post.
“Come over here and make me.”
“Have you lost your damn mind!?”
“Please, don’t leave.”
“Do you…well…I mean…I could give you a massage?”
“Wait a minute. Are you jealous?”
“Is there a reason you’re naked in my bed?”
“I almost lost you.”
“Wanna bet?”
“Don’t you ever do that again!”
“Teach me how to play?”
“Don’t you dare throw that snowba—goddammit!”
“I think we need to talk.”
“Kiss me.”
“Hey, I’m with you, okay? Always.”
“So, I found this waterfall…”
“It could be worse.”
“Looks like we’ll be trapped for a while…”
“This is without a doubt the stupidest plan you’ve ever had. Of course I’m in.”
“The paint’s supposed to go where?”
“You need to wake up because I can’t do this without you.”
“We’re in the middle of a thunderstorm and you wanna stop and feel the rain?”
“I’ve seen the way you look at me when you think I don’t notice.”
“Just once.”
“You’re the only one I trust to do this.”
“I can’t believe you talked me into this.”
“I got you a present.”
“I’m pregnant.”
“Marry me?”
“I thought you were dead.”
“It’s not what it looks like…”
“You lied to me.”
“I think I’m in love with you and I’m terrified.”
“Please don’t do this.”
“If you keep looking at me like that we won’t make it to a bed.”
“You heard me. Take. It. Off.”
“I wish I could hate you.”
“Wanna dance?”
“You fainted…straight into my arms. You know, if you wanted my attention you didn’t have to go to such extremes.”
“Hey! I was gonna eat that!”
“Have I entered an alternate universe or did you really just crack a smile for me?”
“You did all of this for me?”
“I swear it was an accident.”
“YOU DID WHAT?!”
“If you die, I’m gonna kill you.”
“Tell me a secret.”
“Hey, have you seen the..? Oh.”
“No one needs to know.”
“Boo.”
“Well this is awkward…”
Credit: @alwaysbellamyblake
foundtrouble !
“I’ll leave Alex, I swear I’ll leave right now if you don’t stop and you’ll be stuck studying alone.” She threatened, her cheeks turning slightly pink from embarrassment. She let out a small sigh, “just let it go, please?”
' But I need help with this test or I'll fail again and my father will kill me! ' He stuck out his tongue one last time as he looked up at her and adds, actually trying to be serious. ' Fine, I'll stop until we're done studying then! After studying, I'll do it again though. Be warned. '
foundtrouble !
“How would I know, Clay doesn’t even know I know about the tapes. Don’t call him an idiot Alex, he liked her. I’d probably take my time if I were him too. – And if he decides to talk to someone about it, I guess you’re all screwed.”
' Why can't he listen to his own tapes like we all did? I mean is not that hard? Not like I haven't listened to them all too, but it had taken me two nights! ' He said as he shook his head. ' I mean, if he wants to take his time and suffer even more then, be my guest Clay Jensen. '
❛ Sometimes the silly things can mean more than anybody knows. ❜
13rw ask meme. // accepting. // @facetiious.
’ Whoa! Since when Malia Tate talks like a genius? ’ Alex raised an eyebrow as he looked at her and smiled. ’ I mean, I know you are smart and all but saying something deep like that, it’s just… Not you at all? ’
❛ Where’s my bike? ❜
13rw ask meme. // accepting. // @watchashea.
' Why are you asking me this question? I mean, you should ask Justin first since he's the one who likes hiding them! '
✧ ( 13RW SENTENCE STARTERS.
warning: triggers apply. mentions of suicide and rape present. read and reblog with caution.
