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At this point, i honestly do not understand how i still have any followers at all. But since you are here, have a look at Oni-Kacchan and Kitsune Deku while you cry over ch 322 spoilers Careful, it's a bit saucy.
(I fucking BAWLED, no cap)
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💚❤ What is in a Name?🧡🖤
-a useless dump of BNHA trivia on Names and speculations on the future plot based on them.
BEWARE- LONG-ASS POST AHEAD! MANGA SPOILERS AHEAD! BAT-SHIT CRAZY RANTING AHEAD!!!
(Part 1 : The Prototype/ Akatani Mikumo)
This is a post I have been meaning to make for months, but I had no outlet until recently where I joined both tumblr and ao3. It has always been fascinating to me how Horikoshi sensei names his characters. The amount of thought that has been poured into them is astounding.
Today, dear folks I will tell you the reason why I was crying and screaming for two hours straight after reading the BNHA chapter that introduced BlackWhip and ultimately convinced me to create a tumblr for my headcanons and start writing a fanfic based on it.
Today is where we discuss the gift of genius that is Horikoshi Kohei (and the ultimate TROLL that this shy motherfucker really is; move over Tite Kubo we have a new king in the game)
Now we know that the proto of Midoriya Izuku was this edgy kid with a bad haircut called Akatani Mikumo ( 海谷 美雲). His childhood friend Gougou Katsuki, later Bakugou Katsuki, named him ‘Yamikumo’ (闇雲)
Let’s talk about…
Akatani Mikumo
谷- spells as 'tani’, meaning 'valley’ but it can also be read as 'Ya’. This explains the nickname 'Yamikumo’. This also comes in the 'ya’ of Midoriya
赤- spells as 'aka’; meaning red
海- spells as 'Mi’ meaning 'Sea’
雲- spells as 'Kumo’ meaning 'cloud’
'Red valley Sea Cloud’….. jesus christ on a tricycle… that’s a scenery in one frigging name 🤣
So basically Horikoshi changed the title from red to green (as midori means green, but you knew that) valley. And called him a beautiful lil scenery. Lol. ( He is beautiful, Horikoshi. So, so beautiful. )
anyway, moving on…
Let’s have a closer look at this little nickname which left me shooketh.
Yamikumo (闇雲)
闇- spells as 'yami’ meaning 'darkness.’
雲- same as before, means cloud
Now the name Yamikumo translates to 'dark cloud’, it literally means 'blindly’ or 'recklessly’ hinting that proto-Katsuki nicknamed him based on this exact trait of recklessness. Just as canon Katsuki named Izuku after his 'uselessness’
Side Point: This reminds me of the dark cloudy things we see in Izuku’s dream of OfA. (Quite a way to put that in, Horikoshi-sensei.)
“Well that’s pretty normal uptil now. We already know all this information. What’s the big issue here?”
Y-Yes, pl-please allow me t-to explain!
As with the meaning of 'Deku’ which has meanings beyond 'Dekiru’ (You can do it!) and 'Deku’ (useless, blockhead) ;and I will reveal in a shorter post later onwards.
The name Yamikumo too had a SECOND meaning.
Most Japanese people might be already familiar with these ulterior meanings of both nicknames but I have never seen a post on them so I just thought of putting up my own. (Fuck I am digressing again)
Okie, now back to NAME
’Yami’
Yami ('やみ) = dark
it is a straight forward, no-bullshit reference to the dark and edgy protagonist design. I believe Horikoshi called him 'Fiend Kid’ ?????? (Why give hime such a lame, try-hard edgy hero name, Horikoshi…just ….Why?). Obviously, Horikoshi meant our protagonist to have a darker past or cynical mannerisms as many of the blogs and fics portray.
But the problem I have here is with the name-
'Kumo’
It can mean several things depending on the different kanji/katakana/hiragana. But if you use good old Google translate (like moi did) you will arrive at THIS MEANING
くも- (hiragana) = Spider
クモ- (katakana) = Spider
a fucking 'SPIDER’ …
Now…many fans already know that Horikoshi sensei once said that Midoriya Izuku was based off Spiderman and it really shows in the chapters with his new quirk 'Black Whip’. What he should have also told us that he literally tried to name our protagonist with a name that has a double meaning of a fricking SPIDER.
