I mean…if that’s how it’s gotta be…that’s how it is. Ain’t gonna hear me complain.

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I mean…if that’s how it’s gotta be…that’s how it is. Ain’t gonna hear me complain.
I need someone to regress me and feminize me into a diaper girl🙈😳
So…when do we start?
Everyone wants to find a mommy that's surpised by the nighttime accidents they have in their diapers.
I wanna find a mommy who's absolutely not surprised, and constantly says things like;
"Oh! No worries! That's why you're in diapers, huh?"
"Clearly you don't have accidents. This is just how it works for you."
"Ha! There's no way I would let you try and go without a diaper tonight. You can't stay dry to save your life! Now lay down so we can get you changed."
"Another leak... that's okay. I wouldn't expect anything less from a bedwetter like you. We'll just have to find some thicker diapers for my lil bedwetter. Good thing we have a mattress protector for situations like this."
"Yep, it's completely normal for you to wake up soaked every morning, bud. I would be seriously worried if you didn't."
"Well, I wouldn't expect that you'd be able to know you're going potty in your sleep. If you can't tell when you're having an accident during the day, why would you know at night? Silly goose."
"Yes, your diaper has to stay on for silly adult time. You always fall asleep right after, and we know what happens when you go unprotected at night. That's right. You and Mommy both wake up in a puddle."
"What do you mean why do I have a stash of your favorite diapers at my house? You pee your pants, do you not? Don't worry about how I got them. Just go pick out which one you want for tonight so I can get you into bed before it gets super late."
So, if one of you could tell my future mommy about this, I would be grateful.
A Fateful Choice
Part Seven
Her package came the same day as His. I set hers in our bedroom and opened His without further delay. He had sent the outfit I was expected to wear under my normal clothes when we met as well as a new dildo. Like He said it should be, it was thicker, longer, and more intimidating than my other one. I had gotten decent with being able to take the other one all the way, although my gag reflex made things difficult most of the time, and I was learning to push through my discomfort. But this new one was an entirely different monster. It wasn’t absurd like some of them that you see in those porn videos, but it was intimidating nonetheless. Eight inch shaft, veiny contours, and easily thick enough to fill my whole mouth, it didn’t even look possible to get down to the base. Perhaps the most unbelievable aspect was the packaging. In large bold letters at the top it said Average Joe but nothing about it seemed average. Maybe my eyes thought it was bigger than it really was but holding it in my hands confirmed my suspicions. Even when I could get hard, I wasn’t as big as this. It was emasculating to think that I could never measure up.
Did you get it?
I pondered how to thank Him for the gift. I still felt trepidation around the whole thing. There was that part of me that said the whole thing was completely ridiculous and untenable. Not that I was a size queen or anything, but at some point, the physics of it just wouldn’t work.
Moreover, how do you thank someone for sending you a bigger dick to suck and fuck? All crassness aside, if I thought about it logically, which seemed to be getting harder and harder, the facts were fairly straightforward. He wanted to see this new dildo in my mouth or my ass, likely so He could imagine that it was His cock that was fucking me. To add to the absurdity, either realistically or not, once we met, it was over. We hadn’t discussed anything beyond that and while the cage had been a fun little experiment, I was ready to have my dick back, one way or the other.
That was the bravado talking. It was easy to think and feel those things in private moments between property checks at work, where my mind was more focused on the tasks at hand and not the heavy weight of His untouched property. It wasn’t easy when the lingerie was laid out on the bed and I had His gift in my hand. The desire to play with it was strong and I twitched in anticipation.
Yes, Sir. Thank you.
Good. Put the clothes away for now and unwrap your present.
I did. I nearly folded the lingerie and hid it deep in my jean drawer. I took the other thing to the kitchen and cut it open with kitchen shears. The noise of the plastic was deafening and I could swear that everyone in a ten mile radius could hear me opening my new cock.
I pried it out of the package and set it aside. I was still dressed and used the opportunity to take the garbage out, thus removing any chance my wife would see the package. Once back inside and with the curtains closed, I stripped down and worked the plug into my ass. I’d been consistently using the largest one I had for a few weeks now. The others didn’t seem to hold as well and I didn’t want to constantly have to adjust them when I was doing my training.
Dressed only in my panties, I returned to my new toy sitting imposingly on the counter. I was shaking slightly from anticipation and intimidation, two very conflicting feelings that messed with my head. I loved the thought of doing kinky sexual things but the sheer girth of the new toy was offputting, even if it was nice to look at.
You need to wash it first. Warm water, light soap. Make sure you get in all the crevices.
I will, Sir.
To say that washing it was a strange experience was a bit of an understatement. It felt weighty in my hands, with a softish texture, but a firm surface. It could flex a little, mostly at the suction cup base, but felt nearly lifelike. It was a departure from the one that I was used to. Also, and perhaps more importantly, feeling its features in my hand was an unusual experience. As a man, I was used to how mine felt, and the one I had been using was life-like in its appearance, but more jelly-like in its makeup, which allowed for greater flexibility. By touch, I knew it wasn’t real, but this one had an uncanny valley type feel to it. Colder than expected, but as close to a realistic feeling as anything I had ever felt.
