this blog is a venty, dark clangen. it will feature themes listed below in the TW section. these themes will be discussed maturely and not glorified, romanticized, or glossed over.
if you like my art but are looking for something less dark, check out @daydreamclan .
this was inspired by darker clangens such as @branchclangen and @rooted-clangen .
i am using unmodded clangen for this.
this will be a mix of art and writing, but more writing than art.
the refs will not always match the sprites.
TWs
- child abuse (sexual, physical, emotional) *
- self harm and suicide
- mental illness
- murder, including murder of children
- domestic violence and sa*
- queerphobia, ableism, and other bigotry
*the act itself of csa / sa will NEVER be shown. i will portray the aftereffects and trauma of it, but you will not be seeing or reading about the act.
i will not take criticism through anon. if you want to tell me i'm disgusting for processing my trauma, say it with your chest. otherwise you'll be laughed at.
i do not TW healed selfharm scars, or any scars no matter the severity. real people have scars, and people should not be ashamed of their bodies or called scary or body horror.
i am so so grateful and happy that y'all enjoy my blog and my silly little solstice
uhh i genuinely don't know what i should do to commemorate this, should i do some sort of event? i see blogs doing "design this upcoming cat" for milestones but i don't play ahead so i don't have upcoming cats. y'all are as caught up as i am.
💜(Character specific)- Is this character open and proud about their true self, or are they closeted? Or somewhere in between?
solsticepaw isn't ready to be open about it yet. she's afraid of judgment and hatred. there were no openly queer cats in lilacclan. she hopes one day she can feel safe enough to be open.
🖤(Character specific)- When did this character realize their identity? How did they initially feel about that realization?
solsticepaw is still on that journey tbh. however she does know she's probably not straight. i don't think she'd be one to have a lot of crushes, so i'm gonna say she's had one (1) crush in her life, and it was a molly. back in lilacclan.
heatherpaw was the leader's daughter. a major perfectionist, and never showing any hints of liking girls, solsticepaw knew she didn't have a chance. no one like heatherpaw would ... there was no way. so she bit her tongue for the extent of her stay there.
as for how she felt? lilacclan wasn't the most accepting or kind place for solsticepaw. being queer wasn't a thing cats were open about there. so she honestly felt kinda upset about the realization- like, she was already dealing with a lot of stuff, and now ur telling her she has to deal with hiding her identity too? uuugh. just one more thing for her to stress about. she probably has some internalized stuff haha.
💙(Character specific)- What is this character's identity labels, if they use any at all? 👀👀
gender: solsticepaw is a cis molly, but i feel like she's a bit.. disconnected. she's cis in the "too tired to care" way. i can't see her having many big feelings about gender yet, unless clangen decides to spice it up.
orientation: she's only eight moons old so this can and will change! but right now she's not entirely sure. however she knows she's somewhere on the multisexual spectrum, being attracted to all genders. she also may be arospec in some way tbh? i could possibly see her having a romance when she's older, but i feel like she might be demiromantic, greyromantic, or something similar. i don't think she's entirely alloromantic tldr.
solsticepaw padded down the dirt path, her paws aching from how far she'd walked. how many days had it been since she'd left lilacclan? she didn't know.
she looked up at the moon, barely showing behind a drifting cloud. would starclan approve of her leaving? would they understand? or would she be shunned?
she gave a sigh, settling down underneath a bush on the side of the path. she'd been walking for so long. her stomach rumbled. she'd have to hunt soon. but she was so tired. it could wait.
solsticepaw closed her eyes. things would be better tomorrow.
hey soo let's spread some positivity. i was gonna make a rant post about something i saw, but that's not helpful. so.
your clangen blog is worth it. whether it's one of the first blogs people think of when they browse the tag, or it has no followers at all. your passion project is worth it.
your art, your writing, your storytelling, it's worth it. promise.
an eight moon old molly, solsticepaw has been through a lot in her short life. she is troublesome, but quick to make peace. more details about her will come in the first moon update!