This goddamn TROLL that Horikoshi Kohei is…ughh
((I screamed about this all night when I found, and went on a nerd-rage trying to explain this to my father, who btw, forgot for a minute that Japan is in the EAST. That is exactly how much people around me know about manga -that it’s from Japan and it comes from the East))**facepalms through the skull**
((CAN YOU IMAGINE MY PAIN?!))
Deku “デク”
Notice how Deku (デク) also has the 'ク’ katakana like in Kumo(クモ). It also means 'nine’. I find it really clever that this name both points to the number 9 as well as an insect with 8 legs (8 predecessors of OfA? hmm?)
So BASICALLYThe other meaning of 'Yamikumo’ can be ’Dark; Spider’
闇 の 蜘 蛛 - Spider of Darkness.
Now, NAME A FICTIONAL CHARACTER INSPIRED BY A DARK SPIDER POPULAR IN CONTEMPORARY CULTURE?
You know it, You have meme-d it, you drew and hit 'like’ on its fanart, wrote and read fanfics on it;
You made it the BNHA phenomena it became since the BlackWhip.
It’s none other than Spiderman’s-
“Venom”
It always puzzled me why Horikoshi-sensei didn’t use the name “Akatani Mikumo” instead of Midoriya Izuku. These are a few (Crack and Not-so-Crack) reasons I can think of-
The derivative nicknames impact the character. It doesn’t suit Deku’s (I can do it!!) lovely character over Yamikumo’s (Dark Cloud/Dark Spider) edgy one. But really this is a bullshit reason. The protag could have been edgy as hell and I would have still loved how awkward, self-sacrificing and dedicated he is. I am sure many will agree.
I understand that the friction between him and Katsuki over a nickname wouldn’t have happened if he chose the proto name. But Horikoshi could have shown that in a different way - like more instances of the bullying. Instead Horikoshi CHOSE to change the protag’s name COMPLETELY to connect Katsuki to the protag by a damned nickname one way or another. (Horikoshi was basically bro-shipping these two even before we started Bakudeku 🤣)
Totally Crack Reason: Horikoshi probably saw this horseshit with Venom memes coming even before he started the first chapter of the manga. Imagine the meme-flood if he had chosen the name Akatani Mikumo (Yamikumo). But he 'Nope’d his way out of it early. Two hundred chapters later, we finally catch up on a joke he ultimately decided not to play.
WHAT THE FUCK, Horikoshi-sensei?!
Headcanon Time:
Now this is my belief (and a headcanon I have already put use to) that Our dear Cinnamon Roll Deku - WILL be controlled by an external agent (AfO?! maybe?!!) just like the Symbiote or Venom did. And he will have to fight it off. I have another reason to believe this which will be discussed in “Part 2: Deku” of this useless rant.
It makes sense to me since Deku is, otherwise, a character at complete development. The author needs a perfect character to handle the dark influence of whatever is coming in future chapters to handle it well. If the protagonist were a character with lesser development, the manga would take an even darker road that the show originally didn’t pack for. It’s target audience might be diverse but its still mainstream anime and won’t include too many disturbing details.
Yes, it deals with Bullying, Abuse, Domestic Abuse, Kidnapping, Human trafficking, Human Experimentation, Drug Use and lots of dark stuff but it has never delved deeply into it. Never. We see the fights, maybe a disturbing shadow play of a gruesome act; we see the aftermath but we dont see it actually happening. And I think, we never will because the editors and show producers know what kind of direction they want with this.
Deku’s character provides perfect ground for a collision of wills that is staple in shonen genre and bring out the 'Good vs Evil’ trope to a unanimous conclusion ('unanimous’ depending on how well Horikoshi writes, many mangaka botch the ending with a fine-ass plot, but I have to trust him. we will see how it goes)
Another hint to the 'Deku goes Dark’ has to be in THIS panel.