The more I touched it, the more my body clenched around the plug. I couldn’t deny that I was turned on by it, as if the wet spot in the front of my panties wasn’t a dead giveaway. In my defence, pretty much anything outside of breathing got my motor running. I was in a state of constant, low arousal and some of the most mundane things could get me going.
It is done, Sir.
Good. Now you will learn how to worship cock.
He sent a video about precisely that: cock worship.
Follow the steps very carefully. Take your time and enjoy it.
Yes, Sir.
I retreated to the bathroom with my new toy and after setting some towels on the floor for extra padding, stuck it to the wall. It took a few tries to get it at the right height but eventually I got it where it was roughly eye level. It hung down a little from its base, kind of like a real one would, and unless I straightened my back, I had to tilt my head a little, essentially looking up the wall where I could imagine His face would be. I sent a top down picture of it and my face for His approval.
I had never seen His face. In all the time we had been talking, he’d never shown me a picture of what He really looked like. Even the first pics had been only of a mouth and a dildo, with no guarantee that it was His or not. I hadn’t questioned it before but as I knelt there, ready to play the video, and looking up at the thick phallus dangling just above me, I began to wonder what the hell I was doing.
Good Boi. Now worship my cock.
As quickly as they came, the thoughts vanished. I started the video and a sultry female voice guided me through the steps. I rubbed my lips against it, kissed the head, licked the balls, kissed up and down both sides of the shaft, tongued the full shape of the head, and worked up quite a bit of saliva before I even opened my mouth for it. It was large, almost impossibly so. I had to pace myself. The video was a slow burn, but inch by inch slowly made its way into my mouth. By the time I had even attempted to take it down to the base, it was covered in drool and my face was a sloppy mess. The tempting voice urged me on and I continued, gagging each time it hit the back of my throat. I couldn’t deepthroat it without choking, not yet, but the way it felt in my mouth enticed me to keep trying. I tried to imagine how His big, strong hands would feel like gripping my hair or holding my head still while He thrust into my mouth. I had no experience to support the thought other than reaching one hand back on pushing on the back of my head to make myself go deeper and deeper on it.
The video ended with the last girl getting a money shot as a reward. I ignored the sounds and kept going. I wanted to believe that I could stop when I was allowed to and after the video, I sent a short clip to Him of me still sucking on it. He had made it clear that I was for His pleasure, not my own, and even though I was dripping like crazy on the floor, He still wasn’t satisfied.
That’s a good Sissy Cocksucker. You don’t stop until I tell you to.
Part of my brain broke. The rational part that said I had free will and could stop at any time.
I continued to choke on His dick. My eyes watered and tears ran down my face. Large strings of saliva dangled off my chin as I continued to force the cock down my own throat. My ass clenched so hard around the plug that I could have sworn I was going to break the base off. I was His meat. His hole. I used myself for His pleasure.
I don’t know how long I serviced His cock. I lost track of time. By the time He had allowed me to stop, I couldn’t think straight. My legs were jelly and my jaw was numb. All I could feel were the contours of the dildo on my tongue as if I had been memorizing them.
Show me how you lick up your mess.
I weakly lowered my face to the floor where my cage had leaked all over the place. I was in such a submissive state that I wasn’t thinking about what I was doing. I recorded myself licking the puddle off the floor. Every drop spilled wasn’t wasted. I sent Him the clip.
Back on my dick.
I don’t remember opening my mouth but the picture I took clearly had it in there. If you had dared to ask me at that moment, I would have tried to say that it belonged there.
Glossy eyes? Cum on your chin? You are clearly cock drunk. Good Sissy. You can clean up now.
Yes, Sir. Thank you for letting me serve you.
Oh, we are just getting started. When I’m done stretching your throat, I stretch out that ass.
Yes, Sir.
One more thing. You will stop calling me Sir. From this point forward, you will call me Daddy.
Yes, Daddy.
Record it. Thank me for letting you worship my cock.
I knelt there, weak and used. In that moment, my subby brain would have done anything He had asked. I looked up at my phone, His cock resting on my nose, His balls on my chin, and I named Him as He wanted.
“Yes, Daddy. Thank you for letting me worship your cock, Daddy.”
Good boi.
The haze in my head took a while to fade. I had cleaned everything up, gotten dressed, and was working on making dinner when my wife came home and once I told her about her package, she rushed off to the bedroom and closed the door to open it. She said it was a surprise and I wasn’t allowed to see it. Which was fine. It was usually some chintzy gift that I had to fake liking to validate her feelings. I ignored the quirky behavior and tried to wrap my head around how eager I had been to fellate my new dildo. The stinging pain in my balls told me everything I needed to know. Once properly tempted, I would do anything for a chance to cum, even though I couldn’t and wasn’t allowed to. It was the buildup, the rise in arousal that was so enticing. The inevitable high and then slow descent gave me time to organise my thoughts and be strangely productive in a way that I couldn’t really explain. It was like a drug, addictive and controlling, where, unlike an orgasm, I wanted to keep going again and again.
