don’t look at me like that /its such a nice day

rib vent + personal acc do not reblog please

[gutshine]

i need 2 say things or i’ll explode and there is not a single person i can say them to

[gutshine]

she hates me she didn respond to my message s or say goodnight t o me

[gutshine]

stupid chud like me doesn deserve lunch

[gutshine]

i lowkey shouldn’t look at old pictures of myself cuz it just makes me wish i looked like that instead of this. like holy shit i didn’t know how good i had it back then. tummy not flat but not this. smaller boobs. my clothes fit :( ugh

[64mpg]

guy who has a mental health condition that comes and goes: i’m cured this time actually i can feel it

[64mpg]

same guy when they start having symptoms again: what the fuck is happening and why

[gutshine]

i want a flat stomach so bad. like so bad. i want my 2023 body back i want my 17 year old body back i hate the college 15 pound weight gain so much i want my boobs to get smaller and my thighs to get smaller too i guess that’s really fine idk. my stomach. smaller. and starving myself into being thin obviously is not the answer which means i have to WORK for it ugh ugh ugh ugh. takes damage. psychic damage.

[gutshine]

if i skip enough meals my body will get used to it and then i can just eat Less #lifehack

[thisisnotjuli]

"girl dinner" but instead make it "dad lunch". what if I eat nothing. what if I go out and eat a burger. what if I eat three fried eggs and a single tomato. what if I eat a can of tuna and maybe six lettuce leaves. what if I ate two peaches and then went to the gym for two hours. what if I eat nothing. what if I eat nothing. what if I eat nothing.

[gutshine]

right but if i miss enough meals by “““accident””” surely it will get me anything other than just feeling weak and miserable and hungry. surely it will save me.

[64mpg]

guy who has a mental health condition that comes and goes: i’m cured this time actually i can feel it

[64mpg]

same guy when they start having symptoms again: what the fuck is happening and why

[gutshine]

oh god i am not making it to phonphon (already half an hour past when class started) im too homesick and near tears oh god!!!! do i just need to cry😭

[fruitblush]

this is actually like my third or fourth rodeo so i sort of get it but sort of dont

[fruitblush]

in some ways worse than my first rodeo cause i feel like i should be better at it by now

[gutshine]

thinking about faze killing herself isn’t enough i need to also kill myself

[eliotlime]

nothing really matters

[gutshine]

so so so so so so so so so so so so so angry

[cherubg1rl]

[eliotlime]

nothing really matters