Notice how he says “I wasn’t afraid of this new power then”
It means Deku wasn’t afraid at that point in time but it can mean that he might have been afraid later on.
So, maaaaaybe, there is a possibility of Deku going “Dark Side”!?!
V!Deku: “Hmm? Someone called?”
Me: shit, he hawt…but…
NO, NOT THAT DARK.
D: If you insult Kacchan one more time Monoma…I wIlL eNd YoU
Monoma: *gulps*
Yep, something like this.
Even if he does go Dark in the manga, I am sure it will be something like Ninetails Naruto v Pain, Ichigo v Ulquiorra, etc etc.
But still it is really exciting!
Needless to say, In the event that I am proven wrong and Deku doesn’t go berserk, I will be very VERY disappointed. Not that I want him to suffer, but him bashing Villains with SEVEN-fucking-quirks is gonna be a through and through Badass Arc. Can you imagine the Absolute Bad-ass BEAST he’d become with all those powerful quirks buzzing under his skin?
According to Horikoshi’s trolling-ass, that Beast is apparently the most adorable (yet disturbing) Moth I have ever seen:
(Another insect? Is this a coincidence or maybe a joke? My over-analyzing ass thinks -THE FUCK NOT)
But I CANNOT tell you how BADLY I want this shit canon.(No, Not Mothoriya. But the Beast-Deku knocking Villains with 7 quirks)
Just Imagine The Sheer Epicness
Am I exaggerating, reading too much into it, creating mountains out of mole hills? Maybe I am, maybe I am off my rocker, absolute bat-shit crazy (I most certainly am), but I can dream, can’t I? Horikoshi might never answer my prayers for a Deku going crazy with so much power in his hands, maybe he will. No one knows the future.
So for now, the only thing we can do is wait and watch…
Oh, And Thank You for Coming to My TED Talk.
Back from the dead to say just one thing:
I have been wrong about many things, But THIS- this one post is what I am really proud of. Courtesy BNHA chapter 318
Can we PLEASE talk about this???
(WARNING BNHA MANGA SPOILERS AHEAD)
I KNEW, I JUST FUCKING KNEW IT!!
I knew that calling Midoriya Izuku, ‘Deku’ would somehow come back to bite Katsuki in the ass. I ALWAYS KNEW IT. From the start of the manga, when I literally hated Bakugou, I knew karma would find its way to him. But as I nursed that idea, and slowly began falling for the beautifully complex character that Bakugou is, I came to realise that karma won’t bite him - he is going to bite karma.
What is Ground Zero?
The Final Battlefield between All Might and AfO has been turned into a memorial after the Hero’s retirement (as you can see from the All Might statue erected there)- and it’s publicly called as Ground Zero now.
Why do I think Katsuki will choose this as his hero name?
Because an angsty binch like Bakugou Katsuki would ofcourse use a name that held this sort of a meaning. He still blames himself for the retirement of All Might
The parallel: As Deku is to Izuku, so is Ground Zero to Katsuki. Izuku chose a name that was clearly meant to be derogatory, and decided to make it his Hero name. He didnt want his past to hold him back from chasing his dreams. He wanted to change the meaning of the name that meant 'useless’ into something more optimistic 'I can do it’. But let me make it clear- the name 'Deku’ still is a SCAR for Izuku that he will never forget. For him that name is synonymous to his desperation to be a hero. I can’t tell if Katsuki was inspired by this or not, but he is going to choose a name which also equates to his OWN FAILURE. a.k.a. - Ground Zero. This goes with Point no. 1. That name is also a scar for Katsuki, a name that evokes grief - and he will chose it as his hero name. To change its meaning? I sure hope so. Because I love this parallel between him and Deku, both choosing scars for names, meeting their insecurities head on.
For those of you out there who dont know why the name 'Ground Zero’ has been infallibly used as Kacchan’s hero name in so many fanmade-media, and why I am so excited about it - it’s plainly because that’s what the initial sketches of Kohei Horikoshi hinted at. But now I can say with absolute 100% certainity that this name is now as good as canon.