I served her dinner in bed. She was under the covers and didn’t seem to be interested in me, but she thanked me for the food and said she’d been thinking about me all day. I lied and said the same before leaving her to her shows. If I had any guilt, it was quickly overshadowed by a twitch of His property, a clench around the plug, and the sore throat I had from His dick in my mouth. She didn’t know and didn’t need to know. I would do what I could to ensure that and one way or another, when we did finally meet, I would get free of the cage and put all of this behind me, no matter what it took.
7128 Court St. Friday. 10 A.M. Rent out room 5. It's time.
Hmm…
I’ll take a bit of hand and paddle, otk, medium heavy, with a thick diaper as aftercare, please and thank you.
Oh, no!
Please!
Stop!
Don’t!
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Anyway….
rlly rlly missin my diapers rn
“Now, I want you to stare at that package of diapers. See how many are in there? You will wear and use every single one of them. Every. Single. One. And if your behavior doesn’t improve, we will start over. Again and again until you learn how to treat my daughter with the love and respect she deserves. And my hairbrush will drive the point home, won’t it? Now start counting!”
Because you know you are not allowed to. Only big boys are allowed to make those kinds of messes and you aren’t a big boy anymore, are you? Besides, you know what happens if I find anything like in your diapers. Oh yes, baby boy, the cage goes back on. Even smaller than the last one and for as long as I deem necessary. Babies don’t cum, and neither do you.
A Fateful Choice
Part Six
Where were you?
How may I serve you, Sir?
By answering my question.
I was with my wife, Sir.
Not with my property you weren’t.
No, Sir.
You better still be plugged.
I am, Sir.
What were you doing with her?
I had managed to keep my wife out of our conversations for the most part. She wouldn’t have approved of being talked about. She had retired to the bedroom to scroll her phone and watch her shows while I cleaned up from dinner. I still had to make my lunch and start my morning routine which included going through her dresser for a pair of panties to wear.
I was servicing her, Sir.
Hands or mouth?
Mouth, Sir.
So you’re a pussy boi and my little cocksucker?
Yes, Sir.
Did you make her cum?
Twice, Sir.
Did it excite you?
It did, Sir.
Eating pussy or serving her?
I glanced up from my phone and from my spot on the couch I could see my wife. She was laying on her side with her laptop playing some show I wasn’t interested in and scrolling her phone. His question didn’t have an easy answer. In all truth, going down on my wife was something I hadn’t really cared for. Maybe it was me being selfish but I never really got anything out of it. Her pleasure hadn’t factored into the equation and I only did it on her birthday out of apparent obligation. But this time was different. I wanted to please her. Or did I? Did I only do it because she told me to? Was I only interested in serving her like I served Him? I didn’t really know for sure. But it was fun and exciting and just feeling a closeness to her made my secrets easier to bear.
Both, Sir.
It was the only answer I could come up with that reflected how I felt.
And now you understand that your place is on your knees, serving others far more superior than you.
Yes, Sir.
I’ve yet to see your new purchase.
I haven’t found one yet, Sir.
Too many choices, too little time?
Yes, Sir.
Hungry cocksucker. Choose fast before I choose for you.
Yes, Sir.
I dripped in my cage. Being reduced to an action was something new. All I could picture was all the times I’d been on my knees. My imagination ran wild and it was there that a knot began to form in my stomach. A knot of cold realization. We were supposed to meet in two weeks, whether I was “ready” or not. And I knew what the expectation was.
I was expected to live up to my name.
It was a thought I hadn’t come to grips with, mostly because I hadn’t really thought that it would happen. But His vernacular kept changing, becoming more pointed and direct. His words were no longer minced and He almost sounded eager to put my name to the test.
But was I?
No. No I wasn’t. Toys and lube and following instructional videos was the most thrill I needed from this venture. The thought of kneeling before a man and touching his cock wasn’t something I was remotely interested in, even with my cage rattled brain. What I wanted was the cage to come off so that I could finally get the release I needed and the sinking feeling that was steadily growing in my gut was telling me that one way or the other, I was going to have to face the music at some point, which led me to the thought that consumed my mind for a while.
How far was I willing to go to get the cage off?
I’m expecting a package. When it comes, be a good boy and don’t open it.
I stared at the message with confusion on my face. My wife ordered things all the time and I never bothered to look at them. Mostly because I didn’t care enough to pry and she usually had to show it to me the second she pulled it out of the box like she was expecting me to be proud of her or something. But that wasn’t what had me confused. She never called me a “good boy”.
I want to say that our relationship improved after that night of her riding my face but it seemed to be business as usual for the next few nights. She came home in a mood, ate and showered, then laid in bed to play on her phone while I took care of the house or the yard. I didn’t pry into her motivations, but I couldn’t help the feeling that she was just uninterested in the services I could provide. She had assured me that I had done a great job but that was the end of that little adventure.
Undeterred, I kept doing my chores. It helped me think about something other than the plug and the upcoming deadline, and I could use it to burn off some of my pent up energy. His training had accelerated and I was spending every night filling one hole or the other. He hadn’t forgotten my indiscretion and made sure to stop my part way through so that I could clean up whatever mess dribbled from my cage.
