Without Boundaries

I'm a 23 year old cosplayer, nerd, goober, and anime fan.

[hakujichan]

"Well, I like him more than hard bread." Photo: Krunchy Studios

Cosplayer: Hakuji

[hakujichan]

Photo: Krunchy Studios Cosplayer: Hakuji

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[hakujichan]

Hey look I'm dressing up as Asami again after a long hiatus because depression sucks. Taken while I was making a video for Kathleen, the Sailor Venus cosplayer who lost her mother in a car wreck recently.

[hakujichan]

I think people do that because they don’t know how to respond to venting. Being able to hear someone vent is actually somewhat of a skill.

It's just really frustrating when you constantly let someone vent to you and when you try to vent, they don't let you. :/

[hakujichan]

> try to vent to a friend > they end up venting to me instead This is why I just don't talk to anyone about my feelings anymore.

No one.

[hakujichan]

Please check this out. With mainstream people seeing us as what cosplayers are portrayed as in "Heroes of Cosplay", I wrote a blog post about what REAL cosplay is.

[hakujichan]

im shaking and vomitting. I've reached an all new level of stress and depression because of multiple factors in the past 24 hours.

and now just one more fucking thing on the plate.

I should have just killed myself last night when I fucking wanted to. Then I wouldn't have to deal with this shit anymore.

I am falling apart and trying to fix things but more seams keep splitting on me and I've never felt more scared, alone, and trapped.

And to my friends: don't go asking Matt. He has no idea what's going on in my life at this point.

[hakujichan]

dammit

theres so many things i wish i could say

but every time i speak up, i end up getting in trouble, or being punished or being pushed away or whatever.

its better just to sit here with my head in my hands crying than risk another fight.

shit

[hakujichan]

I got Animal Crossing New Leaf a few days ago and I want to visit people and make new friends and stuff. My friend code is 4141-2851-0050 my town sucks because lol hey just started this week but I want to see other people's towns and villagers and stuff.

So yeah, send me an ask with your code and we can be friends and stuff maybe?

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[hakujichan]

NEVER BABY I DON'T CHEAT ON YOU, SHE MEANS NOTING TO ME.. YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING... BABY COME BACK.

omg i love you

[hakujichan]

So after that nightmare of a wig at Matsuricon, I got a new one from Epic Cosplay. :D I'm so excited for more Venus variation cosplays!

[hakujichan]

A solo shot of my Sailor Venus cosplay! A lot of work went into this, so I'm glad it came out pretty well Aside from the wig. But my new one came today so hopefully I'll get a shoot soon. Also, no gloves, as of yet. I sewed them on the way to the con, then realized, because I was cosplay head, I would be either on my laptop or iphone all day. Both of which suck when using gloves.

Photo by: Tk8919 Photography

[hakujichan]

I feel terrible.

For those who don't know, my friends all went in and bought me a much needed new laptop over the weekend.

And now I feel guilty for being sad or depressed.

It's all in my head. It's all in my head. It's all in my head.

I can't help what life throws at me and when. I can't help my disorder. I can't help the pain I go through over every little thing, and how I nitpick every action and word.

Maybe I'm just ungrateful and selfish for not even being able to be happy.

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