I cannot express in words how much I love this idea.
Although there has been a lot of hue and cry over Katsuki’s hero name with people on both sides of the spectrum expressing their love and hate for the name 'Ground Zero’, some people even suggesting that he would choose 'Kacchan’ as his hero name,
But with this recent development I am dead certain about what hero name Katsuki will choose- and it will be 'Ground Zero’ without a doubt.
Also That’s why I say Karma wont come to bite Katsuki’s ass, he will hunt it down and bite back. Because he is choosing this 'stigma’ for himself, like everything he does in life- he isn’t going to let anyone ( not even Karma) dictate what gets to grind him down. His redemptiom (if it is one for his past behaviour) is also ofhis own choice. And damn, I am gonna keep screaming about it till I lose my voice.
Bakugou Katsuki is a fucking beauty and my love for him and the smol green bean will NEVER die, no Villain, no God can sway me.
[Next I want that he names one of his attacks as 'Trinity Test’ (maybe a little tribute to his Hero partner, Deku and his childhood hero, All Might - a trinity? Yes? No?) Ah well, we will see later]
Anyway….
I love the fact that Katsuki is still consistent in his admiration for All Might, how he is determined to carve glory out of the grief from a name that is supposed to haunt him, much like Izuku. I love how Katsuki, in his own small way, is resolving to be better - and it all shows in the name.
And above all, I love this parallel between Izuku and Katsuki. Love the way they fight the intangible clutches of their own darkness, how they wanna break out of it, how they are so fucking inspiring. Might be just me - fangirling unnecessarily, or even idolizing trauma, but I don’t mean that- I just love the grit these two embody? For me their names hold a blinding inspiration- I might be wrong to believe in it, but it helps me through my day:
“You can do anything”
“So Fight till the bitter end”
You can overcome anything.
What’s in a name, you ask?
What you make of it.
100 X REGRET
I should have known this brat was too big of an All Might nerd to choose anything but a derivative name
Let me cry tears of loss, let me kiss that wide forehead of my beloved name and bid him goodbye forever, let me dream of a world with Ground Zero as his proud name before I must finally go and live with my 'Dynamight' in-laws
I love you Bakugou, I seriously do. And somehow you've become more endearing to me with this nerd-ass stunt, but oh god, oh Dear God- can you imagine the cost of this funeral? All those fics and fanarts gone to shit?
Well, if you must atone, then so will I
BkDk Forest Nymph Deku and Dragon Shifter Kacchan ((CW: Mpreg))
Happy (belated) Birthday to you, Ash!! I had loads of fun drawing this one! (except that gremlin over Katsuki's shoulder, they were a little shit fjsjsjshakkl)
WIP!!!
APPLESEED x BNHA (Cyberpunk/Mecha AU)
LANDMATE Driver - Midoriya Izuku; call sign: Deku
Yesterday morning I woke and I was really uncomfortable so I went to roll over and slammed right into my husband. Annoyed I very hotly told him,“ You are on my side.” To which he responded by throwing his arm around me snuggling up and whispering, “Always.” before falling back asleep.
Damn adorable bastard.
The husband is literally Deku and OP is Kacchan
It’s not funny.
It’s not just competitiveness
It’s not just imitation.
It’s not just respect
This is the face of devotion.
This is not just some plain-old rivalry.
Izuku has rivalries, he has friends.
But Bakugou Katsuki is not just a rival, not just a friend, and not just a bully. Certainly, not just some childhood friend.
He is Izuku’s inspiration, the person closest to him who was put on a pedestal next to fucking All Might, Who was basically considered a god in the MHA universe before his retirement.
It’s not funny to say that Izuku’s admiration for Katsuki is just ‘Hero Worship’.
Because if Izuku ‘worships’ All Might, you should damn well Fear what he will do for someone closer than All Might, for Katsuki.