They call it PNC. Post Nut Clarity. Well, no nut for you but it still fits. After the high of extreme arousal, you are more resistant to further activities. That is something I will change.
Yes, Sir.
A sissy derives pleasure from serving and will be made to serve even past arousal or release.
Yes, Sir.
You do not truly understand it yet. You exist for my pleasure and only when I’m through with you will know what it’s like.
Yes, Sir.
You will be used wherever, whenever, and however I see fit. And speaking of fit…
A picture showed up on my screen and I almost dropped my phone.
You will wear this when we meet.
It was a picture of a girl in sheer black lingerie and stockings. It was dark but almost see through. The stockings came up to her mid thigh and the lingerie had lacy trim to it. She didn’t wear heels thankfully but her lips were bright red and her makeup was done.
Another picture came through. It was the same girl in the same outfit but her makeup was running, her hair was a mess, and she looked like she’d been through hell.
Once you’ve been properly broken in, this is what you will look like.
That knot in my stomach burned like an ulcer. There was a cold, emotionless tone in His words. Like He didn’t care about how I felt, only what He was going to do to me. I swallowed hard. I couldn’t get the tortured look in her eyes out of my mind. It was like she had given up a precious part of herself and was now dead inside. I knew that look. I had seen that empty, dazed expression before on my own face time and time again. One of the first things I did after a training session was look in the mirror, if only to see if the sickness I had inside could be seen on the outside. Or perhaps I was looking for some sort of sign that I had changed; some visual indicator that I was no longer myself after having done such depraved things, and wonder if people would notice. But dead eyes were temporary. The memories were there but, after a while, you blink away what you’ve done and only those that know your deeds can see what you really are.
He typed one last thing that made my stomach churn.
And I can’t wait.
“Cant even look me in the eyes, can you? Is it because of this spoon? Is it because you know you went too far? The look on your face says it all but it’s too late to say you’re sorry. You will be sorry. That’s for sure. Drop your pants and get over my knee. The time for talking is over.”
his roommates agreed not to raise his rent, but it would cost him in other ways
Especially when it was his own mother that suggested it. Provided the supplies. And taught them how to change him. She would stop by once a week to make sure he was following their rules. Being a good boy. Using his diapers. He hated it at first. Hated her and hated them. But mostly, he hated himself. He hated himself….for liking it so much.
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Could anything be more perfect?
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A Fateful Choice
Part Five
“If I didn’t know any better, I’d say you’ve changed,” she said after coming home for the sixth time in a row to the house being picked up and cleaned. Her dinner bubbled slowly on the stove and the smell must have tickled her fancy. “What’s going on?”
Avoidance of the truth was something I desperately needed to master and this was the first time I had been tested on my new behaviors.
“Can’t a guy spoil his wife every now and then?”
“Doing housework is spoiling me?”
“I like to think that helping relieve your stress by taking care of things around the house is kinda like spoiling you.”
“No, it is, but the question is why?”
“No reason.”
“Bullshit. You want something. “
I shook my head. The thong I was wearing slid a little further up between my cheeks and the motion made me clench around the plug.
Her eyes narrowed before widening. “It’s sex, isn’t it? It’s been what, a couple of weeks? You do some things around the house in the name of spoiling me but what you really want is to get off.”
It had actually been over a month but it’s not like I was counting or anything.
“Nope. I mean, sure, I’d like to get off. What guy wouldn’t? But that’s not spoiling you.”
“So you don’t want sex?” She sounded puzzled by the notion that I didn’t want to cum, even though that’s all I wanted to do.
“I don’t want you to feel like it’s one more thing that you have to do today. You do too much as it is.”
“Who are you and what have you done with my husband?”
“What? Is it so wrong of me to want to put my wife’s pleasure before my own?”
“Never in the history of our relationship have you ever put my pleasure before yours. Shit, half the time I’m barely getting started and you are passed out.”
She wasn’t wrong and the harshness of it was degrading. I never was good in bed.
“And I’m not okay with that anymore.”
“Remains to be seen. I’m not saying I don’t believe you, I’m just saying that actions speak louder than words.”
“Well maybe I will have to prove it to you.”
“Uh huh. Sure. I’m going to go wash off the day I had.”
“Okay. Your dinner will be done shortly.”
She nodded and walked past me. The house was clean and smelled fresh. I’d used a little bit of carpet cleaner to put a clean scent in the air. I stirred her dinner while she showered and set it to cool before the water stopped. It would be a minute before she would eat it so I went to her bathroom to see how she was.
Like normal, she was wrapped in a towel and was drying her hair with another one.
“The house looks good,” she said. “I don’t want you to think that I don’t notice.”
“I have some extra time on my hands after work.”
“Usually you just scroll on your phone or watch TV.”
I shrugged. She wasn’t wrong but she didn’t know that my scrolling was usually talking to Him. “Trying something different.”
“Why?”
“Because…I don’t know…I just want to.”
“You just want to?”
“Have you ever just wanted something?”