❛ And this time, absolutely no requests. ❜ ❛ No return engagements. No encore. ❜ ❛ I hope you’re ready, because I’m about to tell you the story of my life. ❜ ❛ And if you’re listening to these tapes, you’re one of the reasons why. ❜ ❛ I’ve heard so many stories I don’t know which one is the most popular. ❜ ❛ Betrayal. It’s one of the worst feelings. ❜ ❛ Where’s my bike? ❜ ❛ This was in front of the library? ❜ ❛ What about the student honor board? ❜ ❛ There’s some justice and some closure. ❜ ❛ I couldn’t watch. ❜ ❛ People can be fucking assholes. ❜ ❛ I thought we had like another week for that. ❜ ❛ Listen, I could, if you wanted to, I could help you finish the paper. ❜ ❛ We only have like twenty minutes before the first bell rings. ❜ ❛ I Googled everything. ❜ ❛ Well the founding father’s did grow and use hemp, but it wasn’t weed exactly. ❜ ❛ Sometimes books are more reliable for this kind of stuff. ❜ ❛ Everything I publish is personal to people. ❜ ❛ Still, it feels wrong. I’m just being honest. ❜ ❛ What are you working on? ❜ ❛ This is so cool. I’ve always wanted to set you up with someone. ❜ ❛ Maybe I was stupid to keep hoping. ❜ ❛ That is shocking. I’m shocked. ❜ ❛ Wait a second, how do I know you’re telling the truth. ❜ ❛ Come on, what do you say? ❜ ❛ Then again, they almost always do. ❜ ❛ Did you want to see if the rumors were true? ❜ ❛ Why did you do it? ❜ ❛ Thanks for helping me, that was really nice. ❜ ❛ I’m just saying if you’re getting fat shamed then don’t be fat. ❜ ❛ It’s always best to give compliments face to face. ❜ ❛ Sometimes the silly things can mean more than anybody knows. ❜ ❛ It’s kind of soul crushing, you know? ❜ ❛ We all need it. Human contact. ❜ ❛ You’re going to have to wait, just like I did. ❜ ❛ Let me know if you need to talk, anytime. ❜ ❛ I’m going to play mind games with you, just like you did with me. ❜ ❛ That’s a whole new level of lonely. ❜ ❛ You were kind that night. You just sat there. ❜ ❛ I’m sorry about _____. He’s/she’s just a dick. ❜ ❛ Want to see a trick? ❜ ❛ You got to get the positioning just right. ❜ ❛ After the way you played in Saturday, it’s on me. ❜ ❛ Take it easy, okay? You’ll feel better tomorrow. ❜ ❛ I wonder if you ever felt what it’s like to be lonely. ❜ ❛ Have you ever noticed us? ❜ ❛ How many of these did daddy make you? ❜ ❛ It’s okay. I’m over it. ❜ ❛ I never got the chance to say something. ❜ ❛ The thing is you were the Valentine I was hoping for. ❜ ❛ I don’t know if you’re doing this on a dare or whatever… ❜ ❛ I like you for so much more than that. ❜ ❛ The fact that you don’t even know. ❜ ❛ This shit that happens to you, I think some of it you bring on yourself. ❜ ❛ Thanks for the insight genius. ❜ ❛ You said something stupid and I yelled at you. Big deal. ❜ ❛ You didn’t like that someone told you no. ❜ ❛ You should of just let it go but you didn’t. ❜ ❛ I just needed to be alone. ❜ ❛ You’ll do anything to keep up your perfect reputation. ❜ ❛ I’m a fucking weak, pathetic loser. ❜ ❛ They’ll just laugh at you like they always do. ❜ ❛ Come out, come out, little girl/boy. ❜ ❛ We’re protecting ourselves. ❜ ❛ I’ve got no plans. I’m good to tell the truth. ❜ ❛ It’s only a matter of time before we’re all screwed. ❜ ❛ Nothing we did compares to what he/she did. ❜ ❛ You’ve been doing it for weeks now. ❜ ❛ My God, _______, you should fucking listen to yourself sometimes. ❜ ❛ You want to know what’s worse then being a rapist? Hiding behind one. ❜ ❛ You want to get the story straight? We all know the story. ❜ ❛ The honor board, because you are all so honorable. ❜ ❛ This happened off campus so the only alternative is the police. ❜ ❛ It was no