All Might asked Izuku to step into his shoes in the next Symbol- hewas ready to break his bones in the tournament to win
All Might said he always saves the people within his reach - Izuku nearly killed himself to secure Kouta and save Kacchan
All Might knows Izuku’s spirit and desperation is a fearsome thing. And Katsuki is threatened by it.
Izuku trying to save Kacchan…repeatedly, at the cost of his own damn life…
How he cried like his damn soul was ripped out of his body after Kacchan was taken away.
Tell me one more time that Izuku hates Katsuki, and I’ll show you a devotion beyond words.
Now…Imagine what Izuku would do if Katsuki asked something from him.
But you know what? Katsuki is never going to do that because he is the one person who is intimately aware of everything Izuku can sacrifice in the name of devotion.
And I for one, am really thankful that Katsuki will never dare ask anything of him.
You can call it his Pride. I’ll call it his Fear.
Because the one thing Katsuki fears above everything else is ‘Izuku’s Spirit’
P R E A CH
Reblogging until this reaches a billion!! Because “PREACH”!!!! & “AMEN”!!!
I will never not reblog this. This is like the whole reason for my hc izuku who he was lol. And why I ship bkdk. (One of the many reasons.) omggggg
And now with the most recent chapters, specifically 286, we have this:
Shiggy/AFO calling Katsuki’s sacrifice useless.
We’ve already seen how Izuku reacted to Monoma’s comment, how much anger he felt to the point he manifested a whole new quirk. Before chapter 286 came out, everyone already knew that he would go absolutely ballistic because Katsuki was seriously hurt. And he did:
This is fucking terrifying. Those things are strong enough to break Katsuki’s gauntlets and pierce through his body. And here Izuku is just biting through them. It’s understandable why Katsuki had been so afraid of his spirit and why he had been trying to push him away since they were little kids. He’s so emotional in these moments that he completely disregards the last words Katsuki said to him before he started falling to the ground: Stop trying to win this on your own.
He continues to break his body and tries to go even harder than before (until he’s forced into the other dimension by OFA lol).
Like OP said, this is devotion.
At what cost?
Not drunk yet cause boytoy is teaching a class so I can’t leave the bedroom lmao but I decided I’d start with these panels and discuss a bit
Bakugo has been watching closely the entire time. I don’t think for a second he took his eyes off of Deku, do you see how detailed he is? He knows EXACTLY what Deku is doing, and he knows EXACTLY what it’s doing to him, because he’s seen it all before. Todoroki has seen it, sure, but not to the level Bakugo has.
Not in the context that Bakugo has.
Bakugo has witnessed first hand that broken body running for him. He has witnessed Deku, with no ability left in his arms and barely able to move, running to save him. So of course he’s going to be paying complete attention. How does he end up like that? What has he been doing? What led to all of those scars? This is the first time he is seeing Deku in a battle like this, he has never witnessed it before, just how extremely Deku breaks his body in the name of saving.
Now he knows. The way he looked before Bakugo was kidnapped, this is why. Throwing himself completely away in order to save the people he cares about, letting himself suffer more and more for the power granted to him. It’s a power meant to save, but at what cost? The cost of the user, and Bakugo isn’t having that, which is why we see him move so quickly and so calmly.
This is literally, split-second thinking. I don’t estimate they were standing there any long than 5 minutes before he started giving orders, because he knows who Deku is, and he knows someone would have to stop him.
Hell, he even knows why they’re still up there, because he’s in Deku’s head. Couldn’t get him with the first hit, gotta keep at it. Doesn’t matter what happens, gotta keep fighting till he’s down. Have to WIN, no matter the cost.
Bakugo knows, because it’s how he thinks.
A symbol of victory, but at what cost? Will having Deku see his fight to win nature push him to keep acting like this? How could he get him to see, to understand?
Which is where their flip comes in, and we see this.
Deku isn’t All for One. Deku isn’t like that. That’s not his heart, and Bakugo knows Deku’s heart better than anyone in his life. Which is why these panels above are so important, because he sees there is such a fine line right now due to Deku’s rage, and he knows it can’t keep up this way.