“Sure. I want to have an orgasm more than once a year, but I’m not about to start changing the oil in the cars to make it happen.”
“You don’t-“
“Sweetie, I love you but the only time you make me orgasm is when you go down on me and that only happens on my birthday, otherwise, I have to take my magic buzzy friend into the shower and try to get off while standing. And sometimes, I even have to fake it on my birthday, so if you ever wonder why you only get one blowjob a year, it’s because the effort isn’t there for either of us. And if you think that cleaning the house is somehow going to make a difference…well, it is but not enough!”
Her reaffirming my inadequacies made me strain in my cage. I wanted so badly to toss her in the bed and prove that I was great at sex but knew that even without the cage, the only way I could prove her wrong was with my tongue.
“I want to be better for you.”
“Then make an effort! It doesn’t have to be some grand gesture but it needs to be something!”
“You know I’m no good at being forward. I don’t want to do the wrong thing and upset you.”
She sighed loudly. “I swear sometimes it’s like you're the woman in this relationship. Do I need to give you fucking instructions or a treasure map?” She dropped her towel and stood facing me. She pointed at her pussy, “See this? Your face goes here!”
My knees almost gave out at her brazen, authoritative tone. My heart pounded and my eyes widened. I couldn’t tell if she was serious or not.
“Are you waiting for an invitation? Get on your knees and show me you’ve changed or get the fuck out of my sight!”
Gravity didn’t feel fast enough. I fell before her and she put one leg on my shoulder, turning me with her hips so that she could see herself in the mirror. I was so used to being on my knees with my mouth open that I was ready before she was. My tongue danced and twirled and it wasn’t long before her moans reached my ears. She ground her hips into my face and ran her fingers through my hair. All I could see was her stomach tensing repeatedly as I serviced her.
“Not here. To the bed.” She said between gasps. She dismounted me and went into the bedroom. “Lay down,” she commanded.
I complied. She crawled onto my chest before hovering over my face. She looked down at me with blatant desire before lowering her hips. I put my tongue skills to use. Months of practice holding my breath and feeling contours and details out with just my tongue had made me more confident than I had ever been. She ground her hips into my face but I didn’t care. I didn’t care about anything but serving. It’s what I was meant to do.
I don’t know how many times she orgasmed, if she even did, but by the time she crawled off my face, I was covered in juices. My tongue was sore and I couldn’t taste or smell anything but her.
“Now that’s how you spoil a girl. Go clean yourself up and we can have dinner together, though you have already eaten.”
“I could eat again.” I didn’t know if she was referencing food or her, either way, my overstimulated mind didn’t care.
“Oh, don’t tempt me with a good time.”
I went to my bathroom and washed my face. I looked down the front of my pants to see I had leaked a considerable amount in her panties. I felt exhilarated and used at the same time.
As my mind and body calmed down, I set the table for her. It was something I planned on doing anyway, but seemed like going an extra mile all things considered. When she finally came out of the bedroom, she had her hair in a bun and one of my old tee shirts on that draped down to her midthigh. She looked and smelled amazing.
As we ate, I struggled to find anything to say. I didn’t want her thinking that because I went down on her that I was expecting something in return. It was just something I did, that was all. Which, of course, was a complete fucking lie. I did it because she told me to and if she told me to do something else, I’d do that too.
“So, uh, sorry about earlier. I kinda said some mean things.”
“It’s fine. You were right.”
“Doesn’t make it okay. I wouldn’t want you talking to me like that.”
“Doesn’t make it wrong, either. It was the heat of the moment.”
“Yeah…I guess.”
“Was…was it good?”
“Phenomenal! I didn’t know I could orgasm back to back like that.”
A job well done is its own reward?
“I…uh…you were…really something.”
“It was the heat of the moment. I got carried away.”
“No, it’s fine. It really is. I…I’ve never seen that side of you before.”
“I don’t know if it’s a side. It just kind of came out.”
“Wasn’t the only thing that came.”
She smiled and blushed a little and I was reminded of how cute she was. Scary sometimes, but still cute.
“I think I took it a little too far. Even if it was mindblowing.”
“I didn’t mind.”
“Really? You liked that?”
“It was shocking but I didn’t hate it.”
“But you don’t like it?”
I didn’t know what to say. If I was honest, I’d likely scare her but the truth was that I loved it.
“So you do like it.”
She must have been able to read my expression. Her words sent a wave of panic washing over me.
“You like it when I tell you what to do…” She let the thought hang in the air and I felt my insides twist. It was the same feeling I got when I first kissed that dildo. I could see the gears turning in her head.
“So…say I wanted to go again…” she looked up at the light above the table and bit her bottom lip. The look on her face drove me wild and like a fish on a hook she slowly reeled me in. “And I wanted you to crawl under the table…all I would have to say is…down boy?”
I slid off the chair and under the table. Her legs were already spread out for me and I could see at a glance that she wasn’t wearing any underwear. Her hand came down and with a finger, she motioned me over to her. She shimmied the shirt up over her butt and when her hand found my face, she pulled me in.
