the fact that yuuji said "i'll be lonely without you, fushiguro" and then was is so sick and twisted oh gege akutami when i catch you
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the fact that yuuji said "i'll be lonely without you, fushiguro" and then was is so sick and twisted oh gege akutami when i catch you
holmes/watson is perhaps the only ship I ship where I concede the sex sucks. which is fine. they love each other. they’re highly sexually incompatible but they make concessions. watson would never reproach holmes for his bony ass and pillow princess ways. once or twice a year is less intimacy than watson would like but he loves holmes and holmes loves him. watson finds holmes irresistibly sexy and holmes thinks sex is a bit of a waste of time but finds watson’s attraction to him very flattering.
I need vrs I want
I need to write COI end + epilogue.
I want to write a new story. A/B. Omegaverse.
And what am I writing?!
Nothing. Nothing at all. 😭😭💔😭😭🤍
A tree without roots
Chu wanning is THE character ever. He's powerful, talented, and righteous. He seems perfect and put together. He's a hot mess. An absolute wreck. His room looks like a hurricane touched down in it. He regularly falls off his bed. He makes robots. He's a hazard in the kitchen aside from exactly one (1) dish. He has a resting bitch face but honestly is just socially anxious. His only friends are his students, his boss, and a little gremlin dragon he made (which can grow in size. And he can ride it. He rides a fucking dragon). He's gay. His taste in women is "female. alive." He has a terrible sugar addiction. He can drink you under the table several times over. He has sexy dreams about getting absolutely railed into next week by his beloved. He wants to be held gently and be called beautiful. He knows next to nothing abt sex. He stuck a candlestick up his ass. He once tried to remove his spiritual core by carving it out of his chest with a sword. He dragged his beloved up 3799 stairs while on the verge of death. He was carved from a block of magic wood. He traveled through time and space, creating an entirely new timeline to change both his own and his beloved's fates. He split apart his soul and shoved half of it into his beloved. He ran away when his beloved confessed to him. He's afraid of heights. He cannot handle anything even remotely spicy. He dies. He comes back to life after 5 years. He gambles. He's a man of the people. He won't hesitate to cut a bitch. Children are terrified of him. What else.
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you may have left a detailed paragraph about the structure of their sentences and their usage of extended metaphors. you may have also left a "COMPLETE PERFECTION. PLEASE WRITE MORE I NEED IT". we love you and need your validation more than oxygen nonetheless. 🫵 go comment on somebody's fic
original work
so COI is almost done, and like I have outlined the remaining chapters. I also think I have decided on an ending, thou, I will ask for readers opinions too.
Still it makes me happy that after five years, it will be finally done! Be that I write anything else in OW or not, but this work will be finished hopefully this year!!!
I'm almost there 😭🤌
Btw!
Here are the link:https://archiveofourown.org/works/22380733/chapters/53471362
Blue Morning by Shoko Hidaka
Blue Morning by Shoko Hidaka
nagi seishiro and dependency. - an analysis
as we know, nagi has been neglected by his parents his whole life, they travel frequently and leave him to his own means — not even helping him move.
because of this, he's conditioned himself to a lifestyle where he doesn't rely on anyone but himself. he's never learnt how to depend on others properly and has probably never considered it an option. it is also implied that nagi feels unimportant to his parents, with this panel right here where he tells reo that he probably means a lot to his parents if they constantly meddle in his life — which as you've probably guessed, heavily contrasts nagi's own family, where they hardly even speak or take care of him for that matter.
but well, reo comes along. and reo takes the typical friendship to the extra mile, as he takes care of nagi deeply, making sure he eats, helping him with getting dressed, giving him a piggyback when he needs it, etc. kind of like how a parent would take care of their child. (dont get it twisted i am not calling their bond familial in the slightest) but doesnt that fit so conveniently? reo spoiling nagi, taking care of him, when nagi's whole life he had no one to depend on? this is exactly why nagi got so attached to reo fast. reo gave him something he never had before. for once he didnt have to depend on himself, but was able to depend on someone else. and as he feels unimportant to his parents like i said earlier, reos behaviour made him feel important to someone for the first time.
now that nagi knows what its like to be valued, to depend on others, he doesnt wanna lose it. in this panel he says 'lets not do the stuff we didnt like when our parents did it to us' to reo, and reo assumes nagi was asking him to stop meddling, and nagi affirms this thought. perhaps a stretch, but i think theres a double meaning to this line — the other being 'dont leave me alone the way my parents did'
why do i think that? because he follows up with one of his most iconic lines 'dont die before i do'
he has become very reliant on reo, and very quickly too. in the blue lock exhibition audio guide, he even expresses that he wants reo to spoil him more and keep doing so for a long time. he's gotten comfortable with depending on reo.
in terms of soccer, nagi is also reliant on reos passes.
in the manshine vs barcha match, nagi had a bit of a crisis regarding his dependency towards reo. he realised that reo didnt have to rely on him and could score his own goal, while in contrast, nagi was going through a bit of a slump and couldnt score. he came to the conclusion that he had to score on his own or he'd lose reo. but unfortunately as we all know, he didnt, and on top of that, got locked off.