Not if he wants to hold onto the Deku he knows. The Deku who saves
The Deku who always does his best!
What is winning if it means he’ll lose himself?
Just like with Deku in chapter 1, when we’re given the variety of reasons for why he jumped out, we got the same from Bakugo, but with images. Beautiful, heartbreaking images.
All of his reasons for jumping out, they’re all just…Deku.
It’s solely, completely, 100% because the person that is there, about to wind up hurt or killed, is Deku.
The person who has thrown himself into harms way again and again, who has risked everything for other people. The person Bakugo could never bring himself to understand, because he was so scared of the feeling of being close to someone like that, someone who he could lose so easily. How could he friends with someone for them to just..die?
Now we see it again, where Deku is throwing himself away, but it isn’t to save now. It’s to win. It’s to beat Shigaraki and All for One, and maybe it could be said that Bakugo even sees himself in that moment.
“I break and bend until I can’t anymore, if that’s what it takes to win.”
Those were Bakugo’s words. But at what cost? To bend and break and bleed and cry, to lose yourself to the battle, to the need to win. That’s what he saw while down on the ground, and even more when he got into the air and witnessed what Deku looked like, almost like a beast, silhouetted in darkness and anger. But that isn’t Deku.
Not the Deku he knows, and not the Deku he’ll accept.
So he moved, and he saved, because now it’s his turn to act without thinking. To have one image in his mind, the image of a savior. Deku, to him, was and is that. The image of a Savior. Not a symbol of peace, because that isn’t Deku’s true goal. His only goal is to save, and so a Savior is the proper title for him.
When they come together, they make a Symbol of Peace, but respectfully, on their own, they’re the Symbol of Victory and the Symbol of a Savior.
We have come full circle, one has learned what it means to want to win, one has learned what it means to want to save.
But….at what cost?
I can’t stop thinking about it. I had to, at leAst, doodle something. So. Here. Have my poor, poor emotional status at the moment.
MANGA CH. 284 SPOILERS
OF REDEMPTIONS AND ATONEMENTS:
We all been knew, man. We all knew this was coming.
And godDAMN does it fucking HURT. (oh the sweet sweet angstfest this whole chapter is, just *chef's kiss*)
But i legit cannot put into words how deep the choice to 'Atone' cuts on my bleeding bkdk heart. Let's first take a step back and see how Katsuki went from DvK2 to here- that one keystone moment that has given us this beautiful chapter: And I meant ALLLL the way back to Chap. 252
I have already written a whole-ass post based on this panel, which you can check Here.
TL;DR Katsuki was actually paying real close attention to Endeavour in this part. He came to Endeavour to learn exactly what he was missing as a Hero, but he learnt so much more.
This scene in particular left a momentous impact on Kacchan. Here, Natsuo is resistant to the idea of forgiving his father for all his sins just because he is more involved in their lives now. And Endeavour had been dreaming for a while about a Home where he is not present with the rest of the Todoroki's which ultimately gave him the idea of buying a house for the others to live in apart from him. This is HUGE. This is what actually drove Endeavour's Redemption home- the perfect understanding and the perfect compensation, the two elements of a brilliant Redemption Arc. NOT THE FORGIVENESS, just as Enji says it. It is NEVER ABOUT THE FORGIVENESS.
Endeavour understood that it was his presence that caused his family distress, and although he dearly wanted to be a part of his family again, was even making efforts towards it by being cordial and accepting of Shouto's friends, inviting them to a family dinner, etc. etc. Endeavour realized the only way he can compensate/atone was to give up something that would cause him suffering, and them happiness. The idea that your family doesnt want you, when you just started to show some effort and HOPE that they might see you in different light, maybe forgive you and then to just terminate those ties entirely, punting yourself into a void where NO ONE CAN COME IN AND SAVE YOU FROM YOUR SUFFERING, is exactly what Endeavour did. He is actively shutting down the ONE window through which his family could see that he was suffering, and miserable, and wanted to be a part of the family again. Endeavour CHOSE to not be forgiven. To writhe with the knowledge of his sins day in and day out with only the shrine of Dabi Touya to haunt him every waking minute.