”Nice and slow.” She breathed soft, pleasurable words. “Take your time and enjoy it. Mmmmm!”
My knees had gone numb and my back and neck burned by the time she pushed me away. I could have sworn that she rubbed a bald spot on the top of my head. I don’t think she got off but I was certain that wasn’t the point. She was testing me, for what, I didn’t know, but I think I passed. For the time being, my secret was safe.
A Fateful Choice
Part Four
What are you?
That was the question I woke up to. My eyes were barely open as I sat with a clink of my cage on the toilet seat. I spread my legs slightly and tucked the cage down before allowing myself to relax. Morning wood and chastity was a terrible combination of pain and discomfort as my attempts at an erection threatened to rip my balls off. I had learned quickly that sitting down to take a leak was the safest way to avoid making a mess all over the place.
Ten days had passed since I foolishly closed the lock. I washed and shaved the best I could, front and back, and my balls felt engorged and heavy. It was the longest I had ever gone without jerking off and with twenty more days to go, I could only imagine what they would feel like.
But what was I? That was harder to answer. I knew what I was expected to say but was that how I felt? I wasn’t sure. I wasn’t sure about a lot of things. The routine was taking hold and more and more I felt conditioned. Wake up, check messages, affirm my place, cage check, shower, panty check, get ready for work, random cage checks throughout the day, come home, strip naked, plug ass, continue my training, do my chores, and, most importantly, don’t let my wife find out.
I’m your sissy bitch, Sir.
The more and more I said it, even in text form, the more reinforced they became. I was wearing panties daily now, and because I was doing the laundry, she was none the wiser. I was getting to the point where certain tasks had become automatic, like the morning checks, and the words seemed to feel more real with each passing day.
It is time to accelerate your training. I expect you to be ready for our first meeting.
Yes, Sir.
From this point forward, you will start your day on your knees asking “How may I serve you?”
Yes, Sir.
You will buy another dildo. It must be lifelike, bigger, and longer than the one you have. You will send me the link to it for my approval before you buy it.
Yes, Sir.
You will also buy a pink dog collar at least 1 inch wide with a center ring. You will be collared every night for training.
Yes, Sir.
I was starting to shake. With each addition, I felt I was losing what little freedom I had. It almost felt like one of those porn videos coming to life. Step by step my manhood was being stripped away and I was letting it happen. Part of me felt trapped, like a prisoner in a cell. A rat in a cage.
The irony wasn’t lost on me. I wasn’t sure what I was going to do, but the threat of Sir loomed over me no matter what I did. His ownership of me seemed absolute. Short of Him marking my flesh with His name, I was His. It was amazing how much I had already given up. It seemed like I had no spine which seemed completely at odds with the life I had lived.
Sure, I could sit here and tell you how I am this great manly man who somehow got tricked into the things I’ve done. I’m sure I could spin a good yarn and convince you that I’m the victim in all of this. And maybe there’s a part of me that would even believe it, but it simply isn’t true.
Let’s just take a minute and be honest, alright? Appearances are just that: how things appear to be. If you were to see me at the grocery store you wouldn’t be able to tell by looking at me that I have a metal cage around His property and a heavy stainless steel plug buried in my ass. You wouldn’t know that I am currently wearing my wife’s panties and have been training for a few months now to deepthroat a man’s cock. You wouldn’t know any of that just by looking at me. What you would see is that I’m not the outward, go get em, beer chugging, deer killing, pussy slaying, all America man’s man. I’m just an average guy. Entirely forgettable. And the only reason things even progressed how they did was that I was enthralled by the thrill of it all.
To say that my sex life with my wife was sterile was probably the biggest understatement of the year. I wanted sex, like any man would, but didn’t have the skills, stamina, or drive to really take charge in the bedroom. I was never the kind of guy to just bend her over and take what I wanted. I often waited for her cue because in this day and age where consent is everything, even pushing a little could be too far. Our lack of communication both in and out of the bedroom meant that sex really only happened if the stars aligned. My wife liked sex, at least I thought she did, but I couldn’t help but feel like we were just going through the motions for the sake of it. It all felt stagnant and boring.
So when the search for excitement brought me to anonymous social media sites, I didn’t see the harm if playful banter between strangers. But when the conversations got more serious and more personal, I felt like I had finally found someone who understood me.
I perhaps was too blinded by how I felt to see the warning signs. It started innocently enough but gradually, the person on the other side took control. Don’t say that, call them this, always message in the morning and before bed. Subtle directions that formed the basis of my inevitable descent. I willingly went along with it, thinking that I could end it at any moment by just deleting the app, but the longer we talked, the more it felt like that person was the person for me. They understood my needs more than I did and they preyed upon my vulnerabilities.
As with everything on social media, it inevitably comes down to sex. For those of you that might not know, Americans are heavily self conscious when it comes to sex. It’s all over our media and literature but we don’t talk about it face to face. It’s like we are ashamed of it or something, but I digress.
