I found some of my old poems that I felt I should share starting with this one
When people see me, they see a girl who’s shy
Every day after school, I would go home and cry
All alone with no hope, I have nobody
Deep down, I want to be somebody
Whenever I try, things go wrong
I might as well sing my swan song
Each day, suffer fills my heart
Each day, I grow more apart
Each day, I wonder why I was born like this
Why can’t I be blessed with bliss?
People to be are considered feared
I hide my eyes to avoid contact
Some wonder if it’s real or an act
I wonder if I am to blame
But I know it’s the monster inside of me
Mauling its way out to be free
Every day I watch the world go by
I see it differently through my eyes
My senses tend to be stronger
I don’t know if I can take it any longer
I see things others don’t see
Certain noises can bother me
I cringe when I am touched
I focus on one subject too much
Sometimes my voice is loud
Sometimes it’s soft like a cloud
I’m nervous and awkward in social scenes
It doesn’t matter if they’re adults or teens
But when fear strikes, that’s when I shake
My world crumbles like an earthquake
I can’t handle when things change
People wonder why I’m so strange
I wonder if this is how it’s going to be
A world where no one can hear me plea
Words hurt like sticks and stones
I really don’t want to die alone
No one should be judged by the way they were born
People can be roses but still have thorns
We’re all different in our own ways
Even when we don’t have much to say
I know that this monster will always be here
Everywhere I go, it brings me fear
But it also blessed me with a creative mind
To look beyond from front to behind
Being an Aspie has made me unique
Somedays I’m strong, somedays I’m weak
And if you think I’m odd, because it’s true
Take a look at yourself, what about you?