[hartfulguyldenstern]

I'm Hart ☆ @propheticreaper1600 host. No matter how refined my tastes are, the fact of the matter is I'm spending all day doing nothing but lounging around, eating, reading, and watching television. It/it's/he/him. I'm an elf.

[campmiasmas]

bru & dee’s friday movie night (8/?) ◆ psycho | 1960

[forecast0ctopus]

another bone

[itshype]

8/∞ times Gus matched Shawn's freak.

[orthodoxic]

SO, YOU'RE SCHIZO? READ A BOOK.

* this list only contains books i've personally read and enjoyed. comment or tag any suggestions and i will include them in this list.

RELATABLE TO NEGATIVE SYMPTOMOLOGY

the book of disquiet by fernando pessoa

the trouble with being born by e. m. cioran

the stranger by albert camus

nausea by jean paul sartre

RELATABLE TO POSITIVE SYMPTOMOLOGY

white nights by fyodor doestoevsky

convenience store woman by sayaka murata

RELATABLE TO MIXED STATES

the fall by albert camus

INFORMATIVE

solitude by anthony storr

the integrity of the personality by anthony storr

the divided self by r. d. laing

[nessa007]

Abbott Elementary S4 + Gregory's looks to the camera

[hartfulguyldenstern]

I don't even care about movies. I hate movies. All of them, yes.

[hartfulguyldenstern]

Everything feels strange and new today.

[kristina100000]

i like that

[enchantedbook]

'Bats' by Edward Gorey

[oldshowbiz]

ok

[hartfulguyldenstern]

[idlelizard]

matters of the hart

[fuckyeahkitschy2]

[the1920sinpictures]

1929 Bathroom at 607 Foxwood Road, La Canada, Flintridge, California. From Art Deco 1920, FB.

[daphnemoon]

[qyburn]

transfem frasier crane conspiracy (tw: cringe)

he idolizes women -- in which case he scrutinizes them as harshly as he does himself -- while using them as substitutes for what he thinks he's lacking in his performance of masculinity.

his fling with the blonde bigshot lawyer was the first time the idea of participating in lesbianism & abandoning gender roles altogether was ever presented to him, joke or not. it was the first time he felt actual bliss, & it stemmed from the fact that he was "the woman", even if he recoiled from the idea once it was actually spoken.

the four women in his mindscape -- hester (the source), lillith (the ego), diane (the superego), & nanette (the id)-- were the ones he held above all others because they represented the kinds of women he wanted to be at different times in his life.

lillith & his mom are the ones he always goes back to bc they are his primary source of gender envy; they're hard, tough, fiercely intellectual, and do not ascribe to dainty femininty whatsoever. they're not girlish -- they're Womanly; unabashedly so, and they never compromise. they are also the ones who were most influential to his growth & change as a person.

this also speaks to the tension he has with roz sometimes & why she's so often the butt of his hypocritical slutshaming jokes, considering how everything frasier does stems from his insecurity.

instead of admitting to feeling like a failure of a man/a son he resorts to childish attempts to gain marty's approval while simultaneously lashing out at him over little things.

the fact that he placed patricia clarkson's character on a pedestal, someone who shares all of his interests & therefore speaks to the desire for his woman to be a mirror rather than a complex human being, speaks volumes. its also his way of trying to replicate what he had with diane, i.e. the non-threatening comfort of the mirror.

the other major blonde in his life is his piano teacher. I believe she's instrumental to the distance aspect of his attraction to blondes -- on one hand he can seek comfort in women who don't challenge him to think outside the box, but more importantly he can mirror a relationship that Was fundamentally wrong & ended poorly so that the predictability of failure/need for sabotage is always there.

he does Not like himself as much as he lets on & i think this relationship was crucial to the crippling of his self-esteem, which leads back to the realization that he prefers to self-sabotage rather than see a potentially happy relationship through. he was raped when he was 16 & subsequently gaslit into believing He was the problematic element in the relationship, & so this carries on to every romance thereafter.

i think whatever freudian bullshit he experienced w rita wilson's character was less about the oedipal complex & more about how the piano teacher forever muddied the gender connection he had to his mom as another older maternal figure. a reach, but hester never seemed to be the traditional saccharine mom that rita's character emulated through her gentle -- almost infantilizing -- attentiveness, which I would not put past the piano teacher to employ as a predatory tactic.