I never learned His name. Over months of talking, names weren’t really brought up, but when the conversation shifted to talking about our sexual experiences, it became clear that I was woefully inadequate. Sir, as I was directed to call Him, knew far more about sex than I ever did and toyingly teased me with that knowledge. When He said I reminded Him of a shy schoolboy, something clicked in my brain, and when He commented that I should be hazed like a pledge in college to earn my place among men, I buckled. One of my favorite genres of porn was hazing videos. The humiliation ritual of “how far would you go” was really exciting to me. When you aren’t well versed in sex, anything new seems exciting. The reality, however, was another thing altogether. I’ve never considered myself a coward. If I’m challenged to do something, I usually do my best to rise to the occasion. And I know what you’re thinking, because I thought it too. “There’s no way I’m sucking on a dildo or putting anything in my ass!” And the vast majority of men wouldn’t even consider it, but every now and then, there’s someone that just so happens to put the right spin on it. Mind you, in no way was this an excuse, just an explanation.
The first time was a dare. That’s it. That’s all it was. He sent a pic of His mouth kissing a dildo and dared me to do the same. And I did. I perhaps foolishly believed that what I was seeing was real and not some heavily cropped image ripped from a porn vid. I was naive and stupid. From there, I eventually had it in my mouth and if I had stopped for a second to actually think about what I was doing, I probably would have backed out, but the dares just kept coming and the thirst for competition drove me further and further on the path I found myself. It didn’t take long before He stopped sending any proof, just clips and short videos of things He wanted me to do. And I did them. It was erotic, exciting, secretive and alluring. I had an unnatural desire to see if there was something even He wouldn’t do but was too blinded by the constant stimulation to see that I was being groomed.
I recognize now what had happened. I mean its not hard to see how far I have fallen when I click the pink collar around my neck while I lube up a plug with my saliva before pressing it into my ass. Sometimes I even coat it with the dribbles from His property before I put it in my mouth because I know that’s what He would want me to do.
I have no defense or logical reasoning for my behavior, other than the way it makes me feel when I’m commanded to do something that I wouldn’t normally do. And in the end, they are just toys. It’s not like I’ve actually sucked a cock or been fucked in the ass. It’s masturbation with a role play kink. But even as I write those words, I know they sound hollow and empty. Especially when I’m bouncing on my dildo while looking for a bigger one to buy. It’s something more than a clever twist of words and the ache in my balls that doesn’t go away is a constant reminder of the looming deadline where all my disingenuous phrasing gets thrown out the window.
A Fateful Choice
Part Three
You will.
Two words that fucked my head up for the remainder of the week. I didn’t do any more training that week and the absence of it was concerning. I couldn’t help but feel as if I had disappointed Him which led me to wonder if I would ever get out of the cage. The more the days wore on, the more I got comfortable with it, but it was always at the front of my mind. Every time I showered, slept, stood, breathed, or took a piss, I was reminded of what I had done. To make matters worse, I knew that time was against me. If she didn’t find out by accident, she would definitely find out when she expected me to perform in the bedroom. Every side eye had me sweating bullets. I knew I couldn’t talk my way out of it. Refusing to have sex with my wife would immediately raise red flags and showing her the cage would create just as many questions and concerns.
All I did know was that I was on the brink of panic every moment I was awake. The apprehensions about my wife discovering my condition, disappointing Sir, and the thought of licking my mess up off the floor dominated my thoughts. I didn’t know which way to turn or what to do. I was in over my head and was screwed no matter what I did.
Bitch Boi.
Yes, Sir?
It was Friday afternoon. I was home from work and still had time before my wife was due home. Sir had been fairly silent since I failed in my task beyond demanding pictures of me in panties. I hadn’t dared to question Him as I felt like I was existing on literal eggshells.
You alone?
Yes, Sir.
Strip and cage check.
To further my humiliation, He would often randomly ask for a picture of my cage. Several times it was when I was at work and I had to sneak off to a stall to snap a shot of what He called His property. I never got a reply to the pics, but it left me feeling exposed and vulnerable.
I went to the bathroom and stripped naked. I took a mirror pic of my body from the neck down with emphasis on the cage and sent it.
Plug. Mouth then ass.
I could feel the excitement start to build at the command. It had been almost a week since I had a release and I felt like I was in a constant state of low arousal around the clock. I had barely made it to the shoebox when a dribble from my cage swung and stuck to my thigh. I looked down at the constant reminder of my place. My heart pounded in my chest. There was something about doing what He commanded that felt so natural.
My lips trembled as I held the plug in my hand. I salivated at the shiny stainless steel. I could see myself in its mirror-like surface but the exhilaration overrode any sense I might have had. With my phone in one hand recording, I pressed the plug into my lips, slowly adding pressure and relaxing my jaw. I let the plug slip into my mouth and ended the video. It was smooth and heavy on my tongue. I rolled my tongue over it. Its size felt different in my mouth versus where it was going to end up. It felt smaller somehow.
I sent the video to Him, hoping that my facial expressions and obedience pleased HIm.
All too eager to have your mouth full huh?
Yes, Sir.
Good boi. Plug that ass.
I felt emasculated as I started a new video and pulled the plug from my mouth. It was wet but not nearly wet enough. I spit on it as He would expect me to and bend over slightly, pressing the warm metal to my ass. It took a bit of prodding, but I managed to record it sliding in and the base being pulled tight between my cheeks.