for once, nagi felt fear. he had always been content relying on and being with reo, but now he's face to face with the fact that their dream is over, because he relied on reo too much and didn't search for his ego.
this then leads to the infamous scene of him discovering that he was blocked by reo. but instead of resenting reo for this, he blames himself. he calls himself uncool, disgusting, a creep for just simply trying to rely on reo again.
and it all just boils down to one thing, his upbringing. he had been on his own for so long, relying on no one but himself. he thinks that everything that happened was all his fault for letting himself depend on reo.
he blames himself for wanting to depend on reo, and he's frustrated at himself for not changing and becoming independent.
the one thing nagi needed most in his life ultimately led to his downfall. he is someone who needed love and security but never received it growing up, and as a result does not know how to accept it in moderation.
nagi seishiro and his unstable self image -an analysis
nagi's self image isnt just a straightforward 'im amazing' or 'im worthless' . its ever changing and alternating.
the first thing i want to note is how throughout episode nagi , but also a little bit in the main manga, we see nagi struggle with identifying his feelings, what he truly desires, his ego — everything, really. (im not gonna go into details of why this might be, thats for another time) but these moments presented to us already gives us an idea that nagi already has a shaky sense of his own self which i believe will correlate to everything im about to say next.
for someone presented as an unbothered king that does not care about anything, i think its very interesting how interested he seems to be in finding out the essence of his being, who he truly is etc. he's still trying to figure out who he is — unlike all his peers who seem to have their goals sorted out already. but i digress, lets move on.
arrogance + self centeredness
i know those adjectives sound negative, but i promise you its not like that. nagi is arrogant to a certain degree, and arguably quite self centered and heres why i think so:
firstly, he's a soccer genius. despite playing for only a few months at the time(start of bluelock), he had never lost a single match. this likely made him quite confident in his skills, as he even straight up said to ego that he can easily imagine scoring the winning goal at the world cup — which is no easy feat and a bold claim on his part.
and mind you, he wasnt always fired up about soccer in the beginning. he only did after finally losing a match. he has said multiple times he craves the feeling of winning, rather than soccer. winning is what gets him fired up, because according to him, it makes him feel like "a god" and that gives him pleasure. i feel this really ties in to the self centered part of him , in a way.
there is a lot more i can think of really, but this is getting long. tldr nagi has an arrogant streak to him and he likes to feel like he's the best (he doesnt like losing & craves feeling like a god)
self doubt and self loathing — insecurity
despite him being arrogant and feeling like hes the best at times, he can also do a complete 180 and feel like he's the most worthless being in the planet ( hence, unstable self image)
we first see his self-doubt and insecurities depicted as he asked reo multiple times throughout the manga if reo ever plans to replace him. he even once stated he thinks reo is weird for putting up with him — which tells us he has some sort of underlying insecurity of the way he acts. this is a stark contrast to the confident nagi we often see on the field ( however for his last match — we did see him shaken up and worried )
but what about his self loathing?
after getting locked off, he blamed himself. the same nagi who once felt like a god and carried arrogance for his soccer abilities blaming himself. he called himself disgusting and a creep just for wanting to go back. even going as far as to say 'you make me sick' to himself. and again, this is such a huge contrast to the previous panels. from 'i can easily envision scoring the winning goal in the world cup' a statement filled with confidence and cockiness, to directing the hateful words of 'how uncool can you be? you make me sick.' to himself.
to conclude, nagi has a very poor sense of identity and a self image that is constantly shifting, which i think makes him stand out especially since these shifts are pretty drastic. and when you consider the fact that him being unfazed by most things is a highlight of his character on a surface level, it rlly makes this whole thing even more ironic
this dynamic is PEAK 🙂↕️
To all my writers who have a tough time with smut terms and not knowing which ones to use, I have found the holy grail for us.
This reddit user, who I've recently found out is @kjscottwrites here on tumblr, took a poll of 3,500 people and went really in depth with asking their favorite terminology, along with actual pie charts on what the readers preferred to see in their smut.
Check out their post with the link to the Google doc here!
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I could be drawing real things, instead I spent several hours designing fake phone charms for Joker's phone for a twitter meme.
I love when people leave kudos on my old fanfics. It seriously makes me so happy knowing that someone out there is still reading and enjoying them, even long after I posted. Like my brain goes “oh wow, that thing I wrote months ago is still being read???” and it just… makes my whole day better.
There’s something pretty comforting about it too. New fanfics always get some kind of attention when they’re first posted, but old ones feel like they’ve been sitting quietly in the depths of AO3, and then suddenly someone comes across them and leaves kudos. It’s such a nice reminder that the stuff you write doesn’t just vanish after the first few months: it keeps floating around the fandom, waiting for the right person to find it.
So, to anyone out there who’s clicked on a fic from years or months back, and decided to leave a kudos: you’ve probably made a writer’s entire week without even realizing it.