I cannot explain just how much determination it takes to do that, man. It's just- WOW.
Excuse me for ranting on Endeavour in a bkdk post, but I swear this has a point. And All Might says this the best:
This is the fanlation, the official release (which I couldnt get my hands on) also mentions that "When I meant you were like Endeavour, I meant the Change"
This here is an important bit that AM has caught onto.
In the 252 panel, where Endeavour says 'It's not like I want forgiveness' (Because Endeavour understands he cannot be, should not be, forgiven) "I just want to make up for everything I have done" (and to back this up, Endeavour shuts down the one communication link that could have offered him forgiveness, and thus salvation from the weight of his sins and his guilt)
Katsuki understood Endeavour's idea of redemption very well here, although he might not be shown with that light-bulb moment. He may have already known this wayyy before Endeavour said anything, but those words lent a solidity and to the path he must persue to acheive redemption: And it's Not forgiveness.
Let me tell you why I think Atonement is the greater factor here, even greater than Redemption itself. Redemption has an end-point: Forgiveness. But Atonement doesn't. Atonement has no expiry date. Atonement is purely propelled by the understanding of self, and the weight of guilt the self bears, whereas a Redemption is All About The Forgiveness.
Forgiveness is an external force, it may or may not be given to you and that is completely up to the person who has been wronged. Atonement is self-imposed, it is a meditation of the soul to forgive itself against the guilt it carries.
If Redemption is a marathon with a banner at the finish line, Atonement is trying to drag a twenty pounds of rocks through the Sahara desert without water, food or a compass- it's endless, hopeless.
And this is why Atonement is greater than Redemption.
And do you think someone as stubborn as Kastuki will ever find himself atoned of his deeds? No. And That, my friends, is The Point. In 252, when Endeavour says, "I dont want forgiveness" it's not just him saying it- it's also Katsuki. "I just want to make it upto you", is also Katsuki.
And to prove it, Katsuki will never ask for forgiveness. A verbal apology will be nice, sure. Especially since dumb-ass, gay-ass, 'Kacchan-sugoi' ass Izuku Doesn't even See it as Atonement. He is just #Blessed that Kacchan and he can talk almost-naturally again. And that is also Katsuki's intention- because the moment Izuku knows, he won't be able to atone this way anymore.
So, as much as I HATE to say this, the chances of a voluntary verbal apology are slim. If allowed to go on like this, Kacchan with continue to shadow Izuku through his life, worrying about him, LOSING SLEEP OVER HIM :
LOOK AT THOSE BAGS UNDER HIS EYES. /*shoves panels in yo face*/LOOK
Can you believe this bitch-ass gremlin who goes to sleep at 8:30 got bags just from stressing over his Deku??????
LOOK AT HIM DOING A HECCIN' MAJOR KOKORO-STOPPING CONCERN.
(He is flipping his shit because he worries, and he worries so much, and has worried for him for a long LONG time.)
- Katsuki will continue on this path of being Izuku's support.
Forever if it takes.
Forever, he hopes, it takes-
Because the only way he will stop is in death, either his own or Deku's.
This is his Atonement: To undo everything he once did, to support Izuku's dream instead of squashing it; To help him get stronger instead of perpetuating the narrative on his weakness; To protect him from all harm, when he once hurt; To be on his side when the whole world is against him, because once he was all, but, for him; To save Izuku as he wins, to win as he saves.
And, To deny each oppurtunity of forgiveness even as he desperately longs to be unburdened of his guilt.
Because Katsuki knows:
He knows Izuku is that one of a million, he is kind and humble and considerate and loving to a fault.
Katsuki knows that Izuku will forgive him in a heartbeat. That is just the kind of selfless, beautiful person he is.
Unlike Endeavour, who had no guarantee to forgiveness, Katsuki does. And that is what makes Katsuki's Atonement more powerful than Endeavour's. He recognizes it is in his grasp, just an arm's length away...