Get used to it. You will be plugged every night when you get home from work.
My knees went weak. It was one thing to share messages and videos when no one was around, it was another to be doing anything when my wife was home. At some point, it was too much.
I don’t think I can do that, Sir.
I didn’t ask you to think. Kneel.
I fell to my knees. I wasn’t sure why but an order was an order.
Understand this because I won’t say it again. You do what I tell you to when I tell you to. You follow my orders to the letter no matter what. If I say you plug that hole, you plug that fucking hole. If I say lick that cum off the floor, you fucking get down there and lick it up. All of it!. You will do exactly what I say, every time I say it. This isn’t a threat. This isn’t a what if. This is a reminder that I fucking own you.
I own your mouth.
I own your ass.
And I definitely own that tiny little clit you have dangling between your legs.
You are my sissy bitch. Got it?!
I was shaking at every word. Shaking and dripping. He spoke with such commanding presence even over text that had I been standing, I probably would have fallen to my knees anyway.
Yes, Sir.
Then say it.
I held the phone up and pressed record. I angled it so that He could see me on my knees.
“I’m your sissy bitch, Sir.”
Don’t ever question me again.
I spent the rest of the day cleaning. He checked my cage and plug a few times before logging off. The added pressure on my prostate made me leak constantly and I couldn’t wait until I could put some clothes on. I swear He had her drive time down to a silence because I was finally allowed to get dressed as I saw her car coming down the road.
Walking around plugged was a new experience. Thanks to the lack of lube, my body held it pretty firmly in place and the constant stimulation added a whole new layer to being pent up. I stayed busy trying to try keep my mind off of it and by the time my wife walked in the door, I had most of the house clean except for a load of laundry currently on the spin cycle.
There was only one thing on my mind: not getting caught. Which meant I only had two options. I could piss her off to the point of an argument which would guarantee that I wasn’t getting any sex, or hope that she had such a long day that all she wanted was to come home and relax. Seeing a bunch of housework would be sure to make her angry and add to her stress, which I also didn’t want. I didn’t mind housework. It was mindless and I usually just put on some music and got it done, but during the week, I didn’t like doing anything after work, much less coming home to extra work, and I was sure she didn’t either.
“How was your day, honey?”
“I don’t even want to talk about it. I need a shower, food, and to veg the fuck out.”
“I can make you something really quick if you want.”
I’m not much of a cook but there are a few things I can do well. Like grilled cheese and anything from a box if it comes with instructions.
“A couple of Hot Pockets would be nice.”
“Coming right up.”
“Thanks, I’m going to take a quick shower then.”
She disappeared into the bedroom while I dried my hands from the dishes and opened the freezer. It wasn’t long before I heard the shower running so I checked for any messages from Sir.
The only thing that was sent was a video with a comment.
Watch this daily. This is your new life, Sissy.
The video wasn’t very long, but was titled Serving your Superiors. I half expected it to be a hypnosis video. They were fun but never useful. I guess I was part of the population that couldn’t be hypnotized. I figured I had a least ten minutes before she was out of the shower so I turned the volume down on my phone and pressed play.
The video was a set of instructions on how to be a better sissy, whatever that meant. As it played, I warmed her Hot Pockets and dug around the freezer for something to make for my dinner. I rolled my eyes at a lot of it. The core tenets were obedience, subservience, and submissiveness. Essentially bowing down to whoever was in control.
The title was a misnomer though. At least to me it was. It wasn’t so much as a guide or an outline of what to do but a seven minute degradation session where I was being constantly reminded that I wasn’t worth anything unless I was being used as a fuck toy. While entertaining as a thought, it wasn’t hitting the triggers in my head. Likely because no one was talking like they were truly superior. It was that fake bossy that came off as annoying more than anything, with too much emphasis on the term “fucking bitch” than anything that really commanded my attention.
I didn’t finish the video. Four minutes in and I closed it. It was boring me and that was saying something about someone in a constant state of arousal.
I could smell my wife’s body wash from two rooms away. God she smelled good. I put her sandwiches on a plate and carried them into the bedroom. She had just gotten out of the shower with a towel wrapped around her chest and one in her hair. She saw the plate and smiled at me as she stood in front of the sink to finish getting the makeup off her eyes.
Her scent was intoxicating and against all the warning bells in my head, I got closer to her. I reached out to grab her plump ass when I caught a weird expression from her reflection. One of those, “Are you serious right now?” kind of looks.
My hand fell away and a coldness washed over me. Even if I could tempt her into bed, I couldn’t do anything about it. I was owned by someone else and there was no way I was going to get to cum for the rest of the month. The unbreakable steel weight that kept me down was of my own doing and as she let the towel drop to get dressed, her body was a stark reminder of what I had given up. Dejected, I let her be. Eventually, I would have to find the privacy to take the plug out as I wasn’t going to sleep with it in and she would likely be asleep before then. I adjusted Sir’s cage around His property while she brushed her hair and left the room. There was nothing there for me anymore.