Along the way,
I left behind fragments of myself,
like trees surrendering their leaves
without asking if they will ever return.
Every autumn undressed me a little,
every spring whispered to me
that hope always finds a seed
waiting beneath the silence of the earth.
When I was young,
I believed the world could rest in my hands,
that I could hold the water still,
tie the wind to the sky,
and persuade time
to halt its restless horse.
But the river kept singing its ancient song,
unmoved by my prayers,
and I learned
that no one can command
the breathing of the universe.
I have watched mornings
rise like flames over the fields,
and I have watched darkness fall
upon the faces I cherished.
Death has walked near my door,
quietly reminding me
that we are only visitors
in this fragile house of clay,
built from a handful of dreams.
Then I discovered
that love is not a chain of promises,
nor a prison made of memories.
Love is a great and generous tree
that offers its shade
even to those who choose another path.
To love
is to open the windows of the soul
and allow the birds to find their own horizon,
even when our own sky
becomes filled with silence.
My children,
seeds carried from my own blood,
were never possessions to keep.
They are rivers flowing toward distant seas,
stars following their own destinies,
bread meant to nourish
other tables,
other dreams,
other hearts.
I was only the earth
that held them for a while
before releasing them
to the endless horizon.
Slowly,
the world of things began to leave me.
My clothes aged beside me,
my furniture learned
the quiet language of dust,
and my books preserved
the warmth of my hands
for strangers I will never meet.
And I smiled,
because I understood
that life does not carve our names in stone—
it writes them briefly
upon the moving waters.
Even my body
changed its seasons.
The strength that once demanded admiration
became a softer memory.
Gray hairs bloomed
like winter gardens,
and every wrinkle became a river
carrying the hidden stories
of my days.
I never cursed the passing of time.
How could I,
when time gave my voice its tenderness,
my eyes their patience,
and my hands their compassion?
Only those who have known sorrow
truly understand
the priceless beauty of a smile.
There were nights
when pride built walls inside me.
I believed strength meant
never bending, never yielding.
Then I learned
that the oldest trees survive the storm
because they know how to bow,
while those who cling to their pride
are often the first to fall.
Now I walk slowly.
Not because I have lost my strength,
but because I have learned
that rushing through life
keeps us blind
to the miracles around us:
the opening of a flower,
the dance of a butterfly,
the laughter of a child,
the warmth of a hand
still reaching for ours.
I no longer wish to possess.
What could I carry with me
when the final evening
closes my window?
Not the house,
not the portraits,
not the old clock
that stubbornly counts the hours.
Everything will remain behind,
as mountains remain
after the traveler has vanished.
I only hope to leave
upon this earth that welcomed me,
a small offering of kindness,
a few words
that may comfort someone’s sorrow,
an embrace that outlives my absence,
and the memory
that I loved deeply
this brief and sacred miracle
called life.
For now I understand:
we were not born to defeat time,
but to blossom within it;
not to own the world,
but to walk through it as humble pilgrims,
drinking for a moment
from the endless river of existence.
And when the great silence
finally calls my name,
I hope to depart
as the evening leaves the sky—
quietly, without regret—
leaving behind only
a small light burning
in the hearts of those I love.
While the river continues its journey,
while the trees continue offering shade,
and while the eternal stars,
silent and immeasurable,
continue writing the ancient poem
that began long before us
and will keep singing
long after our final breath.
—Luis Barreda/LAB
Glendale, California, USA
December, 2020