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She/Her INFJ-T Ravenclaw Daughter of Athena

[escapismsworld]

"I fell in love with her courage, her sincerity, and her flaming self respect. And it's these things I'd believe in, even if the whole world indulged in wild suspicions that she wasn't all she should be.... I love her and that’s the beginning and end of everything."

- F Scott Fitzgerald

[hundredpages]

A Tribute to the Unspoken, The Beginning

[midnightspunisher]

when richard siken said “you’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and you’re trying not to tell him that you love him” and when mitski said “you’re in the house and I am here in the car ‘cause I just need a quiet place where I can scream how I love you” and when taylor swift said “you almost ran the red ‘cause you were looking over at me” and when lorde said “now we sit in your car and our love is a ghost well i guess i should go”

[haunteddonutsalad]

Can anyone relate ?

For the past year or so I discovered my inability to finish anything. I can't focus on things the way I used to. When I am at school, watching a show, reading a book or listening to music I slip away in a daydream. A daydream that ist so much more amazing than my actual life.

But apart from that I can't even do things I actually enjoy (such as reading or watching movies) not only do I fall into a daydream. I also don't really see the end of whatever fiction I am consuming.

I don't wanna loose the characters I love ( I'd rather dream about being with me in this exact point in the story, imagine how we can do it together).

I don't want it to end. The book, the show, the movie. Once it's done, it's over. It will never come back. It will never be like it used to be. And you know that this sucks?

It sucks that happy ending now means "most people survived" when it once meant "All the good people got to live the life they deserved after all" But all I get is death and pain. And I am so tired of it.

And so I cope that and other stuff in my daydreams, but even though I know its not real I sometimes forget. And I have no one to talk to.

[haunteddonutsalad]

Maybe I am in love with a boy, who doesn't believe in love.

But this sounds more like poetry than reality, more like a song than a cry, more unrealistic than it is.

But than again, isn't that life?

[reverie-quotes]

But perhaps no parent can truly see their child. When we look we see only the mirror of our own faults.

— Madeline Miller, Circe

[euripideez-nuts]

botany dark academia

[metamorphesque]

Vincent Van Gogh

[haunteddonutsalad]

"Alles, was einen Zweck hat, erfüllt ihn eines Tages und ist damit verbraucht. Selbst Gott besaß den Zweck, die Menschen zu trösten, und siehe da: Mit seiner Ewigkeit war es nicht allzu weit her."

"Everything that has a purpose fulfils it one day and is thus used up. Even God had the purpose of comforting people, and lo and behold: it was not too far off with his eternity

Juli Zeh, Corpus Delicti (2009)

[amargedom]

“We must be our own before we can be another’s.”

—

[haunteddonutsalad]

"Die Nacht wurde erfunden, damit wir uns Stück für Stück an die Dunkelheit gewöhnen. Der Schlaf wurde erfunden, damit wir uns Nacht für Nacht an den Tod gewöhnen."

"Night was invented so that we gradually get used to the darkness. Sleep was invented so that ee can night by night get used to death"

Juli Zeh, Corpus Delicti (2009)

[haunteddonutsalad]

and I know it's unfair, but sometimes I feel so insecure that I can't hold back these thoughts.

The thiught of how one day you'll not love me, not be by my side, leave me even if you now say you won't.

And I am not mad, that's not it, I am just scared. Too scared to get heart-broken eventually

[perfectquote]

“Say it before you run out of time. Say it before it’s too late. Say what you’re feeling. Waiting is a mistake.”

— Unknown

[haunteddonutsalad]

Sometimes you are more yourself around people you don't actually know that well, because whats the worst that can happen?

On the other hand you limit yourself around the people closest to you, because your afraid they would turn away if they knew who you truly are

[haunteddonutsalad]

When the entrie world around you is burning, you feel ashamed for not being on fire too

[haunteddonutsalad]

when jane austen wrote "if I loved you less I might be able to talk about it more" I feel that. I really do.

[haunteddonutsalad]

Acting like we're just friends is so hard.

It's not because I can't see you interact with others or because or friendship isn't important to me.

It's because we try so hard to not act like something more than friends, that we end up not acting like friends anymore.

And it fucking hurts