The girl that thought she knew

I thought I knew the world, I thought I knew myself. Those are both lies, never have a really knew my favorite things. No one knows me like me, because I don't even know me.

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[hackettkay98]

Story of my life

Alright so recently I moved, leaving behind the home that I was familiar with. I now live with my sister and her drunk husband, her disrespectful son, and a lazy friend of theirs. I left my mom, dad, 2 brothers, and my oldest sister. All that Tammy (that is what I’m going to call her) does is say she raised me, and talks about how bad the rest of my siblings are. She continues to play victim, which she has her reasons. The craziness, and loudness of living in the house with these people made me lose control one night. I have 2 new scars, that were put there by yours truly, i just can’t stand not having any quiet. I lose my mind, and myself. I know that if I stay here i will lose myself and continue to lose control. Should i stay and see if i can handle it, or run back to the home i know and love?

[hackettkay98]

Panic

They have gotten worse, the feeling I get when my throat feels like its closing. This triggers the tears to well up, while taking in raggedy breathes. The sobs start to tear into my next, my hands shake, holding them over my mouth to muffle the uncontrollable hiccups. The pacing does nothing to slow the unsteady breathing, running from the area. That is all I can do to calm down run, I know that is the only way for me to make it is to run. Escaping the noise, I pull big deep breathes in, closing my eyes and ignoring the unsteady racing heartbeat that is my own. While the shaking has calmed, the tears streaks are still fresh. Now I need to run again, no much here reminding me of regrets, losses, gains, pain, good, and bad memories. Goodbye Wyoming and hello adventure!

[hackettkay98]

We all make mistakes, have struggles, and even regret things in our past. But you are not your mistakes, you are not your struggles, and you are here now with the power to shape your day and your future

Steve Maraboli, Unapologetically You: Reflections on life and the Human Experience 

You define yourself, no one else. You are your own self please influence your own decisions no one else.

[hackettkay98]

Maybe you have to know the darkness before you can appreciate the light

Madeleine L’Engle

Reminding you that darkness is only temporary while the light can be infinite. You just have to be patient and know that it’s coming you just don’t know when.

[hackettkay98]

Numb

I thought I won this fight, looks like it was only that round. I don’t know if I can clench my fists as tight, or take anymore blows. I have passed the point of feeling, now I am numb. Numb like your fingers get when your outside for to long and it’s snowing. You know your fingers are there you just can't feel, them. I  know that I have feelings, but right now they are extinct. They may come back I can only hope soon.

[hackettkay98]

Let this party start.

I am a party animal... only when it comes to books and some candy.