....Just an arm's length.
And Katsuki will deny himself that. Because he does not believe he deserves it. He hasn't atoned enough for it.
"Keep At Arm's Length"
He says. Because this is the critical distance between them. Not "Stay an arm's length away", because Katsuki doesn't wanna run away from Deku, and he doesn't want to be too far away to protect him, nor does he want to get too close to finally recieve the forgiveness that will give him salvation.
This is the fine balancing act Katsuki must maintain indefintely till he believes he has acheived his idea of atonement. (And when has he ever been happy just the bare minimum?)
I know I said Katsuki will never ask for forgiveness, and a voluntary verbal apology is very unlikely, because in it's very nature, it is inviting a forgiveness from Izuku, which we have established, Katsuki wants to avoid. And if this were any other manga, we would have been doomed to this conclusion. But, there is a scenario when Katsuki might issue a verbal apology and that is when Katsuki knows there isn't enough time to be forgiven in turn, or, hasn't atoned enough and can no longer continue to.
Like when Katsuki launches off, to deliver a final kamikaze blow to a villain, and he has only enough time to tell Deku a short "I am sorry", but not enough time to wait for a reply. Or when Deku is dying and at his final moments, when Katsuki knows however much he has atoned isn't enough and isn't how Deku should leave, without closure.
Whatever the future may hold, my dear readers, Katsuki still has a long, long way to go. And I hope to see him live through everything, to be there -
To survive these wars with Deku, To fight alongside him, To protect him. To win. To save.
To Live.
To hear Deku say "I had forgiven you a long time ago";
and ofcourse,
To forgive himself.
Bakugo being left behind
NO THOUGHTS… ONLY DEKU BEING WHIPPED FOR KACCHAN
In BNHA we don’t say I love you, we say THIS.
It's either "Be my Cane" or a fucking Extra
Nothing in between.
School Briefs Vol. 5 - Celebrations!
a lil doodle bc of the light novel lol
/ugly fucking crying intensifies
AND THIS IS CANON
i caNT-
Please stop
I cant with the Bakugou-loses-quirk theory.
Bakugou will NOT lose his quirk, okay? Not now atl least. I refuse to believe that no matter how much of a sadist Horikoshi is turning out to be (and I tried to keep telling, y'all didnt listen)
It doesnt serve any purpose other than some D-rated shock and awe, which Hori doesnt do without the plot to back it up. Bakugou has only begun his character development and to reduce him only as a catalyst of Deku-Rage is doing his character injustice.
Y'all thirsty for Baku-Angst? Make him take the blame for not being quick enough to save Gran Torino or Aizawa. Let him hesitate before diving in to save someone and truly understand the weight of fear and sacrifice it takes to save a life.
None of the Big Three will be made quirkless in this arc.
The other Heroes tho? Yeah, they are all canon fodder tho.
(Sorry, Aizawa 😭😭)
Um....eXCUSE ME??
This is a Japanese love superstition.....ahem...
WHAT THE FUCK?
There’s been some posts recently about the name Kacchan and just how special it is etc etc, and I’m just remembering:
This panel, which is just a list of all the reasons as to why Midoriya ran out during the slug monster incident. And just
Kacchan.
Just that.
Not just, Bakugou Katuski, childhood friend. Because there’s just so much to that name. There’s so much history, but also who Bakugou is as a person, and how cool he is, and what he means to Midoriya, both as a person and as an old friend. Kacchan just encapsulates so much - the fact that Midoriya still thinks of Bakugou like that even though no one else calls him that anymore? It’s…something else, isn’t it? And when you first read/see it, it’s just someone’s name, just Bakugou. But after reading it all and knowing so much more about them and what Bakugou means to Midoriya, it’s just…there’s just so much weight to that word when Midoriya says it
Idk about the rest of you but when i first read/watched this series, I completely ignored that little bit, cause I hated Bakugou and his relationship with Midoriya at first! But even then, you can’t deny just how important Kacchan is to Midoriya
