the things we do just to keep ourselves alive

Hi there. I'm Annika, I'm 21 and I use this place to post my own photography and write down whatever is on my mind. Enjoy.

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Woah, hi tumblr. I haven’t posted on here since January apparently, and I’ve barely been on here since then either. That’s 7 months ago, shit. How are you guys? My followers count haven’t changed much at all so thank you for still following me. I don’t really know what to say here honestly, I’ve been good, I’ve been working a lot these past months, I think I’ve had 2 weeks off since February, 2 separate weeks and I was away not resting the whole time, but it has been fun actually, I had my last day at work yesterday and now I have like a week to pack up my stuff and prepare until I’m moving again and start studying film, which I’m incredibly excited for. I really hope I’ve made the right decision this time, but only time can tell I guess. I hope you’re well and let’s hope, both you and me, that you can expect a bit more frequent updates on here from now on.

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I literally have to run to the bus this very second but I'm wearing some of my absolute favourite clothing today and am in a very good mood.

[ohthativy]

You are stronger than you realise. You are crueller than you realise. The smallest words will break your heart. You will change. You’re not the same person you were three years ago. You’re not even the same person you were three minutes ago and that’s okay. Especially if you don’t like the person you were three minutes ago. People come and go. Some are cigarette breaks, others are forest fires. You won’t like your name until you hear someone say it in their sleep. You’ll forget your email password but ten years from now you’ll still remember the number of steps up to his flat. You don’t have to open the curtains if you don’t want to. Never stop yourself texting someone. If you love them at 4 a.m., tell them. If you still love them at 9.30 a.m., tell them again. Make sure you have a safe place. Whether it’s the kitchen floor or the Travel section of a bookshop, just make sure you have a safe place. You will be scared of all kinds of things, of spiders and clowns and eating alone, but your biggest fear will be that people will see you the way you see yourself. Sometimes, looking at someone will be like looking into the sun. Sometimes someone will look at you like you are the sun. Wait for it. You will learn how to sleep alone, how to avoid the cold corners but still fill a bed. Always be friends with the broken people. They know how to survive. You can love someone and hate them, all at once. You can miss them so much you ache but still ignore your phone when they call. You are good at something, whether it’s making someone laugh or remembering their birthday. Don’t ever let anyone tell you that these things don’t matter. You will always be hungry for love. Always. Even when someone is asleep next to you you’ll envy the pillow touching their cheek and the sheet hiding their skin. Loneliness is nothing to do with how many people are around you but how many of them understand you. People say I love you all the time. Even when they say, ‘Why didn’t you call me back?’ or ‘He’s an asshole.’ Make sure you’re listening. You will be okay. You will be okay.

(via paintdeath)

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I feel like I should write something here, I'm back home again. Which is a bit sad really because holy fuck New Zealand is amazing, I don't regret for one second going there even though it cost me a fortune, only thing I might "regret" is that we only went to the north island but we didn't have enough money to see both this time but I'm telling you, someday I'll go back and I'll rent a car and drive all over that beautiful country! We started off our trip in Auckland, took a boat to see Waiheke, went down to Matamata and Hobbiton, then on to Rotorua and down to Wellington and back up again. I don't even know what to say about it, I've wanted to go to New Zealand for 7 years now and I finally did and I had an amazing time. I will show you pictures as soon as I've edited them but now it's back to trying to sort my life out.

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Hi. Don't expect any regular updates from me in the coming 2,5 weeks, I'm busy pretty much the whole weekend and on Sunday evening I'm going on a trip to the other side of the planet, to New Zealand (!!!!!!!!!!), with one of my best friends and I literally have no words to tell you how excited I am but that's what's up and I don't know when I'll have access to wifi or even where I'll be the whole time but I truly think it'll be an amazing trip and I will come back with tons and tons of pictures to show you.

[rofko-deactivated20150430]

1. 99% of the time, you feel better when you go out. Don’t turn down social invitations. Meet people and talk to people and try new things. 2. Take photos of your friends. Take photos of their feet and their hands and their faces and the landscapes around them. 3. Drink tea everyday. 4. It’s not uncool to be clever. Be clever. Please be as nerdy as you can be, because ultimately they’ll come a point when people realise that clever actually is pretty cool, and life gets better for everyone after that. 5. When you’re sad, talk to people. 6. If you love someone, let them know. Don’t be afraid to tell people how you feel - it saves a lot of hassle to be sincere. 7. Live in the moment. Don’t think too much about the bigger picture. Don’t think about the long run - take each day as it comes and fill it with small things that will make you happy.

7 Things I Learnt Before I Was 17 (via quiettea)

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I saw this lovely person tonight and it was absolutely fantastic.