ones fault. It just happened. ❜ ❛ I mean, maybe I was driving a little too fast. ❜ ❛ I’m taking some fucking responsibility. ❜ ❛ Maybe it’s all your faults, has that ever occurred to any of you? ❜ ❛ Who’s going to believe a dead girl/boy? ❜ ❛ You know my motto, no cheerleader left behind. ❜ ❛ I’m always looking for the wrong person. ❜ ❛ I thought you said you didn’t do it? ❜ ❛ I’m telling you, the worst is yet to come. ❜ ❛ You’re calling me a pussy, after what you did or didn’t do. ❜ ❛ Oh, so, if I kill myself then I kill you guys too? ❜ ❛ Why are you asking me about this? ❜ ❛ I don’t know what your truth is. ❜ ❛ Get your dirty ass feet off my notebook man. ❜ ❛ Do you want to talk in there? ❜ ❛ Maybe there’s even a message from beyond. ❜ ❛ At that moment, everything was perfect. ❜ ❛ I know you felt it too. ❜ ❛ I wanted you to do everything you were doing. ❜ ❛ What happened? I thought it was okay. ❜ ❛ Just leave me alone, you should just go. ❜ ❛ Part of me never wanted to see you again. ❜ ❛ You walked out the door like I told you too, why’d you have to leave? ❜ ❛ Your name does not belong on the list. But you need to be here. ❜ ❛ I didn’t deserve to be with someone like you. ❜ ❛ I would ruin you. It wasn’t you, it was me. ❜ ❛ There’s that word again. ❜ ❛ The kind of lonely feeling I’m talking about is when you feel like you’ve got nothing left. ❜
Send me “I was supposed to protect you...” for my muse’s reaction
foundtrouble !
“Of course he talks to Clay, but I don’t exactly know what he’s telling him. So I guess you’ll have to be careful.”
‘ Why is he taking so long ? I mean, I know he can handle it but what if the idiot talks to someone about it ? What do we do ? ‘
facetiious !
“you’re not… you’re not that much of an idiot.” Malia hates to see Alex like this, it had been months since Hannah Baker killed herself and now everyone was still in full recovery, over the situation. “I’m not a therapist, nor am I good at talking about feelings..” Malia pauses, finding that to be a sort of cop out answer and she hates herself for it. “You’re not an idiot.” She settles.
' No! Malia! I'm an idiot! I know what I'm saying when I said that I'm an idiot is that I'm an IDIOT. ' He was mad at himself now that he was thinking about the past. He knows he had to forget about it, but how can he? He was one of the reasons why Hannah killed herself. It eats him inside to think that he was the cause of someone's death. ' It eats me alive, you know? Every time I saw that stupid list, all I want to do is REWIND and actually DELETE that part of my life! I have been losing two people that day. Hannah and Jessica. ' He sighed as he shook his head. ' What an idiot! All that to please to JOCKS ! '
“ you’re mine ”
♥ “ sweet nothing’s ” meme. // accepting. // @littlemissredriding.
’ Jealous much ? ‘ small laughs escape his body as he looked at the girl in front of him as he adds, stroking her hands tenderly. ‘ Do I have to say MINE TOO ! ‘
facetiious !
when the conversation takes a more serious turn, Malia’s expression sobers up as she looks at Alex. “I know, but you’ve learned from that list, right?” She asks, glancing at him with a sympathetic smile. “I guess that’s all we can do, ya know? learn from our fucked up choices?”
' Of course I have learned from them, doesn't mean I'll feel better about it now that.... you know! ' He said as he leaned his head to the side. ' Why did I do that stupid list in the first place! I know why, but still... why am I an idiot? '
Grief is forever. It doesn’t go away. It becomes a part of you, step for step, breath for breath.
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