Poems Ect.

Poems that I have stored on my phone taking up space.

[gumm1w0rmz]

Every day,

I wake up next to you in the bed we now share.

Every day,

You never fail to make me smile.

Every day,

I keep plunging into the sea of your eyes,

And I can’t help but notice how blue they are.

I can’t help but notice you look at me with such affection.

The way you say my name, how the syllables float from your mouth.

Mundane things have never been so fun.

I want to experience everything with you.

Every day,

We get a little closer to the future.

And for the first time in a long time,

I can actually picture a future.

A future together,

Working hard to be together.

Every day I will work for you.

I will put the effort in and make you feel exactly how I feel.

Every day,

I find another reason to keep going.

And they all seem to have a connection to you.

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Take my heart and run.

You keep it safe and protect it.

Kiss it and hug it,

Feed it with your pure adoration.

Nothing like this has ever been felt before.

Pure adoration in everything I do.

The way I walk,

The way I speak.

It’s like you see someone I couldn’t imagine someone seeing in me.

You see the potential and how far I’ve come.

You’ve lived my life,

And you know my pain,

And yet you still love me the same.

No matter how bad this pain hurts,

You still have comforting words to douse the flames with.

I have never felt this particular way about someone before.

You make me feel hopeful and safe.

Understood and loved.

But honestly, words aren’t enough.

I love you Jackson,

From the heart of the universe to yours, and then connected with mine.

I feel as if we’ve met before in previous lives,

And yet we keep finding each other.

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4 years

For 4 years you waited,

And for 4 years I took advantage of your love.

I came and went as I pleased.

And when you needed me,

I was gone.

Unreachable.

A dial tone.

Unread messages.

Left on delivered.

And that’s how I’ll remain in your last moments.

A bittersweet memory.

I left you wondering if I truly loved you.

I took for granted your kindness,

Your presence.

And now that your gone,

The regret blooms in my eyes.

All those wasted years.

Wasted days.

Wasted hours.

When I could have been building my life with you.

Building our future.

Now all I have is memories,

And I can’t help but cry.

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[gumm1w0rmz]

I miss you.

Was i not enough?

Was I too much?

What did I do wrong?

Why are you gone now?

All of you.

Mom, dad.

The people I love.

I still weep for you.

And the feeling eats away at me.

When you said you love me,

I didn’t realize it was conditional.

I love you only when you don’t throw your life away.

I love you only when it’s convenient for me.

I love you when you ‘act right’

And only when.

I love you so much I died thinking of you.

That’s what my headstone will read.

I loved you so much my heart bleeds.

And right now I feel so alone.

When the tears keep flowing and I feel that sinking feeling in my heart.

It hurts so much just to think that you loved me just enough to leave me.

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